This is just a collection of one shots that i have put together. they are pieces of the books already from the wonderful and talented cassandra clare. but i wanted to make some things different. most are song-fics and some will have lemons.
NOT CASSANDRA CLARE BUT U ALREADY KNEW THAT!
This one is set in cob after valentine tells jace and clary they are brother and sister. (so wrong he is such a evil man) this is also from jace's pov instead of clary just my thoughts on what might have been running through his mind and i think the song fits perfectly. it is Fight Inside by RED! tell me what you think my first song-fic!
Enemy, familiar friend
My beginning and my end
Knowing truth
Whispering lies, and it hurts again
as i sat there looking at the red wine that i had just spilled a feeling of nausia ran over me how could it be what my father is telling me is the truth clary my sister. how could that be, i had kissed her and when i had i felt like i had been on top of the world. my heart had never wanted any girl more then i had wanted clary how could it be that i would have strong feelings for a girl that was ...was my sister
my father pulled me away from my iner thoughts at that time
"jonathan"
i looked up at him then why was he telling me this why would he do this to me"that's not true. there's been a mistake. it couldn't possibly be true."
"a cause for rejoicing"
when he said that i could help but hate the lies that were covering my life right now and oh my god clary she had been lied to as well.
"i would have thought yesterday you were an orphan , jonathan . and now a father, a mother, a sister, you never knew you had"
"it isn't possible" i screamed at him " clary isn't my sister. if she were..." i could belive this
What I fearWhat I try
The words I say and what I hide
All the pain; I want it to end
But I want it again
i had almost told my father that i had kissed my sister. but i wanted nothing more then to tell him that it couldn't be true if she were ...were my ugg i couldn't even think the word. but if she were then i wouldn't have felt the way i felt i would love her. i could see her out of the corner of my eyes and i knew that she was feeling this as much if not more then me. she loved me how could this be i loved her. But no matter how much i thought this was horrible i wanted nothing more then in this moment to grab her a kiss the fear and pained look right off her face. oh my god what is wrong with me if what my father is telling me the truth then im wanting to kiss my sister.
And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is breaking me again
but it was there i could tell in the look on her face she knew it to be true as well but how. how could this be i didn't even know my mother clary looked nothing like me maybe it was all just a misunderstanding. she cant be my sister look at her she is beautiful. the prettiest girl i have ever met and sweet she is nothing like me. this cant be happening. oh i thought i was going to puke but not because i was disgusted that i had kissed her i was disgusted at myself for really not caring i wanted her so badly all i wanted to do was make her feel safe keep her from harm not let the evil of this world hurt her and cause her pain. but maybe thats the way brothers thought they were supposed to be protective weren't they? no this is not why i feel like this its because i love her not because i want to be a protective brother.
i hurd clary move around i felt her pressence next to me she said my name
"jace" oh how that made my heart sore . shit not this again you are her brother you dope i thought to myself
"don't" was all i could say as a riped my shoulder away from her i could feel my fingers balling up on the table cloth i had to because if i didn't hold something tight in my hand i was going to grab her with all my might and run far far away from this were we didn't have to think about this. were we could just go and pretend it never happened. oh what was i thinking now that it was there it was like a fat elephant in the room and i knew that would fallow me were ever i went.
It's still the same
Pursuing pain
Isn't worth the light I've gained
We both know how this will end
But I do it again
"tell me its not true" was all i could say to her i wanted her to tell me no its not don't believe him he is lieing. i knew from hodges teaching about the uprising since we met clary valentine my father was a horrible man and would do anything to get his was was this something like that. why would he want to hurt his own son.
in the back of my mind i hurd her say the words i had feared she would say " i cant do that"
oh how i wished i could turn back the hands of time so that we never had to have this conversation. i didn't want this to be what it was like for clary and i. this was not the relationship i wanted with her i wanted to be more then a brother . that word sounded so foreign to me like a horrible word that would cause nightmares for the rest of my life . i wanted to shout i love you and i don't care. but i couldn't do that. she was probable already over being in love with me why had that even came up if my father knew we were brother and sister why would he tell me that she loved me was this some sick joke.
And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again
And it finds me
The war within me pulls me under
And without you
The fight inside is breaking me again
some were i could here arguing back and forth between clary and my father but i had no desire to join in to this i didn't want to hear any more i didn't want this to be happening. what was clary thinking did she still love me how could she . how could i still love her after what i herd. did she feel the same way why was all of this happening i felt like the stars were falling out of the dark sky. my world was coming to a crashing end. i had to get it together i had to figure out weather i was going to believe my father or if i was just going to take the girl i loved and run for it, and never look back. but how could i leave my father no matter how horrible he had been to me as a child i still was upset devastated even when i saw his supposed death. could i go through that again leaving my father behind would be like continuing to live with him being dead. it always had bothered me it was always there when i was fighting a demon all i had ever wanted was to see my father again i had been alone for so long. but now i had clary and my father and a mother. why had my mother left me. was it because valentine was everything everyone had said he was evil . i knew he had been strick and hard but i thought that was how all shadowhunter fathers were.
i hurd clary finaly break through my thoughts
" so you let jace think you were dead? you just let him think you were dead, all these years? that's despicable"
"don't " i could barly speak to her i hurt so bad " don't clary" ouch if i thought talking to her was painfully saying her name hurt even more it had been a name i had been thinking ever day since i had met her.
It's nothing
(It's everything)
It's nothing
(It's everything)
It's nothing
(It's everything)
It's nothing
It's everything!
many things happened after that but i was so lost in thought i didn't know i had been apart of the conversation as much as i had. all i was doing was having and inner battle i was semi aware of luke coming in there that time all i wanted was for us to be together but i couldn't leave my father not lose him again i just couldn't so maybe if we all were together i could at least be with her. they were talking about my mother now i looked at valentine he seemed so angry either that they weren't gone yet or at the subject of clarys mother i wasn't sure . standing there looking at him trying to figure out what was making him so edgy i herd luke tell clary to run to leave. was he crazy she couldn't leave i moved quickly blocking her from the door
" are you insain? they've broken down the front door. this place is full of forsaken."
i fought with her about if for a little bit but then there was a scuffle i was still so lost in thought the only thing i wanted was for clary to be safe and not being so stubborn couldn't she see that this was dangerous this wasn't some game she started talking about my mother i told her the first thing that crossed my mind i could tell she was trying very hard to make me lose concentration and move so that she could A run away from here like luke had told her or B go help luke and neither of those options were ok. some how she weaseled away from me
"clary" i said as i tried to reach for her but it was to late she was right in front of luke.
i snapped out of it then. my father was going to kill her to get to luke. his blade wasn't faltering at all he was going to strike his own flesh and blood. i through a blade and my fathers hand and knocked the blade away from him. he was going to kill him his hand never faltered he didn't care. i was blazing mad but i knew from experience that my anger would only make my father more angry so i crushed it down to not show him.
once again i was back in my thought world i had to make this decision sooner then i knew i had mad the decision i was standing in front of my father not sure how i ended up there with a sord in my hand preasing in against my fathers throat. i was choosing clary i couldn't ever believe i had wanted to choose anything else . but when my father showed me the farm house my heart beat loudly in my chest so many decisions both heart bracingly hard but in the end i know who i had to choose. she was my life now. i chose her. Clary