CHOICES WE MAKE

Summary: After three months of emptiness and no Edward, Bella decides she had enough and ends up jumping off a cliff...however, what she didn't plan on was waking up the next morning on her first day of Forks High all over again...

Disclaimer: Characters are in no way mine..I don't claim ownership on Stephenie Meyer's characters!

Note: I stumbled upon a story with this similar plot (so to speak) though I wasn't happy with the lack of detail. I brought my own creative spin on it so it's not the same in any way though I hope you all read this and find you all like it! Whether you leave reviews is entirely up to all of you though it would be much appreciated...especially with this being the first of my fanfics I've completed...now I can finish my others! Thanks so much in advance!

Chapter 1

"You're not good for me, Bella.. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed." This couldn't be happening. He can't be serious. He can't leave me. We belong together! NO! I shouted in my mind, for the first time I actually wished he could hear my thoughts. I wished he could hear me, so he could know just how much he means to me. There is no living without Edward. I couldn't process much of what was going on. All that was going through my mind was panic, that this was really going to be over. He promised me he'd never leave. How could he lie? How could he do this? I had lost all feeling within myself, never knowing it was possible to feel so empty, so alone, so worthless. Edward didn't want me. He didn't love me. And with a final kiss on my forehead, he said goodbye to me leaving me standing there, in the woods, alone. I couldn't believe my life was crumbling before me and there was nothing I could do to prevent this.

"I don't want you to come. I don't want you. You're not good for me." A collection of his words cut through me like daggers as I remembered what he said, what he so harshly forced me to accept. Chasing after him proved worthless; he was long gone. And I was alone...

It had been three months since Edward left me. Since the entire Cullen family packed up their things and disappeared, just as he said. As though they never existed but the memory of Edward would stay with me forever. His absence from my life and taking my things would not take away the memories we built together. They would always stay with me...haunting me. Each day was torture. I couldn't go on this way. I just couldn't. I couldn't be strong for Charlie. I couldn't get over this like Edward wanted and I knew I never would. I needed to get away from everything. Staying in this room...my room which teased me with the memories of Edward sneaking in every night and holding me as I slept...was too much. I was done dealing with this pain. I couldn't take it anymore. I grabbed the keys to my truck and headed out my bedroom door without acknowledging Charlie sitting on the couch watching the game.

"Where are you going?" He asked, surprised to see me out of my room for once. When I wasn't in school, wasting time, I was in my room. I shut everyone out of my life. It no longer had meaning.

"Out." I answered without any second thoughts. I was getting out of this house. I was going to find my escape from all of this. Charlie wasn't going to keep me from doing this.

"Bella, wait we need to talk." He now stood in my way, the only thing keeping me from reaching the door and being free. I looked up with him, not really seeing him.

"What's up dad?" I asked, though I knew how empty my voice sounded.

"Bells, I think maybe you should move back in with your mom in Jacksonville," He started. Instantly, as though a fire ignited within me, my eyes snapped up and looked at him for the first time in three months. He was tired of me. He didn't want me either. No one wanted me. It was obvious. "It's not that I don't want you to be here sweetie, I don't want you to go. But this behavior isn't healthy...you need a new start."

"And if I don't want to go?" I snapped at him, not buying his lie of actually wanting me around. I knew I'd become a pain to him. And Jacksonville definitely would have nothing waiting for me there. My mother had Phil. Changing my scenary would not change the way I was here. If anything, it'd be even worse. At least here, I waited for months with the hopes of Edward coming back. It was Forks...one of the few places the Cullens would actually stay in. If I was in Jacksonville...a place known more for sunshine than its constant rainy days...then I truly would never see him again. This couldn't be happening! All this was doing was confirming that I shouldn't be here or anywhere.

"I figured you'd say that," He sighed, clearly not knowing how to handle this. He never did know how to handle me. "Why don't we talk about this some more in the morning? Who are you going out with tonight?"

"No one, I just needed some fresh air," I answered and walked around him not wanting to continue this any further. I internally thanked Charlie for helping me make the right decision. I turned out of the drive way and headed toward La Push. I wasn't sure why I was going there but something within me told me I would find what I was looking for on the way. And I did. I pulled over on the road, noticing in the distance cliffs. I rememberd as a kid Jake mentioning people cliff diving for fun but no one dared jump from the highest cliffs. It was too dangerous but just perfect for me tonight. Having made my mind up, I took off once more and headed closer to the woods. It felt like forever until I finally reached the cliffs. With the sky nearing nightfall and the woods being difficult for me to walk through without tripping every other step, it took longer than I hoped to get there but once I did, I took one step closer to the edge and looked down, bracing myself for what was about to be the end. I welcomed it.

"Don't do this Bella," I jumped back, surprised at hearing Edward's voice. It had been so long since I heard him speak; I turned around thinking he was behind me. Hoping he knew already what I was going to do and he came to stop me; to tell me everything he said was a lie. But when I turned around, there was no one there. Once again, I felt alone. He took everything with him when he left me. I turned back to the edge of the cliff, bracing myself for the jump.

"Bella, you promised me..." I heard again, though this time I would not be fooled. I knew he wasn't here. Even though he wasn't, I answered anyway. I had nothing left to lose at this point.

"And this is me breaking that promise...just like you did to me. You took everything when you left. I can't do this anymore. I can't live in a world where you don't exist." I said, more to myself than anyone else.

"Bella...I love you..." his voice declared though it meant nothing. By now I was fully convinced he did not love me.

"No...you don't. You never did." And with my final words I jumped. The feeling of the wind against my body made me feel weightless, as though I was flying. I closed my eyes, preparing myself for the impact. Even though I prepared myself, I was caught off guard by the amount of pain which I felt as soon as my body slammed deep into the water. Even if I had tried to swim up to the surface, the current was too strong; it seemed I picked the perfect weather to do this-there was a storm coming and the current was stronger than it usually was. It took me deeper into the water. The deeper I went, the harder it was for me to hold my breath. Breath I did not know I was even holding. Once I tried to get the oxygen I needed, it was too late for me. My lungs filled with water, I felt pressure growing within my body. It fought back, wanting the air it desperately needed but I had deprived myself of what had already been taken away from me. And then it came...the darkness finally took me away. There was nothing left.