OK THIS IS MY FIRST ACTUAL ATTEMPT TO POST ANY STORY ON THIS SITE SO THIS IS MY FIRST FAN FIC THE STORY BEHIND THIS IS ACTUALLY INSPIRED BY THE LIFE STORY OF OUR ENGLISH TEACHER WITH A TWIST OF MY OWN FEELINGS SO ENJOY READING….. :3
OH AND BEFORE YOU GET CONFUSED MOST ARE LASS'POV
DISCLAIMER: I REGRET TO SAY THAT I DON'T OWN GRAND CHASE BUT I DO OWN ITS PLOT AND SOME OC HAPPY READING ^_^
LOST MEMORIES
It was a pleasant day at the grand chase castle the sun, shining brightly the skies, blue the temperature, moderate
It was indeed a fine day to relax , no one to disturb you nor annoy you the rest of the chase did the same arme and mari in the library, elesis in ronan near the fire place inside the castle, jin and amy in the music room and I don't even want to know what they are doing there, ryan and lire I guess they're in the forest meditating, and seighart he joined me under the tree the only difference is that he is sleeping while im just thinking of my past
As I was thinking very deeply probably lost in my own memory the castle bell rang waking me from my deep thought
there's an urgent mission it had been a while since the last time we had an urgent mission, the last was the battle with dark anmon
"gather around there's an urgent mission we have to complete immediately" started by the knight master as every one gathered around for the briefing and information regarding the target and the mission
"every one's here? Good! Now I will announce the mission: our mission is to track a person named mordred"
As the knight master mentioned the name my vision went black fragments of my lost memories, coming back to me all at once, pain starting to form worsening every second until my mind didn't take it' my body shut down causing me to collapse
After the incident i found myself awake trying to cope with the pain inside the infirmary, my vision still blurred and i saw a violet blob
"lass are you allright?"
My head didn't process the voice at first because of the pain but after a while it came to me it was arme who asked, arme is a battle mage who is the complete opposite of me but somehow we managed to be friends, well she is my only friend anyways so I guess….
"bermesia to lass! Hey lass wake up are you fine?"
"Oh right sorry its just that my memo ARGHHHHHH!" but before I could even finish my sentence I was shot with extreme pain I could here a large commotion but I didn't care I was too busy trying to figure out how to ease this pain but nothing seemed to work it only worsens every second then again my mind went black then memories appear,…. Memories of my child hood playing in a movie like scene flashbacks and lots of it keep playing in my mind
(flashback)
"hey lass do you know what friendship is?"
how can you ask something so hard to answer, said by the kid with white hair and sapphire eyes
(hey is that me? I don't remember anything like this I don't remember anything)
"(chuckles) you see lass friendship is the poor relation of man's animal urges; and like poor mans relation, it stands by us when food, drink, sex and money have blown on another guys dice. Friendship, like home, is where we go when nobody else will have us"
Dad is that you? Since when did you learn poetry?
"Oh that I read it from a news paper from an article written by Julie burchill oh its already time sorry son but I guess I have to go back to the farm now or else we might not have anything for dinner"
Yes dad!
(I never knew what kind of family I have my first memory started after the time I was rescued by the grand chase in the hands of that evil witch)
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"ARE YOU INSANE! Even thou a laundry girl I would fight for my son even if it costs me my life"
MOM NO!
(mom…..)
(gasp) it was shocking for me to see my own mother died to protect me from that man
"leslie! mordred you will pay!"
"(smirk)go ahead if you dare you poor people have no use in this world, this world would be better off without you! Wahahahahah"
"You're wrong a poor man may be said rich in the midst of his poverty, so long as he enjoys the interior sunshine o a developed friend .but the wealthiest man, on the contrary is poor and miserable, if he has no friend to whom he can disclose the secrets of his heart….."
"Enough of your mumbo jumbo DIE!"
(after that very scene my vision went black again but this time without the pain I actually have no memories of my parents then this happened what the hell is happening to me?)
"LASS? LASS ? LASS WAKE UP!" I was startled the cry of the purple haired mage
"ugh huh what happened?" I told to her wanting some explanation on what really happen but the mages answer did not satisfy me I need answer as to who I am and what happened at that very time and who was that man….
(the next day we started the mission and during our search I found something that caught my attention it was small cottage inside the forest with a small farm with plants beaming with life then I thought to my self "isn't that the one in my dream? Then I called their attention…)
Guys lets take a break here for a while there's something I need to check out
"Ok lets take a break" replied by the magic knight followed be the red headed knight who was starving
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Then I went to the cottage my head aching every step I take closer to the cottage heh it must mean that this place has something to do with my lost memory
The cottage was broken rather old blood marked its wall then it hit me, everything returned to me every single memory that I have lost it was painful, tears broke free from my eyes.., not because of the pain but because of the memories of my family now I know who I really was it was painful to know that your family died trying to protect you but ended up wasting their lives for nothing was changed
Then I asked myself "why is this happening to me? WHY!"I cried letting all my tears fall, letting emotion take over my body
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"lunch is served! Hey where is lass?" asked by the mage who is serving the lunch
"I saw him entering a small cottage near here" answered by the druid
"oh…. You guys eat first ill go get him"
(seriously what in the world is lass doing its very unusual for him)
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I was there.., inside, all alone, not wanting anyone to see me, to see me crying,
I cant take it, what happened to me, what really happen before I was possessed then someone opened the door it was arme shocked to see me crying for the first time…, then I told her to just go away that I wanted to be alone.., but she refused she was there asking as for why I am crying, at first I didn't talk but she broke our silence she told that we should hurry back before the meal gets cold, then I wiped my eyes dry then got up, and put again that expressionless mask and ask her a favor "please don't let anyone know what happened here I don't want them to worry" she smiled then ask me if I can tell her what happened then I replied her I told her that if she kept quiet about it I will tell her, she nodded in response
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"what's taking arme so long just to call that stupid thief?" asked by the red headed knight with little traces of annoyance in her voice
"let the two lovebirds be" said by the blue haired magic knight
"who you calling lovebird" I shouted then he tried to run but he failed arme used her stone curse then I asked him where did he get that idea he didn't answer me so I have no choice I used my dark memories to call kaze aze ronan fainted before kaze aze could even touch him
The red headed knight charged at me angrily but the druid and archer stopped us both they reminded us that we are on a mission then the knight replied angrily she told that I'm not a true friend for trying to hurt my own friend then I replied "do you know the true meaning of friendship?" then she paused not being able to answer I answered for her
"heh.., life leads the thoughtful man on a path of many windings…, now the course is checked, now it runs straight again but when two people are at one in their inmost hearts.., they shatter even the strength of iron or bronze.., and when two people understand each other in their inmost hearths.., their words are sweet and strong.., like the fragrant of orchids"
Then everyone stared at me disbelievingly "lass is that you? Since when did you learn such poetry" they asked me but I didn't answer the only thing I told them was my father taught it to me….
