Everyone I Love Is Dead Part I
I can still see the look in his eyes, so genuine, when he confessed that he was in love with me. I can still feel my heart, which still beats for some reason, throb away in my chest. This won't be easy. I know Finn's will power all too well. I still have to try. "Finn, you don't really mean that," I say, trying to sound as nonchalaunt as possible. "No Marceline, I really mean it. I've been thinking it over for the past couple months, and you and me just click together, you know? We have so much in common, like we both like adventuring. At times I try to picture Princess Bubblegum getting into a big fight with me against a big monster or something, but I just don't see it you know? But you'd always stand by my side no matter what I get myself into, and I'd do the same for you. Marceline, I've never felt this way before. It's got to be love, right?" I let out a heavy sigh. Things are about to get deep. I can feel it.
"Finn, do you remember Old Man Henchman?" I ask him. "Sure. I remember him. What about him?" Finn asks gingerly. "Do you have any idea how long I've known that guy?" Finn just shrugs and says "I dunno. A while I guess?" I look at him sharply. "I've known him for sixty years Finn. I've known the guy since he was your age. Now look at him Finn. He's going to die, just like everyone else I know. And you're no different either. I will live, you will die, and it's just as simple as that. Like there's no point in trying to get involved with someone who's just gonna leave you behind right?" This is hard for me to say. It brings up alot of old faces I haven't seen in a long while, faces I'll never see again. It's harder still just to look at the young boy in front of me, knowing that someday, he'll join those faces. He stands silent for a long time, looking at the ground, fists clenched. He knows I'm right. Still, his will is a force to be reconed with.
"So...turn me," He says this in a low voice, but the words scream inside my head. "Turn me into a vampire, just like you. Then you won't have to worry about me dying," he says, still looking at the ground. "Finn, there's no way I could do that to you man," I say, but he doesn't listen to me. "Yes you can," he says angrily. "You have the power to, so why don't you?" I try hard to keep my voice from shaking. "Yes Finn, I have the power to turn people, but didn't you hear what I just said? If you become a Vampire, if you become immortal like me, you'll be leaving everybody else behind. Think about Bonnie. Maybe you don't like her as much anymore, but she still needs you Finn, and you still need her," I say. "No I don't!" he yells, but I maintain myself and continue. "What about Jake then? That guy's your bro. You can't tell me you don't need each other." I calm down for a second internally. I think I got him now. "It's worth it," he says. "It's worth leaving Jake behind if I can be with you."
How could he say such a thing? Doesn't he know what he'll be losing?
Something inside me snaps. He's struck a nerve. "Do you have any idea what you're saying?" I yell. "You know what? Just shut up. Just shut the hell up and get out! You're just a kid! You don't have any idea what love is, so why don't you just back up already?" The poor kid goes running with tears in his eyes, strait out my front door. Just as he runs out, he runs right past Jake. I guess the guy's been there the whole time. "Man Marceline, that was harsh," he says as he enters my house and takes a seat on my couch. I'll never understand why he always sits there if it's so uncomfortable. I look away from him and say, "He'll get over it," but inside I know better. Why else would I be feeling guilty about it? "I dunno man," Jake says as he heads off into my kitchen. "I've known Finn for a while now, and I know when he's serious about something. Hey, where the heck's all your food?" This is an irritating thing to hear. "I don't have food, idiot," I scold. "I eat shades of red, remember?" He just says "Oh yeah" and sits back down.
"So tell me Marceline, why'd you shoot ol' Finny boy down?" he asks. "Not like I have to explain myself to the likes of you Jake, but I did it because I don't want him to watch his friends die and wind up alone like me? There, happy now?" I say sternly. He just stays relaxed and scratches his stomach. "Yeah, that sounds like a good reason," he says as he stares at the ceiling. "So you won't turn Finn into a Vampire. That I get, but what I don't get is why you wouldn't just give him a chance as a human." He's straying into uncharted territory. He shouldn't be asking me about this. "There's no point in giving him a chance as a human. He'll just die. Duh," I reply. "Nah, I don't think it's that simple though," Jake says as he sits up. Even though I'm looking away, I can still feel him looking at me. His gaze is powerfull for someone so layed back.
"Yeah, see I don't think it's all so black and white. You said you don't want to turn Finn because he'd just end up alone like you right?" Dammit, would he just shut up? "So you're alone, right Marceline?" Shut up! "And you're afraid that if you fall in love with Finn that when he dies, you'll be more lonely then you ever were before." In a flash, I have him by the throat, but he uses his stretchy powers and slips out of my fingers. "Aha! I knew it! You're just afraid of getting hurt is all. It's all good Marceline, I understand you babe. You don't want to turn Finn into a Vampire because then he'd just be miserable like you, but if he remains a human and you two hook up, when he dies, you'll be even more miserable then you were before. So you're forcing him away before you get too attached to him as a way to keep yourself and him from getting hurt. Yeah, I get it. It's all making sense now."
"Would you just shut the fuck up?" I yell. If there's one thing I'm not down with, it's having my fears and emotions dissected by an ignorant dog. "Hey listen Marceline, I know you're afraid of Finn winding up alone like you, and I know you're afraid of getting hurt yourself, and that's cool, nobody can blame you for that man." He stretches his arm and puts his hand on my shoulder. "But listen to me Marceline, I know you don't want to be alone. You have to have somebody in your life just like everybody else. You have to give Finn his chance man, or else you'll just be starting the alone thing alot more early. Is that what you want Marceline? To always be alone?" I try my best to hold back the tears. "No," I stammer. "When Finn dies, yeah it'll hurt, but your life will be alot better overall if you take advantage of the time you have with him now." While Jake was saying all this, I had no idea what Finn was about to do, although later I would learn that it obviously went something like this: First, he drew a face on the wall, then he doused it with bug milk, and finally said the words "Maloso Vobis Com Et Cum Spiritum." I think you know what happened next...