Hi! This is my first FanFic so I need lots of feeback. Needless to say this is also my first yaoi attempt so I hope I did okay. In the timeline this comes after the battle at the Gallows (End of DA2) and before the events in Inquisition. Male Hawke (seme) and Fenris (uke). This chapter is like 85% smut so don't read if you dont like that kind of thing! I don't own Dragon Age so dont sue me!
If I get any positive feedback I plan on doing the next part of the story which is how the lovebirds spend the time before heading to the Inquistion.
"What are you going to do?" Varric asked, setting down his tankard.
"Leave." Aiden Hawke sighed, "If I leave hopefully the Divine will search for me and leave the city alone. If not, then at least it will divide her attention while she searches for me."
Varric nodded, it was the sensible thing to do after all, but Hawke had not built his career on sensibility, "And Broody?" he asked, referring to Fenris.
"I will accompany Hawke of course." It was the first thing Fenris had said in almost an hour. However, those simple words, that affirmation that it would be a sure thing that Fenris would follow him made Aiden's stomach flip-flop.
Fighting the urge to break into a stupid grin Aiden took a gulp of the Hangman's finest. The taste was terrible enough to keep Aiden's smile under check but now his stomach was flip-flopping for a different reason.
"Am I going with you?" Merril asked sweetly.
"Better you stay here Merril. The alienage still needs help." Aveline pointed out. In the days following the battle at the Gallows Merril had been instrumental in helping the elves. She had become their advocate and leader in a way that had surprised Merril most of all.
"Oh." She sounded slightly disappointed, "But you'll be back soon right?"
"That would be nice." Aiden said smiling at her. He didn't want to commit to a promise of returning. The way things were going, he couldn't even promise that he would be alive much longer.
"Thank you for doing this Hawke, no one wants to see an Exalted March on Kirkwall." Donnic said gratefully.
"Any word on Anders?" Donnic was the first one to say his name since the battle. He was asking Varric of course, even with the chaos around them Varric was still the man with all the answers.
"No, as far as I know Blondie has totally disappeared." Varric sighed.
Hawke wondered if this was true or if Varric was simply covering for Anders. It probably didn't matter.
"And Sebastian? Kirkwall doesn't need an invasion from Starkhaven either." Aveline asked.
"Still sulking I am sure." Varric said with a noncommittal wave of his hand. He definitely knew more but wasn't sharing just now.
"Let's forget that and have a farewell party for the lovebirds." Isabela signaled to the barkeep that they would need another round.
Hawke laughed, it was good to have people like Isabela around at times like this. It would have been easy to let the mood grow maudlin but thanks to Isabela, Hawke and Varric the group spent the whole night drinking and laughing together.
Merrill still cried when Hawke pulled her in for a final hug goodbye but the tears were quickly brushed aside.
Aiden felt guilty for abandoning them all, for abandoning the city; after all, it was largely his fault that Kirkwall was in such trouble. At a time like this, it felt like the cowards way out to leave.
"Leaving is the best thing to do." Fenris said quietly as they exited the Hangedman.
Sunlight was just starting to turn the night sky pale with the dawn and the streets were completely abandoned. Fenris and Aveline had been the ones to convince Hawke to leave in the first place. They had talked it over going round and round in circular arguments the day before.
"I know you're right. I just hate it." Aiden said.
Fenris chuckled in his quiet smirking way.
This was the first time the two of them had been alone in more than a month. Between the busy days leading up to the battle at the Gallows and the chaotic aftermath there hadn't been any time for private conversations. Plus, there was the definite possibility that Fenris was avoiding him.
Last time they had been together Fenris had finally confessed his feelings for Aiden. It had probably been the best night and following two days of Hawke's life. And even though Fenris had enjoyed their time, Hawke had made sure of that, now the air between them was awkward. It was to be expected he supposed, after three years of suppressing feelings and thoughts that they couldn't simply turn everything around just by one brief conversation. Still, it would be better if they could just talk to each other.
Although, Hawke was just as guilty of not talking as Fenris, right now he was afraid to open his mouth at all. Afraid that the next thing he said or did would drive Fenris away again.
So they walked together in a slightly uncomfortable silence.
They arrived at Hawke's mansion quickly, "Let's leave in the morning."
