Okay so I was asked if I could write a jonnie ff, so this is the first chapter. I'm not sure how long it will be or how good it will be, but I hope you enjoy it.
I can feel myself falling deeper in love with him, I mm not even sure it's real yet. But it's there. It's undeniable. But does he feel the same. Well I think so, I hope so, I don't know.
I can't take my eyes of him. The way he walks, the way he talks and that smile. The one that cuts through my heart seeping deep into the depths of my soul. I fall asleep his face in my dreams and yet I'm scared. Scared of falling in love again. I find it hard to breath when I'm near him, my skins prickles under his touch and my knees go weak.
He drives me crazy, my every waking hour I feel him, he takes over me. I'm a love sick teenager all over again. And then he slips past me and I melt. I'm basically Olaf. Well I might as well be. My head spins, and I hope he's mine. I'm loving him now but he just doesn't know, and I don't think he ever will. It's unprofessional, I've been here before. Can I do this again? I'm not sure.
Just to taste his lips, his breath against my cheek. Him lay next to me in the morning instead of just a cold empty space. My thoughts are beginning to take over. The sound of his voice rings in my ears, it's comforting. But then I feel like this shouldn't be the way. I can barely hear myself think when he's near me. I can now feel my eyes dropping, I'm falling asleep. Him still consuming my thoughts.
Running around in my dreams, the longing for his touch, the scent of him filling my head. The schemas filling in the blanks. I dream of his kiss. The sweet morning after kiss on the head. Waking up to find I'm tangled in his embrace. I love him with a heavy heart, what if he's never mine? This love seems so breakable. My heart breaks a little bit every time when he looks away. The glances that take my breath away fade out. And now I don't know.
I sit up, the reality kicking in. Why do I always end up imaging the worst. Of course he feels this way too. He has to. The looks he gives, the cheeky smiles and brushing of our skin. He drives me insane. I'm so in love with him, and yet I can't actually admit it out loud. Will he make the first move. What if he kisses me today. How do I react? Do I kiss him back?
Stop fretting it will be okay. I close my eyes and tilt my head back. I see his face, my body relaxes. He's there, my heart flutters. My eyes stay closed, I'm falling back to sleep. Happy thoughts now Connie I tell myself. It's all going to work out.