It's not that I don't wish to have three parents. Me and my dad's are amazing together. They have done everything they can to make me happy, and therefore them happy. They really do love me, but sometimes, I really do need a mother figure, you know? To help me out with all this sex stuff and woman stuff. They really do try their best. When I was eight I was given the sex talk, when I was six it was explained to me how men have sex. But they really don't get it. They don't get all my emotional stuff. All the passion about my music, yes they love it too. But their just happy that I'm happy, not for what I do.
Yes, I love Finn, ok fine I admit it. The other guy? Well it's just someone to make Finn jealous. But me? Have sex with the other guy? No No No. I should be with Finn, and when I tried with Puck, it just made Finn laugh. Jesse? He's the ideal person I suppose, knows everything about me, talented and gorgeous. But he isn't the one for me. Jesse is a drama queen, he admitted so himself. There is always one drama queen around, me. Why should I give that up for a guy? My dad's have decided between them who's the drama queen, and it works perfectly for them. Finn however, is laid back, got a great voice, quarterback and on the basketball team. He does everything. If he isn't the guy for me, who is? I'm just making Finn jealous. He hurt me, so I'm hurting him back, simple pimple, it's not like I have anyone else who can teach me what to do next right?
Though when I go to the guidance counsellor about having sex and love and all that jazz, she suddenly all tenses up and hates herself. Mind you, she's an odd person, lovely, but odd. I hear she showers three times a day! How wrong is that! She doesn't realise that it's actually bad the skin and hair to shower that much, because your taking all the nutrients out your skin and hair. Some people these days really do need a life.
Mr Shue always tells us to express ourselves, but there are just some things you don't express about yourselves to everyone right? I can't ask my dad's about relationships, they have no clue on how a woman feels!
But Finn is my life, and I can't talk to my dad's about it. And you know what? It sucks. I can't tell my dad's that. It'll hurt them. It's not like they can ever know how it feels to be a woman. To understand woman things. I know what I need, I need my mom. That's why I do my music, because I feel somewhere in the music world, that my Mom is out there, and she is waiting for me.
What do you think? Just a little one shot on Rachel living with two dad's. Review please? x