Fenris nodded, his eyes looking away, he appeared like he wanted to say something.
"Want to come in?" Aiden asked.
Fenris looked a little surprised but nodded.
Aiden didn't waste a moment before opening the door. The mansion was dark and cold by this time. Bodahn and Sandel had left shortly after the battle, the atmosphere in Kirkwall too dark for Bodahn's liking. Orana and her husband had also left, they had gone back to Ferelden where he had family.
Hawke led the way to the study where he lit a fire without using magic. By this point Fenris was understanding of Hawke's magic use but Aiden still hesitated to use it in front of the other man.
Fenris stood by the fire next to the crouching Hawke and stared into the flames. After lighting the fire Hawke unabashedly watched Fenris, from his vantage point on the floor he admired the strong face and the shadows playing over it.
After the fire was really roaring Hawke began to get impatient. It was going to be a very long day tomorrow and they both needed to get to sleep if nothing else interesting was going to happen.
"Fen listen," Hawke began, running a hand through his dark curly hair.
"Do you want me to go with you?" Fenris finally said. His deep voice spoke so softly Hawke almost didn't hear him.
"Of course." It was an instant reply.
Fenris sighed, "I wanted to be sure."
Hawke stood, he was surprised, "I wouldn't have asked you to go otherwise." He was trying for a joke.
"You didn't ask me." Fenris gave him a rather accusatory look.
Aiden quickly thought through the events of the other day but couldn't remember who it was that suggested Fenris would go with him. Maybe it had been Aveline? It didn't really matter to Aiden who had suggested it, he was just glad Fenris was going.
Hawke smiled, so that's what all of the brooding tonight was over? Fenris was just feeling needy? It was an absurdly good feeling to have Fenris feeling needy.
Hawke placed his hands on Fenris' shoulders, luckily, Fenris didn't flinch. Physical contact still made him unwary, even at times when he wanted it.
"I didn't ask you because you said you would follow me into the future. But I can ask you if it would make you feel better." He was teasing and he knew he shouldn't but he loved doing it.
Fenris glowered and pushed Hawke's hands away but he did not step back or run off, which was progress as far as Aiden thought. "I was being serious."
"So was I." Hawke put his hands on Fenris' hips this time. He held him loosely, despite wanting to hold on tightly and never letting go, he left his grip loose in case Fenris needed to slip away as he had several times before.
Fenris shook his head, "Just because I said I will go doesn't mean you have to accept."
Hawke smiled and gave Fenris' hips a little tug, pulling him forward so their bodies were touching. "Couldn't the reverse also be true? You don't have to come into exile with me. I have waited for you before and I will again if you would rather stay."
"No." Fenris finally touched Hawke, putting his hands on Hawke's chest. "I want to go with you."
"I want that as well." He began running his fingers over Fenris' hips, "I know we haven't worked out all the details yet. Maker knows we probably have a lot to talk about that isn't very pleasant. For now though, is it enough that we are staying together?"
Fenris finally looked Hawke in the eye. "Not nearly enough." He said with smile before devouring Hawke's mouth. Fenris was nothing like a gentle lover but that suited Hawke just fine.
The elf bit his bottom lip rather roughly making Hawke gasp, Fenris took advantage by sliding his tongue into Hawke's mouth. Their tongues swirled together in a dance, it was not the prettiest kiss, but it was hot and wet, and exactly what both lovers liked. Finally, Hawke felt like he could grab Fenris as roughly as he wanted, he grabbed his lovers' ass and squeezed.
It was Fenris' turn to gasp, "Upstairs." He said, his already low voice sounding more like a growl.
They quickly hurried up the stairs. Of course, the bedroom was freezing as well. With an annoyed sigh Hawke bent to fix up the fire, it was easier to get it going now than later.
"Just use magic." Fenris said with an impatiently.
Hawke smiled, glad he wasn't the only impatient one. Aiden heaped several logs in the cold hearth and with a wave of his hand a strong fire was going. When he turned around Fenris was already nude, sitting on the bed and glaring at Hawke.
"Hurry up Aiden." Fenris only called Hawke by his first name when they were together like this.
Hawke chuckled and quickly began shucking his own clothes. Not willing to wait Fenris jumped off the bed and grabbed Hawke's pants, yanking them down.
