The Name I Cannot Say

by setsuna22

Yuki is no longer alone and his greatest fear is no longer being wanted. It is being weak. As his health wavers, he worries that he will be abandoned by the Giou clan,the zweilts and by Luka. yaoi and mature in later chapters.

1. Chapter 1

Yuki rubbed his temples slowly, his blurred vision coming back to him in broken segments the colors streaming and running into a kaleidoscope of color like a butterfly's eyes. The dizzying trance almost made him sick as he fought off he vertigo. Rubbing his palms across his eyes in an effort to block out the light it felt like a scorching burn where his hands touched.

"my symptoms are getting worse." Yuki mumbled to himself. Soon he wouldn't be able to keep his secret from the other Zwelit guardians or from Luka.

Luka.

The name played across his mind the soft rounded vowls of his name working almost like a talisman aginst the pain. He couldn't let anyone know but espesially Luka. He breathed heavily in thru his nose and out thru his mouth.

He had finally found a purpose for his life and now he mattered to people. Being God's Light had given him an identity they needed him, and never would he allow them to see him for what he really was- the weak link. He had no power to fight and the one time he had erected the Holly Wall it had almost killed him. They had even started to fight more strategically in order to avoid getting wounded, the kills took longer and took a toll on the Zwelit's power themselves weakening them, making it more dangerous when a normal battle took twice as long. All in order to protect him, to keep him from having to use his power. One day they would realize how weak He really was someday someone would be hurt beyond his repair and they would hate him for it.

A shiver of fever rippled down his body and Yuki sighed softly rummaging through the drawer until he found some aspirin tablets careful not to rattle the bottle he took out two tables and swallowed them dry. Tsukumo theses past few weeks had been looking at him with odd looks on occasion, leading Yuki to wonder if God's Ears has heard him taking the tablets again and again and wondering why he had yet to see the Twilight Mansion Doctor. Another shiver crept up his body this time with fear. He couldn't allow his secret to be out.

If he did He might loose everything.