Everything here is disclaimed – HP and lyrics, which are not mine. The song is called '24' by Jem, and it just came to me … in HPverse too. I'm not much of a HP gal but lately I'm getting shortangstyharry!vibes. Go figure. It's mostly speculation and the like. AU, never gonna happen, etc etc you know the drill.
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Laying Flowers
Ginny –
I guess you hate me right now. That's alright, Gin, you're perfectly entitled to hate me after all this. After what I've done.
Been given 24 hours
to tie up loose ends
to make amends His eyes said it all
I started to fall
and the silence deafened
Last night you were furious. You stood with your hands clenched at your sides and tears in your eyes as you told me – yelled at me – that I was a selfish bastard, that I was only seeing the narrow perspective. You said to me, in no lesser terms, that if I went and sacrificed myself to stop Voldemort then I shouldn't expect you to hold my memory in high regards. That you wouldn't think of me as a hero, only a fool.
I held you in my arms last night and I told you I wouldn't do that, I wouldn't get myself killed. I promised you I wouldn't leave you, not now. Not ever.
I guess that makes me a liar.
Now I can see
what matters to me
it's as clear as crystal
The places I've been
the people I've seen
plans that I made start to fade
The sun's setting gold
thought I would grow old,
it wasn't to be
It makes me a liar and a bastard and a fool and a murderer. Not exactly things a hero is made of; but then again, true heroes are nothing but myths. But when I promised you I'd never leave I meant it with all my heart. I wanted so badly for it to be one of those promises I could keep, even though I knew I never could. Physically, anyway, because time moves on and the world keeps spinning and all that – but, you know I'll always be with you, right? I'll always be right by your side.
Ron did say once that I was getting crazy philosophical in my old age. Guess he was right, huh? God, I miss him. I suppose, by the time you're reading this, I'll be with him. Tell Hermione he says hi. Tell her to get well as soon as she can, because we don't want to see her – any of you – for a long, long time.
In 24 hours they'll be
laying flowers
on my life, it's over tonight
I'm not messing, no I
need your blessing
and your promise to live free
please do it for me
God, Gin, what else can I say? We both know how bloody awful I am at goodbyes, so this isn't a goodbye. I know right now you can't understand why I did what I did, but soon you will. Soon you'll see that – that this was just something I had to do. And you're gonna move on from this. You're the strongest person I know; if anyone can move on it's you. You're gonna forget about me, about everything I put you through, and you're gonna live your life. You're gonna see the world, you're gonna dance and laugh and sing, and you're gonna fall in love again. You'll get married and have kids, then grandkids, and you're gonna die warm and safe and loved in your bed an old, old lady. Wrinkles and everything.
You're gonna do all that because the world moves on. And I'll always be right by your side.
– Harry.