Fenris smiled and blushed, knowing he was being impatient. This behavior was probably as close as the former slave would come to admitting how much he wanted it.
Hawke kissed him, glad that he could see a side of Fenris that he wouldn't show another.
With a small loving nip at Hawke's jaw Fenris dropped to his knees. His warm breath on Hawke's cock made it twitch. Aiden and Fenris hadn't been together that many times and he could still count the number of times Fenris had used his mouth on him. Zero. That was the number. The elf had never offered a reason why he didn't want to do it and Hawke hadn't pressed. So it was an exciting moment when Fenris licked the tip of Hawke's erection.
Aiden groaned as Fenris took the cock into his mouth, sucking and licking. From his method Hawke guessed that Fenris wasn't used to doing this, for which Hawke was relieved. He had never asked if Fenris had been forced to use his body as a slave, Hawke honestly was probably happier not knowing.
Feeling more confident, Fenris finally took all of Hawke into his mouth and began bobbing up and down. Hawke tried hard not to move his hips, not wanting to choke Fenris, but he grabbed a handful of the white hair and held on.
Finally Hawke cried out, "Fen, stop. I'm going to." Hawke moaned.
Fenris leaned back but not in enough time, Hawke came all over his face. "Sorry." Hawke sighed, leaning back against the wall. He avoided mentioning how fucking sexy Fenris looked right now.
"It's fine." Fenris said, grabbing Hawke's discarded shirt to wipe himself clean.
"Let me return the favor." Aiden said, feeling a little embarrassed for coming so quickly. He pulled Fenris to his feet and pushed him toward the bed.
Fenris sat at the edge of the bed, expecting Aiden to get on his knees, it was how he had done it before. This was mostly because Fenris refused to be underneath Hawke at any time. The former slave could not allow someone to pin him down like that, and then being touched while trapped under someone? No, not happening. Aiden didn't mind being a little creative however if it meant his lover was happy.
"Not this time." Aiden grabbed the bottle of salve from his nightstand and flopped down on the middle of the bed face up. "Come here."
Fenris raised an eyebrow and knelt on the bed next to Hawke waiting for an explanation. This was also part of their rules, Hawke needed to explain everything new ahead of time so Fenris never felt out of control.
"Ride my mouth while I prepare you." Fenris also hated dirty talk so Aiden stuck to the pertinent information.
Fenris eyes widened at what Aiden had suggested but there also was a clear sign of excitement. Hawke noticed that Fenris was already leaking from servicing him earlier but he resisted touching until Fenris decided what was okay.
With uncertain motions Fenris straddled Hawke's shoulders.
"Maker, what a view." Hawke couldn't resist grinning up at the beautiful man on top of him.
"Aiden." Fenris' voice was a warning but his green eyes were filled with desire.
Hawke kept smiling but didn't say anything else as he helped Fenris get into a position that was comfortable for them both.
As soon as Fenris was in position Hawke didn't waste any time. He began licking and teasing Fenris' cock.
"Aiden." This was a breathy sigh, a plea not to tease any longer.
"You have to make it happen." Hawke said, moving his hands to Fenris' ass. "You have all the control."
That was enough to spur Fenris into action. Without further ado he pushed himself into Hawke's smiling mouth.
Hawke dipped his fingers in the salve that was open and ready and began teasing Fenris' entrance. With an intense moan of pleasure Fenris surged forward, and began truly mouth fucking Hawke. He grabbed Aiden's silky curls for purchase as his used his hips to thrust. Aiden was glad, not for the first time, that he was born without a gag reflex. Hawke lost no time before slipping a finger inside of his lover. Fenris was tight as always and he winced a little at the intrusion but the small bit of pain was quickly outweighed by the pleasure he was feeling elsewhere. Aiden put another finger and finally a third. While he had two working like scissors he use the third to find Fenris' sweet spot.
Fenris' mouth fell open with a cry when Hawke touched that spot inside him. After that Fenris came in no time, spilling down Hawke's throat like they had agreed. He road out his orgasm before sliding off onto the bed next to Hawke.
Hawke let him catch his breath before turning on his side, careful not to lean over Fenris at all, and licked his lover's neck, enjoying the sweet taste of his sweat. Fenris, eyes still slightly unfocused, turned on his side so he was facing Hawke and then tipped his head up, an invitation to continue. Aiden licked that beautiful Adam's apple, his tongue running over Fenris' tattoos.
