HELLO~!
The truth, this dedication was random when it still bugs me that maybe, just maybe, you think I'm angry and did not reply to you. Well, just that you might care, I wrote this.
Well, to make it more thrilling, let's add some more 'I' statements. And these are:
I wrote this while reading at anime archive.
It was hot; my computer was hot.
I feel like I really need you to read this with a cup of cold coffee and some crackers. (and tissue)
I'm dedicating this to you, yeah, YOU! Know who you are.
I hope it makes you see things, in a better angle.
Hey, just to say. It may be long (for me.) but actually, this, you can't find some enthusiasm in life. You know, people tend to look for bigger things in life, but they don't know that life is made up of simple things. And those simple things are what make us happy, even if you don't notice it.
~poured my heart out of it.
You know, when we met because I was trying to swindle you, I really thought I can reaaaaally got a way to…you know, make you stupid. The thing was, the stupid back then was me. You turned the tables around, I put more damage to the injury. (is that right?) Maybe, for you, it was like the old, casual person you meet daily on the internet, but for me, for someone like me who really got a bad childhood, that's like winning a one-in-a-million-friend of not on the daily basis. (if you get it, but I know you get it.)
I was typing real fast, I even… you know put some magic on the wi-fi system to have a free connection just to talk to you. Yea, you. You defended me to her when I said she was my… little villain. And there you were, wearing some wonder woman anime style suit and tried to gain my composure up. You know, you always say you're bored with life and everything you do, and you do it because someone asked you to, but, let me ask, are you happy when you see others happy? Well, thank goodness if you say 'Yizz, I dooo!' or something like that because you're smart, you can figure that now, But if you say no, then, what makes you feel that? Is it because of your deep inside thing? If it is, then I command thee!
Look for something, or someone that makes you happiest.
You know, when you say that 'deep inside' thing, it makes me… how do I say this…? Hmmm… irritated? No. Pained. Because it's like saying 'I'm not grateful that I meet you.' Come on, it's not just me who is reaaaaaally damn happy to meet you. You know, they say SOMEONE ALWAYS DREAMS ABOUT YOUR SMILE. And as mushy as it sounds, I'm one of them. And if the people and things that we, and you know aren't enough, then, look for them,
look for it.
It's not necessarily the clothes and the shoes or the number of people you meet. Maybe it's in you? Or maybe, just maybe, you need to settle the things in you first. There are a lot to see in this world, and it may not just be on the mall or in the restaurants you've been, but I'm pretty sure, there are.
Oh yeah, you know, why I called you selfish? Because you said you do things just for others. Isn't also selfishness? In a way that you give things to others and nothing for yourself? Yup, you are officially being selfish. And if you keep saying the 'deep inside' thing, then I say this,
If you don't like the 'you' right now, find the 'you' you like.
I know it may be hard, but just so you know, others don't matter. THIS IS JUST YOU AND ONLY YOU. Well, what I'm saying is that, stop whining if you're not even trying to gain look for what you want to be. Okay? And if ever you found it, (and still trying to find it, as long as you are looking for it.) We'll be right here to back you up.
P.S. : Your bracelet; it's still with me. Should I make you another one?