Susie rolled over her bed for about the thousandth time that night, she just couldn't get the vision of Jonesy and that Donna woman out of her head. Her on top of him and...ugh. She wasn't disgusted really, she was just sad. The first time she'd had seen Jonesy naked should have been months ago after their date at the pub. But she had gone and ruined it by bringing up that stupid footballer and his medallion. Why did she suggest Jonesy planted it when deep down she knew he wouldn't have? She had waited for that date for so long and then opened her mouth and ruined everything. Now he was with Donna and she had lost her chance.

What did he see in Donna anyway? Okay, so she was skinny and pretty but she was also kind of flighty and all over the place. She had been a prostitute as well and seemingly uneducated. God, what was she thinking? Thinking she was better than Donna just because she had finished school and had a stable job, that was so unlike her. Well for whatever reason Jonesy was more attracted to Donna that Susie. It must be because she's so skinny and pretty, thought Susie. She's beautiful. I'm just an awful person, that's why he doesn't like me anymore.

Susie got up, turned on her light and stood in front of the mirror. She undressed silently and stood there looking at her reflection. What she saw did not please her. I'm so ugly, she thought. Scrutinising every inch of skin and every freckle she wondered why she hadn't realised it before. I'm fat! That's why Jonesy doesn't like me, why I'm so unattractive and why Donna is so beautiful, she's so thin. I need to lose a lot of weight to be able to compete with her. But, if that's what it takes I'll do it.

The next morning Susie skipped breakfast and snuck out of the pub before Chrissy saw her. She walked briskly to work and arrived satisfyingly out of breath. That's when she saw him. Her face fell immediately. How could she work with this man all day long? She had this great desire to grab hold of him there and then but at the same time couldn't bear the thought of him looking at her.

"Ah Susie, good morning," said Mark.

"Hi sarge," she murmered, noticing Jonesy tense at the sound of her voice.

"You and Jones are out on patrol now," Mark told her, holding out the keys.

"Um, okay...great," she forced a smile. Self consciously she walked out to the car and got into the drivers seat. She heard the passenger door open and the weight of his body as he hopped onto the seat next to her. Counting to three she forced herself to look at him.

"Hi," she said.

"Hi Suse," he replied.

"Where are we going?" she asked, suddenly remembering she hadn't even asked Mark.

"Um, just around the school and up to Widgerie Creek and see how we go from there," he said.

"Cool," she murmured before turning her eyes to the road.

Susie avoided looking at Jonesy and tried to concentrate on driving. His attempts at conversation fell flat until she swerved to avoid a pigeon in front of her and narrowly missed crashing into a tree.

"Susie," Jonesy asked, "Is there a problem?"

"Uh...no no," she mumbled unconvincingly.

"Are you sure?" he queried.

"Yes yes," she snapped. "Can we just get on with it?"

"Why are you being such an icequeen today?" he joked.

"Please!" she said, her voice rising. "Don't pretend you don't know it was me who walked in on you the other day?"

"What?" he spat. "That was you?"

"Mmmmmmm yep," she said, looking at the dashboard.

"You could've knocked," he snapped.

"I did knock," she protested. "Besides that's not the point."

"Really?" he yelled. "Can't I fuck whoever I want in my own room without you looking?"

"Yes...yes you can," she muttered, her head down. "I...I didn't mean to..."

"Look, forget it okay?" he said. "This situation is bad enough."

"What situation?" she asked.

"Well me and you," he said. "I know you've been trying to break me and Donna up."

"What?" she cried. "That's the last thing I've been doing. I was trying to help you Jonesy. She's bad news and she doesn't care about you."

"How do you know who Donna does or does not care about?" yelled Jonesy. "What gives you the right to barge in and start telling me what to do?"

"That's not what I'm trying to do Jonesy," she sighed. "Please..."

"Look, just forget it Susie," he muttered. "Whatever we may or may not have had its finished now okay? I'm with Donna now so you can butt out. Are we clear?"

"Crystal," she whispered.

"Now lets get the lunches," he muttered angrily.

When they arrived back at the station the last thing Susie felt like doing was talking to anyone. She headed to her desk and tried to literally bury herself in paperwork.

"Aren't you hungry Suse?" asked Kelly, eyeing Susie's uneaten lunch.

"Oh, not at the moment actually Kel," she replied. "Do you want it?"

"Nah, I'm right thanks. But I'm sure Joss would take you up on the offer of a free lunch...you know he has a bottomless stomache," she laughed.

"Did I here my name?" Joss asked, popping his head around the door.

"Here Fabio, free food," Kelly said, chucking him the bag. "Susie doesn't want it."

"Thanks Suse you're a champ," he smiled.

"Yes, isn't she?" said Jonesy sarcastically, entering the station and heading towards the lockers.

"Everything okay with him Susie?" Kelly asked.

"Yeah, its just great," she said, continuing to write.

"You know," Kelly said, "I reckon you and him would've been good together."

"Oh yeah?" she replied. "I don't think so."

"Nah seriously, he's not bad looking," Kelly continued.

"I don't think he's really my type," Susie smiled half heartedly.

"And who is your type Susie?" Joss laughed suggestively.

"Certainly not you greaseball," joked Kelly. "The Enrique Iglesias look is out."

Kelly and Joss continued to argue playfully whilst Susie continued her paperwork. They didn't notice how quite she was or how she took an hour to fill out one misadventure form. They didn't even notice her slip out of the station at the end of her shift without a word.

When Susie arrived at the pub she slipped upstairs without checking to see if anyone of her colleagues were there for a drink. She didn't say hi to Chrissy or stay for the dinner menu. She looked at Jonesy's door as she passed it but then shook her head, snap out of it Suse, she told herself.

Shutting her door she hopped straight into bed. She didn't feel like eating or a shower or even watching some mindless television show. She just wanted to sleep away all the horrible things that happened and wake up to a new and uncomplicated life....and it was only day one.