Disclaimer: I don't own BtVS or the song Goodbye to You by Michelle Branch. I wish I did.

Summary: I'm trying some angst.

Spoilers: A lot. Just say everything.

AN: Lyrics in italics and bold.

Of all the things

I've believed in

I just want to

Get it over with

So, this is it huh.

I have to kill the one I love to save the world.

I can't even fathom it.

But I guess I have to.

Tears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days

That pass me by

Angel is there.

Not Angelus.

Angel.

Mine.

But there's always a catch.

The vortex is opening.

Him or the world.

Screw the world.

I've been searching

Deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing

Are starting to get old

I can't choose.

Why can't the price be me.

I would go willingly.

Please, whatever deity is listening.

Don't make me choose.

It feels like

I'm starting all over again

The last three years

Were just pretend

God.

When I'm holding him I forget.

Everything.

Duties, friends, nightmares.

Why can't I just stay forever like this.

And I said

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything

I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that

 I tried to hold on to

So I kissed him.

And I killed him.

Of all the words I hate.

I hate these the most.

"Close your eyes."

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that

I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes

So I forget.

Who's Buffy?

Definitely not me.

I'm Anne.

Can I take your order?

And you chase my thoughts away

To a place where

I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

He's back.

But I'm not.

Buffy from before is gone.

Never to return.

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything

I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that

I tried to hold on to

Faith.

My sister.

Betrayal.

Tried to steal him.

I don't understand.

It hurts to want everything

And nothing at the same time

I want what's yours

And I want what's mine

So he's gonna go.

After Graduuation.

Just gonna leave.

I thought he promised always.

I guess that's a lot shorter than I thought.

I want you

But I'm not

Giving in

This time

Dying.

No.

Not this time.

Drink.

Drink me.

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything

I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that

 I tried to hold on to

Smoke.

Bitter.

It suits how I feel.

Goodnight my love.

My moment with you now is ending.

The one thing that

I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to every thing

 I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that

 I tried to hold on to

I lie awake.

Each night.

I know you will come back.

Someday.

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake

You're my shooting star

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