Realization and Resistance Chapter 1: 1 Realization, a degrassi fanfic

Rating: T
Pairing: Palex

Just after Lexicon of Love part 1 and goes into Lexicon of Love part 2

Disclaimer: I own nothing of Degrassi. It all belongs to the creator…of course the name of whom I do not know. The lyrics are from Destiny by Syntax. Some quotes from Lexicon of Love part 2 are used in this chapter. I tired to make them as they were in the show, but I think I jumbled up a couple. Let me know, k?

A/N: This is my first Degrassi fan fiction. Yeah, I lied about the other one I posted being my first, but this was incomplete until now. So in a way it is and ISN'T my first. So please tell me everything I'm doing wrong and please, by god, help me to know how I can FIX what it wrong. I love Palex. I had seen hardly any Degrassi until my girlfriend started babbling about it so I thought I should watch more. After seeing most from a bit before Lexicon of Love and onward, I've been watching every rerun I can get my hands on. So don't worry, I shall improve.

Realization

This is my Destiny only child
Come on and rescue me 'cos I'm wild
This is my selection when I'm sure
Not looking for deception like before
Beautiful creation I adore
This sensation never… felt before

Paige Michalchuk tore into her Thai Noodles, courtesy of Costco. The microwavable box of yummy cuisine wasn't her typical choice of dinner, but right now it was her jumbo cup of tea. One cup of water in a cardboard box mixed with noodles, some sort of marinade, and peanuts micro-waved for four minutes didn't sound that great, but really! It was a hell of a comfort food.

I'm sitting on my couch eating noodles from a cardboard box because of a stupid god damned kiss! What is wrong with me? She sighed in frustration and firmly (almost angrily) pushed her late night meal down onto the coffee table. I liked it, didn't I? I'd been almost hoping for it the entire night.

She flashed back to the premier she'd only just been at with Alex Nunez. The feel of the slightly taller girl's body pressed against her own black shirt and jean clad body still sent shivers of confusion and excitement through her. She recalled, even before their dancing, when they took seats in the theater that she'd longed to feel Alex's lips on her own as fingers brushed stray strands of hair from her face.

No. I'm head cheerleader. I'm popular and I have a reputation to uphold. I can't lose that respect; I'm not supposed to. "Alex…Alex…god damn you for choosing now of all times to strike up chaos," she suddenly regretted any bad feelings towards the brunette for bringing out unacceptable feelings in her. The voices of Emily Nunez and her boyfriend Chad yelling at each other, and then the images of them running into Alex's living room while Alex tried to hurry Paige out to safety.

How can I change the path that I'm on?
This is my destiny…
This is my life my own right or wrong
Bring it on back to me…
How can I say what it is that I want?
Wisdom: speak to me…
Life is sweet then the moment is gone

This is my destiny

A crash interrupted those thoughts and at first she told herself that she was just remembering the vivid sounds and sights of Alex being shoved over a table and onto the floor but then a gasp of "Oh shit!" brought her back to reality. "It's dark. I came down to get some water," speak of the devil. Alex fidgeted nervously, wringing her hands. "Sorry," she mumbled.

"Glasses are in the cupboard above the faucet," Paige glanced at her noodles, suddenly without an appetite at all. Deciding to just not say anything to the hovering Alex, the blonde rolled over onto the couch and pulled up her blanket.

"Paige…" Alex shook her head. A few minutes of standing and waiting for a response from her friend turned out fruitless, so she went into the kitchen, took a glass and filled it with water. "We have to talk about this some time, Paige." I can fix this, was the thought that was left unsaid.

Sunlight screamed through the window, spurring Alex into full-fledged awake-ness. "Who's the evil genius who made morning so friggin bright?" She grinned; eyes closed, and ran her hands through her hair. She knew it would be awkward between her and Paige, but she figured "light and happy" would be a better way to greet the blonde than "bitter and angry."

"Probably the same evil genius who decided that there should be a school day after crazy movie premiers," Paige avoided eye contact with Alex while she ruffled through her drawers and rushed about her room, getting ready for school. She of course didn't realize that Alex had been saying something until it registered that the girl in her bed had referred to the word 'crazy' as a verb. "Adjective. And yes, considering I voluntarily slept on the downstairs couch." I would have been safe with her in the room, I know that. She wouldn't push herself on me after I freaked out at what she did. Right?

Alex mirrored that thought and Paige only felt more weirded out. How does she know me like that? "We're late. I hate being late. Now, if only I could find my bus pass…The bus people should just give an implant or a…tattoo, and then I could save so much…"

"Paige, it's me Alex. Your friend," Alex was now sitting upright on the bed, watching Paige. She'd obviously been trying to get the blonde's attention for awhile. "Can you please just talk to me?"

This is my intention; hear me now
Don't need correction; please me how
Breaking out the institution: crazy law
Aint no complication: live for more

This is my destiny only child
Come on and rescue me 'cos I'm wild

"I can't even begin to process what happened last night," finally Paige made with the eye contact. Her eyes sent passionate daggers into Alex. "From our Sister Act slut dance to the drama with your mom's boyfriend…" You call that drama? I call it reality TV. Alex's words rang through her ears. "That's not funny, this isn't funny! There's a girl in my bed, Alex, you! It's like I woke up in a movie with subtitles, the kind of movie I hate, and I can't deal with it right now," she turned back to her dresser away from Alex. "I can't deal with you."

Alex stood, blinking furiously back tears threatening to make an appearance. "Ok. I'm just going to go rub toothpaste on my teeth and then you can walk twenty paces ahead of me all the way to the bus stop."

This is my DESTINY!

Come on and rescue me
'Cos I'm wild...

And I'm wild…

Now the two of them stood outside Alex's door, hands clutching hands.

Life is sweet then the moment is gone…
This is my destiny...

This is my destiny…

Come on and rescue me
'Cos I'm wild.

This is my destiny.

A/N: My plan for this, if I am to continue, is to do each chapter with a different song. The last chapter will end with the same song as the first, but it may or may not fit in with the story the same way. This is my interpretation of what happened on Lexicon of Love parts 1 and 2. Next chapter (if you want it) will be the rest of part two and a lead into the third chapter (if you would want that too.) Review please! It's up to you readers if this one shot will cease to be a one shot and become a story. It's your choice! I cannot emphasize that enough!