Note: This drabble was inspired by LilyAllison's Terra/Teen Titans tribute video set to the song "White Houses". If you don't get goosebumps or teary-eyes from this video, then you're not human. I strongly reccomend giving it a listen. You'll be addicted to it. I can't give you the link, so just head over to Youtube and type "Terra White Houses" and you'll be able to access it from there. =}
Italics don't really mean too much, I just liked how they looked within the document. =P
My name is Terra. And I have done horrible things.
My life was never what I thought it would be. I spent most of it running away from my problems instead of facing them. I'd never had a home. I'd never known what it's like to love. And I'd never had anyone who truly cared about me.
Until I met them.
And I've begun to realize what I've lost.
They gave me everything I could ever ask for. They accepted me and all of my imperfections. My days with the Titans were the best days of my life.
I don't deserve to remember them.
But I do.
The happiness, sorrow, anger, confusion all come flooding back. And the pain is more than I can bear.
Robin. Robin had always been so accepting of me. He pushed me to try harder and better myself, not only as a Titan, but as a person in whole. And even when his attempts failed, he still tried to change my mind. But I was too far gone to be saved.
Cyborg. Cy was one of the coolest people I ever met. He was so down to earth and real. Him and I were like best friends. Especially when it came to video games and fixing up the T-Car. He always encouraged me to try my best.
Starfire. She was a little slow, but sweet nonetheless. All of those nights we spent having sleepovers in her room, painting our toenails and sharing stories. It was the girl-time I desperately needed; I'd always been a tomboy and Star certainly brought out my girly side. We had so much fun together.
Raven. Raven never liked me much, and I can't say I blame her. She taught me how to trust others, even though I ultimately betrayed her. But in the end, we found some middle ground. I just hope she can forgive me for everything I've done.
And Beast Boy…
I think about him every day. I wonder if he remembers me. It's been so many years since I last saw his face. I still remember the night we went to the carnival - our first date. And it should have been perfect. But I couldn't bear to hurt him. I made a mistake by keeping my secrets from him. I was naïve to trust Slade like I did. But in the end, Beast Boy saw the real me. I wasn't a bad person. I just did bad things. And for that I'm more sorry than words can say.
I knew they'd never trust me again. And so I ran. I'm always running - I can't stop.
I gave up. But I can't help but wonder… would things have turned out differently if I tried?
But there's no going back. There's no changing the past. What's been done is done and over with. I hurt them after they gave me so many chances.
I'm blind to the world. I had so much and lost it all.
Maybe you were all faster than me. / Silly little wounds will never mend. / I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses. / In my heart it's the five of us. / And you, maybe you'll remember me. / What I gave is yours to keep. In white houses.
I turn, fading into the sunset; my shadow the last reminder of who I used to be, and who I've become.
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