A/N this is my first story on this site so please can you review it and ill put the new chapter soon but for the next 2 weeks i am doing pantos and a few of my GCSE's so please be patient with me and please review.
BPOV
The truth is that I'm not as scared as I should be. I mean with the black room and taunting screams, I should be terrified. My name is Bella Swan and I'm now 19 years old, my love ... left me a year back now. So here I am in this room hoping for someone to find me and help.
I never thought I would be like the Cullen's- well to be realistic Alice and Rosalie- but one look in the mirror couldn't do any harm. All the bruises are covered up by either my hair or the make-up I had to put on. But I guess I was still pale as Angelia-one of the friends....no the only friend Charlie lets me have-spoke up 'Bella are you sure you're okay?'
'I'm fine...I guess I'm a bit nervous' If only she knew...
'You'll do fine, just have fun'
'Thank you'
A big burly man- who kind of reminds me of Emmett- came over 'your next'
I walk over to the side of the platform waiting, waiting for the right time to go. Deep breathes Bella you can do this. Do this for ...Him and do it for Jacob. The lights get turned up to 50% so that I can walk on to the platform without tripping over or just being clumsy.
The screams got louder(if it were even possible) I tried not to look at the other people but one look can't hurt could it?- I mean I was going to tell them so much- I couldn't see that many peoples faces it was just like a wave of hands and heads but with no identities. Dressed in my tight blue shinny jeans and my blue belted check shirt (at .) along with my black ballet flats (Alice would be proud- well ok their not my clothes but there Angelia's).
My music starts to play and the lights come up from 50% to 100% 'heyya I'm new here and this is a song for something that happened a year ago now.'
I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
I take the mic off the stand and close my eyes while humming- it seems the right thing to do, to remember him by.
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
Now I know why I decided to tell people this way, it's so easy and they listen, they take in what you say.
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
One tear, one single tear, one single betraying tear rolled down my face. At just remembering how my love, my angel looked
Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me
Flashes of Alice, Jasper, Esme, Emmett, Carlisle and Rosalie come into my head as always, whenever I sing this song.
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh
I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
(This is her now thinking) I'm so sorry but I really can't live without you Edward.
My next song came on straight way and I look out as everyone is screaming and clapping for me but all I can see is how much I miss everyone Jacob, the Cullen's, my friends. 'My next song is for my best friend Jacob who died only 6 month's ago' I grab the microphone from the stand as the introduction begins
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Closing my eyes helped keep my tears at bay and to letting the emotion out and go into the song.
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
The last part of the line I decide to go soft and quiet.
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know
Once again I close my eyes this time because it just feels right(like kissing your boyfriend feels right)
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now
I run off stage to wipe my face and put on my cardigan for my last and final song- the most important. Once back onstage the music starts slow and steady. I make sure that everything is in place for this song. I release I breath I didn't know I was holding.
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holding back
Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday
I move my hand to curve down my body to make it look like I was wearing a dress
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace, oh
I put the microphone back on the stand to start to take my cardigan off and put it on the floor. Then I start to undo my buttoned top to reveal a grey strappy top. My arms have a couple bruises on. There's no going back now.
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born
I pick the microphone up. More confident than ever I start to move my arms more to let people know that it is me I'm singing about.
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
in a world that she can't rise above
I go over to the side that Angelia is on and she gives me a make up wipe and I go back to wear I was and take the it off that are covering my bruises and cuts.
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
I look to the other side of the stage to see Charlie there with a fierce look on his and I whip my head round to see Angelia and I move forward on the stage so that I can stay safe.
Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbours hear but they turn out the light
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it will be too late
I put my hand over my chest for the next chorus
Through the wind and the rain I stands hard as a stone
In a world that I can't rise above
But my dreams give me wings and I fly to a place
Where I'm loved concrete angel
A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot
I look out into the audience and the Cullen's standing there with shock written all over there face's apart from Alice and Edward. Edward was pure anger and Alice's was smug with abit of anger. I mine 'help'
Through the wind and the rain I stands hard as a stone
In a world that I can't rise above
But my dreams give me wings and I fly to a place
Where I'm loved concrete angel.
I walk off the stage to Angelia where we run from Charlie but as we round a corner we go crashing into somebody. Please don't be ......
i hoped you enjoyed the 1st chapter and it anyone wants to be my beta or for me to be a beta for them just give me a PM please.
bye Grace x