After a while we resumed our hunt for mordred the one who killed my parents, the one who kidnapped me to become kaze aze's vessel
As night falls we decided to call it a day and camp for the night then arme's persistency kicks in just on cue after everyone fell asleep, she asked me what really happen I told her that I don't want to talk about it but she replied with her war staff she said that I might change my mind.., then I gave a big sigh then started to tell her the truth
(flashback)
I grew up in a poor family.., my mother was a laundry girl, my father was a farmer.. the cottage we just passed by earlier.., that was our home…. "Well it used to be" I whispered even thou poor my family was rich it may not be wealth and gold but our house is always overflowing with love.., my father loves poetry my mother likes literature we planned to led a simple life but on that faithful day everything was changed
"What happened?" arme asked me
Then I continued
My family was slaughtered by him.., mordred, he is the one who kidnapped me and offered me to kaze aze he is the one responsible for all of this he is the one responsible for the death of my parents…
(then as I continued tears start forming I tried to hide them but it everything flowed right down my cheeks)
"so that's what really happened"
The red headed knight startled me then I started "why are you all awake? Arme?"
"don't look at me I didn't say anything" answered by the mage
Then the magic knight talk "don't blame anyone.., you know its easy to figure out when it comes down to both of you, when the both of you are together we can read you like a book full of nursery rhymes.."
Then I replied with a big sigh "I guess you now know everything?"
"don't be so selfish" the dancer replied then followed by the archer "yeah.., we only wanted to help"
Then I asked "why do you want to help me? I'm the one who cause all of this.., I killed many innocent villagers.., even people that are close to you WHY?" then without thinking I ran away hoping to get some answers
"HEY COME BACK HERE!" shouted by the fighter
arme replied he told the fighter to let me be alone myself
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There I was alone again in the darkness.., crying.., asking why was I born.., what was my purpose in life.., I wish I could just die…
"Heh.., I know that no one cares about me.., I know that every one hates me.., then why? Why are they trying to help?
Cant they see they're just making me suffer more.., it' so hard… I cant go on anymore…
I wish that my life would end.., every one would be happier I know….
But why? Why didn't they just end my life?...
They know who I am.., they know what I have done….
Why?(I shouted) WHY? I NEED SOME ANSWERS.. IM CONFUSED.. TELL ME! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?
should I live or should I just disappear into thin air" ( I whispered then sobbed.., I let all my feeling out.., then I felt my heart., breaking and crumbling.., like it couldn't break more .., I don't know what to do anymore… please someone help me…)
my vision went black then I thought to myself "so this is it then.., its better for me to die….. I hope that everyone would be happier…arme….
(then I passed out and collapsed) I found myself in a dark empty room it felt very cold and uncomfortable then I think to myself "is this what its like to die.., when you have too many sins to atone for?" then a sudden flash of light and I thought I heard some thing… a cold voice started "don't choose…. death" then it felt very cold and the voice sounded louder like it was getting closer to me "don't choose death….. to….. to protect someone… you love….. cause you're….. only hurting…. Hurting them…." Then it became quiet too quiet the silence was deafening then I closed my eyes to pray and when I opened my eyes I found myself under the trees surrounded by the chasers.., they are crying and I asked them "why are they crying?"
Arme answered "don't worry us like that you fool" then she hugged me very tight then I asked again "can somebody please tell me what happened?"
"well you see here we were worried last night because you didn't return so we started searching and then a little while ago we found your cold body.., and you're not breathing either" the dancer started followed by the druid "well I did try to revive you of course but it didn't work.., and it looked like you're already dead from sometime"
"Heh" I started then whispered "is it really ok for me to live?"
I was wondering to myself as to what happened.., is that a dream? But no this one felt very different it felt so real like it was really happening.., I need some answers and I think theres only one man who can answer me… MORDRED…
"Guys" I started "let us continue this mission I have some questions that needed to be answered.., and it can only be answered by him"
Everyone looked at me with determination and willingness to help me, starting at that moment I have finally felt that I belong…..
To know someone here or there with whom you feel there is understanding in spite of distances or thoughts unexpressed – that can make of this earth a garden
Now I have finally understand what my father meant when he say those things to me…
The end….
Wew finally I have succeded and failed at the same time and as you see it is lacking some parts at the end well that was actually part of my plan (excuses) and as a writer and grand chaser I would like to know your opinion for the ending and as soon as I have picked the best I would immideately post the story.., who know maybe your story will be the one posted for the sequel :3
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