Pairing: Daniel/Sha're
Spoilers: Forever in a Day
Disclaimer: I own nothing
A/N: Thanks to Jo for the read through!
Daniel thinks of her each night before he falls asleep, hoping that she'll come to him in his dreams if he just visualises her face hard enough. She does, but all too often he sees her lying beside him on the ground, blood staining the bodice of her dress.
Sometimes in his dreams he can't bear the pain of the hand device and fires his gun instead of dropping it. On those nights he has to run for the bathroom as soon as he wakes and spends long, painful minutes retching into the toilet. Afterwards he gasps for breath as he wipes sweat from his skin. He brushes his teeth over and over, but nothing seems to wash away the taste of acid from the back of his throat.
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Daniel has a photograph of Sha're in his office and another on his bedside cabinet, and carries a third in his wallet at all times. The robes she wore hid everything but her face, hands and hair but she's still beautiful to him, far more beautiful than when she wore expensive fabrics and jewels set in gold, as befitted the queen of a god.
It's an effort not to sit and stare at her pictures for hours, but he doesn't let himself. Explicit or not, he promised her that he would find her son. It's possible that somewhere, buried within his books or the writings he found on other worlds, there's a clue that will tell him where he can find Kheb, the place where she left her child. He has little time to waste staring at what used to be.
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Each time Daniel steps through the Stargate he thinks, maybe this time I will find the boy, and his grief eases.
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Daniel wakes in his sleeping bag to find Jack kneeling by his side, a hand resting on his shoulder. When Jack tells him that he was calling out in his sleep he doesn't understand, and then he sees the look on Jack's face and knows.
Remembrance is bitter.
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When Daniel tells them of what he saw as Sha're used the hand device on him, their reactions are very similar. General Hammond dismisses his words as the hallucinations of a man who was near death and has recently lost a loved one. Jack hates any hint of 'mystical mumbo-jumbo' and does the same.
Sam is at her most concerned and tries to understand, but she's too grounded in science to really believe what he has to say.
Teal'c has faith in him. Even though he has rejected his false gods, Teal'c grew up believing in their magic and doesn't feel the need to break everything down to its constituent parts; he is more willing than Daniel's other teammates to accept the unlikely.
Sometimes it strikes Daniel as odd that he relies so much on the person who killed his wife.
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Daniel knows that he doesn't remember all his dreams. Some days he'll be pouring over a book or drinking a cup of coffee when he's gripped by such a flash of sweetness that his breath catches and he finds himself looking round for her, certain she must be standing by his side. Despite the pain they cause, those moments are a benediction that leave him certain that she's still somehow with him.
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On the days when it feels like his heart is shattering inside him, he reminds himself that at least he no longer has to wonder where his wife is any longer. She is safe now; her body is no longer a thing that is used to do evil.
Sha're is finally free.