The tattoos glowed in response, just a slight flicker, not to the degree where Fenris would feel any pain from his markings.
"Ready to continue?" Hawke asked, nipping at Fenris' earlobe, "Or are you too tired?" He teased. Hawke gave a tug on his lover's cock, which was already half erect again.
Fenris unexpectedly jerked up and bit Hawke's muscled shoulder. He would often bite Hawke like that when teased.
Aiden winced in pain that wasn't altogether unwelcome, "I take it that means you are ready."
With a shove on Hawke's shoulder's Fenris shooed him toward the headboard. He never said much while they were doing it, but he always got his point across.
Smiling stupidly Aiden sat against the headboard with his legs outstretched. Fenris wasted no time before coming over and straddling Hawke. He brought the salve over and began stroking Hawke's erection with his slickened fingers. Aiden kept kissing and fondling his lover. Not being able to resist he gave a dark nipple a pinch.
Unexpectedly Fenris groaned and his hips jerked, "Now. Aiden, now." Fenris was almost whining.
Hawke felt like cheering from seeing Fenris in such a state, even though he was feeling equally desperate.
Aiden helped Fenris impale himself. Hawke kept a firm, probably bruising grip on Fenris' hips while he rode his cock. It was a delicious feeling. Fenris sank his nails into Hawke's shoulders as he used them for leverage. Riding was something that Fenris was very good at by now even though their first time he hadn't seemed to know about to do it at all. He lifted himself up and down so that he was enjoying all of Hawke's ten inches and hitting the sweet spot inside him.
"Touch me." Fenris demanded.
Happy to oblige Hawke began pumping his lover's cock.
Aiden kissed Fenris, it was sloppy, wet tongues madly just trying to connect.
With a final cry of Hawke's name Fenris came, shooting all over their stomachs. His internal muscles clenched sending Hawke over the edge as well. He came inside Fenris, something that Aiden had been surprised to find that Fenris rather liked.
Finally spent Fenris leaned against Hawke, burring his face against Aiden's neck. Aiden slid himself out of Fenris and held him close. These moments never lasted long, Fenris wasn't into much cuddling, but Aiden appreciated them while they did last.
After what was too short a time in Hawke's mind Fenris pushed himself away, "If we don't clean up soon we'll end up stuck together."
"I could think of worse things." Aiden winked.
Fenris smiled, "Wouldn't that be a surprise for the Divine's troops?"
Hawke laughed and joined Fenris in cleaning up somewhat before falling back on the bed. He watched Fenris move around the room a little longer, picking up clothes and adding wood to the fire. Would he come back to bed? Or go to his own mansion? Aiden hoped Fenris would come back but he kept his mouth shut.
Fenris seemed to be debating the idea as he carefully dressed again.
"You don't need to do that." Aiden said as Fenris began picking up and folding Aiden's clothes.
Fenris dropped the pants he had been picking up, "I don't know what I should do." It was a rare admission.
"Depends on what you feel like doing."
"You are so sure of yourself."
"Not really. More like, I act a lot without thinking of the consequences." Boy was that statement going to lead to a sad conversation Aiden thought. Quickly changing topics back to the present, "You can stay if you want."
Fenris nodded and awkwardly climbed in the bed next to Hawke. Fenris was still fully clothed and looked uncomfortable but it was probably a good sign that he was trying.
"I've never slept here." Fenris said sitting with his knees tucked under his chin.
Aiden, who had been distracted by how adorable Fenris looked, suddenly realized this was true. The one night they had spent in this room was the night Fenris had ran out on him.
Slowly Aiden reached out and ran a soothing hand down Fenris' spine. "It isn't a bad bed for sleeping. At least it is more comfortable as the cot in your place." He said with a smile, that damn little bed at Fenris' mansion was terrible.
Fenris laughed and relaxed some. Aiden stretched out and rolled onto his stomach for sleep, letting Fenris go at his own pace. It was not until long after Hawke had fallen asleep that Fenris slid back out of his clothes and crawled beneath the covers of the bed. He didn't sleep touching Hawke, but he was close enough to feel the warmth and that pleased him.