The tears clouded my vision as I made my way through the rain. The pain in my chest felt heavier step by step. I pulled out my phone for what felt like the 100th time that day and dialed his number. The call went straight to voice mail, of course. I must have fucked things up this time pretty heavy. I had a tendency to mess things up. I wasn't sure if it was because of what happened to my mother or if it was me, just being plain stupid. Either way I didn't care, I had a mission. I couldn't get the love of my life out of my sight without a fight. The rain continued to fall down as I made my way past the doorman. He smiled at me and gave me a thumb up. At least one person that was positive about our future. As I made my way towards the lift, sleep began to lure me in. Pressing the buttons on the lift seemed like a pretty tricky task. Eventually the doors closed. I sighed. After what felt like forever to doors opened again and I stepped out. Suddenly feeling pretty unsure about my plan. What if my plan didn't work out? I had no backup plan. Without my permission I slumped down in front of his door and let the tears stream down my face. Why did I have to push him away? Why couldn't I just accept the fact that he was trying to protect me instead of paying more attention to the fact that he lied to me? Eyes heavy, I dialed his number a last time before falling asleep.
I was too scared to open my eyes but I felt fingers running down my face. The floor underneath me seemed too soft to be the cold stone he had in the hallway. My clothes felt dry, so did my hair that kept falling into my face. I opened my eyes hesitantly, afraid of what I was about to face. His face popped up, no 6 inches away from mine. His eyes dry, glowing and his mouth curved up into a light smile. "Hey", he whispered softly and ran a finger over my nose.
"Hi, I'm so sorry, Castle", I whispered, voice thick with sleep. He placed a finger on my lips softly.
"You are forgiven Kate. Since the minute I found you outside my door this morning. Did you walk all the way here in the rain? You clothes were pretty soaked"
I nodded. "I am so sorry", I mumbled again.
"What happened?", Castle asked softly.
"He got away and I didn't care. I almost died and all I could think about was you. I just want you"
He seemed surprised.
"If you hate me now I understand, I wouldn't want to be around me either"
I got up on the floor but before I could make a step, he spun me around. Eyes glowing, face inches apart from mine.
"You really think I would let you go?"
I bit down my bottom lip.
"If I do one thing that is, Kate Beckett", and without another word his lips brushed against mine softly.
The pain I felt, washed away and replaced itself with fire. That now was demanded to me felt in my entire body. My legs began to buckle and we crashed into the bed.
"Kate?", he whispered into my ear and I looked up.
"Yes?"
"I want you too", he continued before kissing me deeply.