Hello! It's been awhile sorry. Here is a thing I wrote as part of my English coursework. I hope it's okay, otherwise I'll get a really rubbish mark :( feedback appreciated.

A letter To Holly

The darkness throbs and pulses like a beating heart.

Am I afraid? God, I'm terrified.

Sometimes I feel claustrophobic, my surroundings close in on me like a big, solid mass of memories and nightmares and all of the things that seem to frighten me.

At other times I am scared of the future. What will happen to me? For the first time I feel as if I don't have all the answers, and maybe that's what terrifies me the most. Not knowing. Did I overestimate you Holly? Did Foaly not work out my plan? Will I ever be free of this dark, oppressive place that seems to expand into infinity?

That wouldn't be so bad, would it? What is one life gone against millions saved? And look at all the people. They continue to live their silly little lives with their silly little ideas and beliefs. What I would give to be more like them.

Occasionally a beam of golden light flashes across my infinite horizon. That's you, Holly. My hope. The light to my darkness - maybe I will leave here someday.

I could never be grateful enough for what you did for me. You changed me, for the better. I was mean, cold and lonely. Broken. Yes, I was a broken boy and you fixed me.

Thank you.

Did I say that to you before? I can't seem to remember. I should have said something, anything. Something about how much you complete me, or the way your eyes sparkle when you laugh- that never failed to make me happy. I guess I was just too busy thinking with my heart, like you taught me to.

I know I should have warned you earlier. I shouldn't have lied to you about my plan, but lying is in my nature. A leopard can never change his spots. At least I was lying for the right reasons, which is so much harder than lying for the wrong.

I wish you were here now. It's funny, how I never felt lonely before. I pushed people away. I didn't want anybody there to spoil the freedom I had without my parents looking over my shoulder. But now, when I don't have the choice of human, or elfin contact, I'm lonelier than ever.

All these feelings that I've never felt before keep gushing out of me. Pain; loss; fear; anger. Anger towards the world that I am no longer part of. I'm on the outside looking in. Like a glass door that's locked from the inside.

If only there was a way to break through.