A/N
I decided to make a few adjustments to correct some grammatical mistakes (and the flaw with the first line – can't believe I got it wrong!). This is my first attempt at writing a TV show FanFic, so please be kind with your reviews.
Oh and anything written like this - *text* - means crossed out on paper (FanFiction won't allow strikethrough *frowns*)
"It means I wish you weren't going" whispered Penny, whilst leaning her head against the door of her apartment. Why didn't you tell him Penny? He's leaving for three months and you still couldn't tell him the truth. Why do I always wait for him to make the first move?
"I need a drink, maybe that'll help…" she groaned as she finally moved away from the door. She grabbed an already opened bottle of red wine and began to pour herself a glass. Once the glass was drained, another followed, which was then in turn followed by another. By the time she had finished the bottle, she was feeling worse than ever. Deciding that there was little point opening another bottle, Penny staggered to her room and collapsed on her bed in a fit of tears. It was going to be a very long three months.
xoxoxoxox
It had been only two days since Leonard and the guys had left for the North Pole but for Penny it felt like a lifetime. Never before had she realized just how attached she had become to the guys, she had learnt to put aside Sheldon's complete lack of tactility towards her, his obsessive nature for keeping things absolute and even his forever need to talk science about everything. Then there was Howard and his tendency to be creepy, Penny shuddered at the thought of Howard's many attempts to woo her… I suppose that at least he knows when he steps over the line now.
"Hey Miss? Are you going to serve us or what!" shouted some faceless man whom Penny couldn't really see.
"Wha– what?" stammered Penny, coming out of her daydream.
"Are…You…Going…To…Take…Our…Order?"
"Oh!" replied Penny realizing that she was at work and that this was the third time today she had been caught up in a daydream. "I'll be right with you…"
xoxoxoxoxox
I seriously need to get a grip, I'm going mad! thought Penny. It had been three weeks and still she hadn't gotten used to the emptyfeeling that was consuming her. She had tried drinking her worries away, she had even tried dating but nothing could hide the haunting image of Leonard. This image changed depending on her mood though – sometimes she could remember every little of their very first kiss but at other times she thought about how they had never actually had that second date, much less beginning a real relationship - even after such a pleasant first date. If there was one thing that Penny regretted most, it was that.
Suddenly an idea struck her. Not one of those stupid ideas like the last one, this one would work she was sure of it. What was I thinking trying to drink away my problems anyway? Yes this new idea was surely bulletproof. I have an emergency key… Maybe I could just go and take a look at some of Leonard's things? What harm could that do? Leonard doesn't have to know, it's not like I'm going to steal his stuff or anything. Now where did I put that damn key again?
After fifteen frantic minutes, Penny finally emerged from her bedroom with Sheldon and Leonard's apartment key. Almost running to their door, Penny pulled out her key, put it in the keyhole and turned. She then entered the empty living room and sat down on the chair that Leonard usually sat in. Ah, that's better thought Penny, relaxing into the chair.
However after just under half an hour, the chair was no longer enough. She felt the urge to take a look at some of Leonard's unique memorabilia. Getting up carefully from the seat, she made her way into Leonard's bedroom. Sitting on the edge of the bed she took a look around and noticed a half opened book.
I wonder why this book is not with the others on the shelf; it's not like Leonard to leave something around? Picking up the book something fell onto Penny's lap. Huh? It looks like a letter – It has my name on it! Wondering why Leonard had hidden it inside his book, Penny decided to take just a peek.
"Dear Penny,
I know that we have had our ups and downs in the last year or so but I feel that it's time to come clean. *I love you* I don't have the words to describe the way I feel about you, *I love you more than you'll ever know* I just want you to know that leaving to go on this expedition to the North Pole is the hardest decision I've ever had to make… I wish you could come too, but I suppose you have a million better things to do than sit in a little shack all day for three months.
I don't know whether you meant anything by that hug, but to me it will always be a special moment. Perhaps I'm reading too much into it but I really don't want to leave you for three months, you mean the world to me and that hug has made me think that perhaps you'll miss me too. *I love you Penny.* I'm really going to miss you.
Don't forget me Penny.
Yours *Forever* Sincerely,
Leonard."
Penny noticed another note on the floor, "Make sure you give it to Penny, and don't chicken out AGAIN"
Falling backwards onto Leonard's bed, Penny lay there for hours pondering the meaning of the letter. It was everything that she had hoped for – more than she had dared imagine in the last few weeks without him – but it wasn't enough. Nothing would be enough until the day he came back with the guys. Whenever that is… Hmm, I wonder how many days are in three months anyway. thought Penny as she began to calculate three months into days.
After numerous rereads of the letter, Penny began to feel tired. Rather than go back to her own apartment though, she decided to curl up in Leonard's bed. With the aroma of the bed around her, she began to calm down, before eventually falling asleep, dreaming of Leonard being there next to her, holding her tightly, her Leonard…
A/N
Hope I fixed the grammar errors this time around :)
Also if you managed to read to the end of this chapter, could you please please review? It'll only take a few seconds of your time and it really lets me know whether you liked it or not…
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