1. Relief: Changing things

I went out Jeremy's room, confused, had too many mixed feelings since I started to feel human again-damn-it felt so painful, bizarre and more knowing that as I told Jeremy, I could turn off this pain again if I wanted ... but I would not.

Needed to go downstairs and take a breath, perhaps to drink some vodka, I opened the door and then my eyes met those of Elena. Elena ... she was probably the last person I wanted to see, but at the same time the only one who needed to see at that time.

- What are you doing here? - She asked as she looked at me.

I separate my view of her a moment to close the door while I was torn between showing vulnerable as it was against Elena or escape it, I take a deep breath and answered.

-A failed attempt to do the right thing-

-Which was ...-

-That's not important, I'll take this for you,- I said to her and take their arms clothing, Damon is now or never, I said as I put the dress on the bench in the gallery, I had to vent that how I felt with these new feelings ... now that I was human again had to talk to someone and who better than the cause of this ...

-You know I came to this town, wanting to destroy it and today I found myself trying to protect it- out run over my words as they sounded in my mind, trying to express everything I felt and trying to find answers not found , I look at it in the eyes trying to get her to help me - How did that happen?, Elena'm not a hero ... not doing well ... This is not in my ... -. I looked away trying to take my own words.

-Maybe if it is ...- Oh God ... there was Elena saving me again, convincing me that I could be human ... but no ...

"No," explain-that is reserved for my brother for you ... -Bonnie, I remembered inside me and I forced a smile, remembering what she had done for me .- And Bonnie ... even with all the reasons to kill me, help Stefan to save me -

-And why are you so surprised? -

-Because she did for you, which means that somewhere down the road you decided it was worth ... - I told her, slowly approaching Elena looked into her eyes, I wanted to thank her, but I wanted her to see I was sincere - and I wanted to thank you for that, "...

-you're welcome, - Elena said that looking at me with those eyes so clear I could even see her soul, she was believing in me, trusted me at last, now just going to say goodbye, I'd give her a kiss on the cheek and I take me away from it. I decided to approach her, wanting to put all my feelings in this small gesture and kissed her slowly, without knowing the consequences ... my whole body was filled with electricity, in a mixture of pain, joy, triumph, excitement ... love?. .. I was overwhelmed, I painfully unable to separate away from her, I needed to feel it, I wanted more of it ... I look at her with anguish, I wanted her to feel that I really needed her, even knowing that after that she out with Stefan and I had to stay alone again, I had to feel it, so I look indecisive seeking approval of it, as I slowly approached her, I knew she probably would reject me and even my she would slap me, but the need in me, was stronger than me ...

-Damon,- she said as a deterrent to me, but not away from me ... so I approached her and I kissed her slowly, and it was as if I receive a thousand bolts of electricity at the same time, Elena stood still, as if she could not absorb what she was doing, while I longed for more and more, I find the place between her lips, locking her upper lip, suddenly I felt like Elena timidly stroked my bottom lip to lip she and I could not help intensify the kiss, I took her head in my hands, turning a little selfish and insecure, I could not believe that Elena was responding to my kisses and I do not want it to end, then, Elena caress me deposit her hand on my chest, as she pulled my bottom lip, I felt vibrating with passion, feeling the caress of her, so I slide my tongue over her lips seeking to be received between the lips parted of Elena, so I stroked her tongue with mine while I was holding tightly to her, I felt as mine to her, I could not stop, but she did ... she stopped kissing my slowly away a bit of me and looking down.

-Damon ... Stefan ... I ... this ... - the magic word-Stefan-his name was like a bucket of cold water on me, I dropped the head of Elena trying to find to say.

"I know, Elena, I ... -

The door opened and Jenna was staring expectantly, Elena and I were too close and Elena's face betrayed that something was wrong.

"Elena, it's late, you should come inside.

-Yes .- Elena replied without looking at me, picking up her things, "I ... Damon, sorry .- said and entered the house, Jenna closed the door behind her, as I walked slowly down the street, touch my lips still feeling the heat of Elena, Elena and I had crossed a line, I had changed ... things had to change ...