I'm weak. This is all my fault.
If I had reached there in time, Natsu wouldn't be laying in bed motionless. He had saved me many times yet I couldn't save him once. He always is always there for me, but I'm not.
Pathetic.
You would think that after all the training I've been doing when he left for a year would make me stronger, but no. Im still not strong enough. I couldn't protect him.
My face was stained from tears. My body full of bruises from the fighting scene. My face pale, and lacking colour.
Mira Jane tried to persuade me to take a rest and go home, but I couldn't budge. I knew that I wouldn't be resting until Natsu is awake and healthy.
He had overused his powers making him collapse and an easy target to the enemy.
Please God, Don't take him away from me.
I can't stand him not barging in my room and making a mess, or slipping under my bed sheets and sleeping next to me, warming my body, or the thought of never seeing his cheeky smile ever again.
I wanted to cry and scream, but my throat was empty. I couldn't cry anymore. I felt numb. One word was chanting in my head.
Weak. Weak. Weak. Weak.
SHUT UP!
I tried to fight back my demons, but my voice was fragile.
I started feeling dizzy. The side effects of not eating for the past couple of days started to take it's toll.
I ignored it and went to change Natsu's bandages. I flinched at how the wounds would later leave a scar, making it a reminder of the time I couldn't help him. I checked his fever, sighing in relief when it turns out he got better than last time. I adjusted his pillow, so his neck wouldn't hurt when he wakes up.
If he wakes up.
The thought made me get paler if that was even possible. If he doesn't how could I face everyone in the guild, how can I face my friends? How can I face ... myself?
I felt a stir in the bed, but that could be my imagination. The room was spinning around me, and I couldn't stand straight. I felt my energy get absorbed and my eyes droop as I fell backwards, but I managed to hear one last thing.
''..Luce..?".
And then I was out.
Hello.
That was a lot depressing than I thought it would be but fuck it lol.
Im sorry if there r mistakes .