Dear Cynthia.
Set in 1972, John Lennon and Yoko Ono have just broken up. John has moved into a house with his new girlfriend May Pang, John stops taking drugs and realizes all the mistakes. Julian is 7ish, the years don't match the ages and everything is just what I wish would have happened.. Enjoy! x
Dear Cynthia,
I'm still typing letters, ain't it neat? I'm still a little slow but I'm getting better. I've just bought new ink, so hopefully this one will be clearer than the last one I sent you.
I have been thinking a lot lately about everything that's happened in my life and everything I've done. I've hurt a lot of people.. You more than any. I feel so different now, May said its because I have a clear head, I did tell you about that, right? The last time you phoned, I read you out the news paper report that I read about drugs and LSD? I'm sure I did but anyway, Thinking back on everything that has happened these last ten years I can't help but wonder why you never left me?
Lets be honest here. I hardly treated you right did I? You knew I was sleeping around, you must of. Your not stupid my dear. I never treated you like I wanted to. I hurt you so much, I know it's a bit late but I'm sorry. Truly. I am so sorry.
Julian. Where so I start? I hurt him a lot too, Being with that witch I missed like what two full years of his life. TWO YEARS Cyn! He's changed so much I tell ye, You've done a fantastic job! He's perfect! Just Perfect! He's sleeping right beside me. He's bloody marvelous! I can't get over it. His voice and the way he can tell whats going on all the time.. He is like a real person. My little boy is a real person now!
About Yoko, She was giving me all these heavy drugs like heroin and coke. I was so high Cynthia! I'd listen to anything she would tell me! She told me Julian was a devils child! She told me that you weren't letting him see me or talk to me on the phone. I know now it's all lies! I'm sorry for everything I'd say about you and Julian it's not right, what I said. It was awful and disgusting. I went to the Library the other day, had a look at all the old news papers to see what type of stuff I had said when I was high as a kite.
Cyn I love you. You were.. You are my first TRUE love! When I said I never loved you, well that was her words not mine!
Your nose, your pretty little nose. Well I didn't want you to get a new one but you told me it was what you wanted so I let you have your way, what I said about your nose was a bunch o'shit. Your face was is and always will be beautiful and perfect. Don't let ANYONE tell you any different.
The whole thing about Julian being a mistake!? Honestly I don't know how I could have every bloody said that! Julian is the best thing that's ever happened to me! Better than The Beatles, Better than the fame better than the money! Looking at my life the thing that gives me most pride is that I've given life to the world, A amazing little man who one day will be famous just like his daddy!
Well I better wrap this up, there's so much more I want to say to you but I honestly can find the right words to do it. I don't want this to get too draggy but give us a call when you get it? I'd love to speak to you soon.
All my love to You and Lil
Love from John xxxx