Title: Obsession
Rating: T
Summary: Julie has fallen.
Timeline: After Diana returns in the TV show.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. The characters belong to Kenneth Johnson and Warner Brothers.
She's always in her head: taunting her, laughing at her, playing with her.
Diana consumes her.
Julie doesn't sleep anymore. She tries to stay awake as much as possible. The nightmares don't end when she sleeps. Diana knows how to keep her trapped there. Julie can hear the laughter, the coaxing to betray everything she believes...and someties Julie wants to give in.
Somewhere in the world the lizard hovers, torturing people and enjoying it, while down on earth Julie slowly shatters. She has stepped down as the resistance leader. She cannot lead if she can't think straight, and right now Julie can't focus on anything but Diana and her laughter. Her world has become a fog. Insomnia has made her into another person. She has gone into the shadows, slowly disappearing, until she leaves the resistance entirely. She stays alone for weeks, finally deciding to find Diana and end this.
This is how Julie disappears. She tracks Diana's movements, trying to find a pattern, some sort of weak spot. She is unfocused in most of what she does, but in this she is as sharp as she used to be.
She's found her more than once, coming near her only twice. She's aimed her gun, fired, and hit her. The blood has spilled, green like her heart. Diana has escaped both times. Julie has become increasingly obsessed. She can barely recognize herself in the mirror. She is torn on the inside. The scars on her body cannot reflect the amount of tear that her mind and heart have experienced. She has been shot, stabbed, run over. She lives now, as Diana does, and she wonders why. She stares up at the yellow stained ceilings of motels whose names she will never remember and she wonders what the point is. The war continues, Diana still converts, humanity is falling and all she does is chase this one lizard. Julie has no contact with her LA crew. She is a nameless, faceless, broken woman who people don't stare twice at. She remembers Ruby telling her she was a born leader, telling her to fake it if she didn't feel it. She remembers all the nights she forced herself to not cry, forced herself to feel like a leader. Julie is stone now. No tears escape her eyes.
Ruby would be disappointed.