A/N: This fic is a joint effort by Riley Green and WOATCAPIITON. The idea popped up between the two of us, and we decided to act on it. It was concieved out of love and a brilliant idea. As the story progresses, you will understand exactly what kind of story we are telling. Enjoy. Comments are immensely appreciated!
Disclaimer: The characters in this story are property of Fox, Josephson Entertainment, Far Field productions and Kathy Reich.
Title: The Rain Won't Stop
Chapter One
Dear Mommy,
I can still see your smile even though you haven't seen it yourself in a while. I could never forget its power. The way it could light up even the darkest of rooms or scare away even the meanest of monsters. That is how powerful it was. I have locked it up tight in my heart and I won't ever let it escape. The smile that could move mountains and dry tears, and yet cannot cross worlds to warm me. You didnt know, but when you smiled daddy fell in love with you. Your eyes, your smile, ingrained in his memory, and on his heart forever. I'm scared that if you stop smiling daddy will forget.
Daddy watches you cry and holds back his tears. But when he's alone, when there's no one to be strong for, he cries just like you do. I watch him, and I reach for him, silently begging to be held in his arms, kissed better, but I cannot touch him and he cannot mend me.
No one believes in me anymore. I'm gone and you swore you wouldn't forget, but it seems you have. You don't talk to me any longer; whisper our secrets for my ears only. You don't believe, and that makes me sad. When people talk about me or mention my name you snap at them, mommy why are you always angry?
Daddy sleeps while you prowl the hallway, finally standing rigid, still outside my room. You sit for hours. I've counted the minutes and the tears. They are numerous and frightening, and I cannot control either. He finds you like he always does, and holds you and kisses you and loves you just like you need him to. Sometimes he cries silently with you, tears you will never know existed, and others he just hugs you to him while the world ends all over again.
You and Daddy see each other everyday and everyday fewer words are spoken. It's not enough just to be there, because he still misses you, mommy. He misses your smile and the sparkle in your eyes. He even misses the way you fight with him, always trying to prove your point, never backing down, always true to a cause. He thought he'd won the game, that he had you, and he wasn't losing anymore. But he loses everyday now. A tiny piece of your heart retreats and he's frightened that one day soon you'll be that same detached woman who insisted she be called Dr. and not his Bones. In that moment, you too will be gone for good.
Don't leave him mommy, he needs you. More than he'd ever admit. More than you'd ever know.
I know your sad mommy, daddy is too, but don't cry for me forever.
Write me a letter, sing me a song. Say my name once or twice. Keeping quiet, trying to pretend, not saying my name does not mean it won't hurt as much. It'll hurt just the same. I'm gone whether you choose to believe it or not, whether you accept it or deny it for as long as you possibly can. It's all the same. You can't be with me, I can't be with you but I can be a part of you, just like you're a part of me.
Your angel,
Ella Grace
TBC