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OK so I am taking a full on break from 'I'm sorry' because I have completely lost my muse for it. I have a few new idea up my sleeve and here is one of them. it won't be a very long story but it will maybe reach 10 chapters but bare with me, I might make it shorter or longer. I have to outcome for it so update won't be that long. Thank you to everyone who read's my one shot uploads because it means so much and if you haven't read them, why don't you ;)

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I always forget to do this so will start now...

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Btw the plot is very AU and will never happen and most of the characters are not what they would be like but it is all the make the story that much better!

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61 days. She has only 61 days left. She has known for almost a year now and no matter how strong she is, in that time she hasn't had the courage to tell anyone. So when the clock stops ticking and her time is up, she will be all alone. She would kill to have it any other way but she couldn't put it on the team this close to the date. Besides, maybe it would be for the best if the team just didn't know and found out at the time. She had sat in her office for almost an hour debating on whether to tell them or not and so the conclusion is not to tell them. The media face went on and the fake smile was painted onto her face, ready to face the team. Little did she know the team were currently sitting in Penelope's office reading into detail what was really wrong with the blonde. Just as she was about to get up she heard a knock at her door. She called for them to come in and was startled to find the team standing in her door way. She locked eye with Hotch and saw the look in his watery eyes.

"You know don't you…"

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Hotch walked into Penelope's office not bothering to knock. This needed to be done quick.

"Garcia I need you to look something up for me quick" He said not bothering to beat around the bush. She looked behind her to see Hotch standing there, worry plastered on his face, and the rest of the team walking in through the door, well the rest of the team minus JJ.

"Anything, what's wrong" She asked feeling her stomach turn at how concerned the 5 profilers were.

"Look into JJ's medical history for the past few months" Her heart dropped and she looked to him, confusion and worry laced on her face.

"Hotch.."

"Listen, I was taking the mail round because it had all been dropped off at my desk this morning for some reason and I got to JJ' pile and.. Well at first I wasn't that worried because the first one was from a funeral company and I thought maybe one of her friends had passed away but the second letter was from the local.. The local oncolgist. It could be nothing but it's too much to just be a coincidence. JJ is the most quiet and secretive person on this team so I wouldn't expect her to tell us anything anyway but this.. Just please look it up" Penelope nodded and began typing away looking between her many computer screens before a pop up covered one of the screens. Her face paled and she felt as though she would throw up.

"No.." She shook her head realising what was going on. She felt the world fall apart around her as she read the message on the screen.

"Penelope what is it?" Emily asked not liking the face Penelope had pulled.

"No.." She got up and ran from the room to the toilets as the tear streamed down her face. Hotch stepped forward and looked to the screen.

"Aaron.." Rossi stepped forward as he saw the look on his friends face. He looked as though he would faint and the team felt a sudden urge of worry lace through them.

"Hotch what's wrong?" Morgan asked getting frustrated over what was going on. Hotch just pointed at the screen and stood to the side of the room, feeling tears form in his eyes. Reid, Morgan, Emily and Rossi walked towards the screen and read the heart breaking message upon it. Emily felt her knee's go weak and cried as Morgan held her up, his own tears falling from his face. Rossi felt his heart break and didn't bother to wipe away the stray tear that fell from his eye. Reid was, well Reid wasn't upset, he was angry. Just another secret she kept from us.. Why?

Penelope walked back into the room, face blotchy from the tears, make up trails down her face. She looked around and knew that everyone knew.

"I'm going to see her" She stated, her voice shaking with emotion. Hotch nodded and lead her out the room, followed by the rest of the team. The bull pen was quiet as they walked to JJ's office. They knocked on the door and waited for the call to enter. Once they heard that muffled 'come in' they entered, not saying a word. Hotch caught JJ's eyes and she broke the silence.

"You know don't you.." She felt the tears flood her eyes and looked to each of her friends.

"I'm sorry.." Was all she said before the tears fell. Penelope pushed past everyone and embraced her friend in a hug.

"JJ you have nothing to apologise for" She said, her voice muffled with sadness. The rest joined in each giving JJ a long and meaningful hug, everyone except Reid. JJ felt her heart rate increase slightly knowing what he was about to do.

"Spence.." She started but he cut her off, voice filled with anger.

"Don't 'Spence' me OK. I don't see why you are keeping all these secrets from us JJ and that you don't trust us enough to handle them. We trust you with everything yet here you are keeping us in the dark. It's not fair on us JJ" And on that he stormed off, slamming the bull pen doors behind him before leaving down the elevator. Everyone stood shocked for a moment, looking after were Reid had left, not noticing the colour drain from JJ's face or how her breathe quickened slightly. It wasn't until Penelope looked to her she knew something was wrong.

