I Just Wanted You To See
I don't know why, but it hurts—it hurts when you think so little of me that you act as if I barley exist, it hurts the most though when you ask me to leave saying that I don't belong where you do, and maybe that's true….temo (but) …I just wanted you to see, I just want you to acknowledge me, though it seems you're resting on that distant shore, the one I can't seem to reach, the one that stated the truth—from paradise's door I watch that everlasting sanctuary of yours, as it mocks my unforgiving my mistakes my sins…who I am. (do you see me?) Can you see that you actions are ripping me apart? That this fragile heart, bleeds with envy and lust… for you…just wanted you to see, but when we can't even bring ourselves to the same trust….. I start to become confused on what to say or do… it makes me wonder if hatred and disapproval is all you have for me, but believe me when I say if you ever cease to exist that I will grieve, I wont show it, but in side my heart will ache on what we could have been, what you so forcefully pushed aside…us, if only you could (see me) have seen, my brokenness reveled in true form like pieces painted black, frozen cold—and shrouded in darkness, just can't take it back—the way you looked at me with eyes of nothing to show…I just wanted you to see or was it that you simply didn't care—was I so undervalued to be shunned so coldly, just by differences that I and even you could care less about or was it such that you were so blind that you enabled yourself carelessly toward that burning flame of light and watch me stand in the dark fading into the night. I just wanted you to see, but you wouldn't look, you wouldn't have it, accept it… wouldn't have me. I won't beg anymore for your attention, I won't dwell on this, but forever will this leave its mark on my heart to stay and remind me that we just couldn't be that you just couldn't see, but I wanted you to see...to see me...
AN: so what do all think it was new for me im not a big crazy yaoi fangirl but i don't mind it either so yea Please R&R thank you.