"JJ.." Penelope held out her hand but was too late as JJ's knees gave in and she fell to the floor, Morgan catching her before she hit the carpet. Morgan lowered her down to the floor sitting her on his lap. Hotch looked worried as her chest was falling and rising at an alarming speed and she had sweat pouring from her face which had gone a ghostly pale colour. She began to cough violently bringing up blood causing the team to panic slightly.

"My box.. Morgan get my box.." JJ coughed pointing over to the corner of her office were a small white box sat. Emily ran over to retrieve the box and handed it to JJ who was still coughing. With shaking hands she opened the box and pulled out a bottle of tablets, a cloudy liquid in a bottle and took two large gulps of the drink with one tablet. The team looked between each other concerned for how long JJ had been like this.

"JJ, Hunny, how long have you known" Penelope asked sitting next to JJ s she rested her head on Morgan's chest. She looked and sighed.

"Almost a year. Listen I wanted to tell you, I really did but I thought that it might go away and then there would be nothing to worry about then it got worse and I am so scared. I'm so sorry for not saying anything. I never wanted you to find out like this" She went to push herself up from Morgan's lap but he kept hold of her. She looked to him confused and he smiled threw his tears.

"We could never be mad to you for this. We can't possible know what it's like to be where you are but baby girl, you don't need to be scared anymore because we have you and we will help you" She looked to everyone and they nodded along with Morgan and her heart broke. She felt floods of tear leave her eyes and buried her head into Morgan's chest.

"JJ, what's wrong" JJ looked up and looked to everyone, preparing herself for what she was about to say.

"I only have 2 months.." She couldn't bare to look at the team right now, not after telling them that. She got up from Morgan's lap and walked to the toilets. As she walked down Reid came out of the elevator. He was wet so he must have gone for a walk in the rain. He sent her daggers as she walked past and her heart broke. She locked herself in a cubicle and began throwing up. The doctors had told her stress was something to lay down on because it could shorten her time and this would definitely earn her a slap from the doctor. She felt herself going light headed and tried to reach the door but fell unconscious, the team having no idea that her condition was growing severely worse.

The team sat shocked by what JJ had just told them.

"2 months.. Oh my God." Penelope felt more tears fall knowing that JJ had only that amount of time to live.

"Hotch what do we do" Emily looked helplessly to him but he just shrugged, overwhelmed by the situation. Just then Reid walked in and Penelope stood up and slapped him across the face.

"How dare you! You are one selfish little rat! The situation isn't fair on us, what about poor JJ. You have no fricken clue what this year has been like for her and there you go acting like you're the only person who has feelings. She is dying Reid and you made her remainder life 10x bloody worse. Your one of her best friends and in this situation you go all 5 year old on her and act like she is worthless and her situation doesn't even cross importance in your crazy mind. If you had any decency you would either walk out the door and not come back or go and apologise to her because she needs all the people she can right now and I swear if you pull a stunt like that again I will kill you" Penelope screamed while Morgan held her back in case she did any more damage to Reid. As much as he hated him right now he didn't need Penelope being locked up for murder. Reid caressed his cheek which was turning red with the force of Penelope's slap.

"You're telling me not one of you is a little upset that she kept this from us" Reid said looking around everyone.

"Yeah Reid, we are so mad at her for hiding leukaemia from us that we want to make the rest of her days hell" Penelope snapped burying her head into Morgan's chest as he held her while she silently cried. Reid's had snapped in Penelope's direction shocked.

"Rest of her days?" He asked confused. Emily walked up to him and looked him in the eye to show she was not happy at all.

"She has 2 months left Reid. Now unless you're going to knock some sense into that pathetic brain of yours, leave" She walked past him to the bathroom to check on JJ. Penelope followed sending everything but real bullets to Reid. He stood there shocked at what was happened and mentally abused himself for how he treated her. Oh my God I am an idiot. Why did I do that to her. Oh no.. And after everything he felt the first of many tears fall. He looked to Hotch about to say something but he held up his hand.

"Not now Reid.. just not now" Hotch took off after the girls followed by Rossi leaving Morgan alone in the room.

"Derek.." Reid looked to Morgan to see him crying, that made him realise how bad the situation actually was.

"Reid don't start the whole I am sorry thing on me because the only person you need to say sorry to is JJ. I am not saying that she will be all forgiving because what you did caused her to fall to the floor in a coughing fit and I would say that stress is not helping her situation" Morgan said making Reid's eye widen.

"Did she cough up blood?"

"Yeah a little why?" Morgan asked confused. Reid opened his mouth to say something but Hotch came running into the room before he could get it out.

"Call an ambulance now!" Morgan pulled out his phone as they all ran towards the toilets. They came in to see JJ unconscious on the floor.

"She won't wake up"