Unlearning

By Kerrigan Gladeon

Sharece stood there watching the house for a long time. Her long dark hair and eyes glowed in the dim light of early morning. Her slim body cloaked against the morning's cold by a heavy coat. She had watched and scanned him for a long time now. She had heard the cry of a drowning soul, and had been led here.

He was awake and She could sense the clutter of his mind it was full of past images terrible thing he's visions had exposed him to. Terrible energies flowed in and around him pain and other deep suffering,

clung to him as a result. She waited for him to come out and he did. He stopped as he reached the mail box. His mind questioning as she sent soothing energy to him. She knew how he would respond, fear gripped him and he backed away retreating. She smiled, shaking her head. Like any wild creature, Johnny Smith would be afraid at first. She would wait. She walked away, knowing that all things would come in time. She had other ways to reach him and the link was established. Johnny stopped half way up the drive way shaking as he thought about what had happened at the mailbox. Did he really see what he had seen? She seemed to glow with such a radiance. Bruce pulled up seeing his friend still shaking at what had happened. "Hey John What's Up man?" He asked. Johnny looked at him. Unable to put the experience into words. He hadn't felt such peace, since the night of his accident! He shivered thinking he had seen death waiting for him, yet again. "Was it a vision? Was it something that could be changed?" He thought not sharing those thoughts with Bruce. Then came an almost too subtle whisper from somewhere deep in his mind. "Do I really want to change it?" This frightened him. He sat on the front Steps, talking it over with Bruce. "John , not everything like this is bad. Maybe you should open yourself up to this. Maybe this is something good." Bruce said. Johnny looked at his friend. " I'm not sure about this Bruce, I'm afraid that if this is what I thnk it is that it means that everything I've seen about Armegeddon, can't be changed. Or worse that I've failed." He said. Johnny lowered his head.

"If I've failed what's waiting for me on the other side?" He looked at the yard. Bruce understood the fear Johnny was feeling. "I don't really know what happened John," Bruce said. "Or what this could mean but I can't believe that after everything you've been through that, who or what ever put all this in motion, has just decided that it's not working, and has decided to just give up on the world." He added.

" Maybe there's something you aren't seeing here." Lewis told him. "Maybe there's something you need." Johnny still stared out across the yard. "The next time you see what ever it is you saw, don't run." His friend suggested. Johnny turned and looked at him. "Don't Run? That the best you can come up with ?" Johnny asked he really was hoping that Bruce might tell him that it was time to change his address. Bruce rose slowly as he looked at his friend. "I'm not saying that you shouldn't have some reservations, I Have no idea what you've seen, bro but at least entertain the idea that it might be something that could be good for you." He said. Johnny looked at him. A headache thudding dully in his head. It had been a lot worse, earlier. He had to wonder, if Bruce might be right.

Sharece had settled into a her apartment. She had picked a place that was pretty much a newage community They had their detractors Faith Heritage had been trying to chase the current residents out for years, without sucess. She smiled as she looked at the photo she had gotten from a web site, It was a head study. "Oh Those blue eyes." She smiled, as she thought about the cry she had heard, she could see the hurt in those eyes. She ate a light meal, and began to prepare herself for her next move, toward healing this man. had one Room Emptied of the Things that would distract her from her task. She bathed

in A softly perfumed bath, and she was relaxed as she began to gather what she needed. She set off a sage wand in the room cleansing the energies of the space. This room was seperate from her apartment's living room and her own bedroom. Tonight she would make an effort to reach out to the soul of this man.

She began to set up some thing a candle, and a circle of black Stones and clear Quartz. around this photo. Lighting the candle She added a small stone bowl of water scented with sage oil and frankincense oil. In another bowl She placed earth adding this to the place by the Photo. Into this she set a lemurian crystal it's glow was soft in the light of the setting sun. She began sprinkling spring water mixed with lavendar oil and frankincense oil, around this circle. calling upon both the heavens and the earth. To protect this man, and help him heal his wounded soul. Then she sits there looking into those haunted blue eyes. She smiles as she settles into a chair where she can look into those blue eyes. She stayed there, As darkness settled on the apartment. She was quietly watching those eyes, and she stayed there well into the night. She sat there It would take time. Johnny Smith, was not an easy man, to enter the dreams of. He didn't sleep for very long, often not at all. Because he was alone in that big house filled with memories that he hid from. But this night he was without pain, an increasing rarity and had actually been able to sleep deeply. His apetitie had been better than it had been in a long time. He was able to dream of something that was not a night mare, and awoke the next day feeling better than he had in so very long. Bruce found him cleaning out a weed choked part of his yard. He had a tree to plant there. and Was about half way through the job. When Bruce arrived. " Hey John, What you doin'? " He asked. Johnny smiled." I had the time, and was feeling like it. It's been so long since I felt like this. I didn't want to waste it." The psychic told him. Bruce Smiled. "Have you seen what ever it was that scared you again?" He asked. Johnny sat down. in the grass. Next to the tree, "No," He said. "Not since yesterday."

It was then that Walt showed up There was no emergency He was just checking on the man.

The day was warm and all three men were quite content. "Oh John There's a game on tonight, but Sarah has a bunch of ladies comin' over. I thought JJ and I might come over here." Johnny smiled "Sure Walt. Bruce You free?" Johnny asked. "Nah man, Jesse and I have plans." He said.

Johnny woke the next day to rain usually his hip hurt like hell when it rained. It was days like this he regretted giving up his cane. But today he didn't feel that way, He went about the house cleaning and working on his blog page, when a knock came on his front door. The mail man stood in his clear plastic rain coat and black rain boots. He handed Johnny the mail, but it gave to him no visions of disaster. He took the mail inside, and began to flip through the numerous junk mails and other such things to find that he had a package.

He touched the package, and was enveloped in the gentle warmth, that he'd felt at the mail box. He was afraid at first, but then he heard Bruce's advice. "Don't run." He took this and opened it. "What The Bleep Do We know?" He thought as he looked at the DVD in his hand. He walked over to his laptop and inserted the disc. an hour later he was totally confused. He had to think long and hard about this and sat down at the computer.Gathering his thoughts he added a note to his blog page.

" To who ever sent me the copy of "What The Bleep Do We Know?" What are you trying to say?It was an interesting change of pace, But what is the idea behind it?" He saved the blog and sighed.

"Quantum physics? I'm in over my head. How can you go back in time and actually do more than watch what's already been?" He said to himself. He shook his head, "I can't believe I'm actually thinking about this!" He laid the disc in it's case and set it aside. Three weeks later he had watched it several more times. Carefully going over parts he hadn't really paid attention to before. Then he began to wonder about his own abilities, was there something to this? He looked at the water experiment again. This made him really think. Because his abilities exposed him to such negative thoughts. " Makes you wonder doesn't it. If our thoughts can do that to water Imagine what our thoughts can do to us."

That got his attention if nothing else did. He began to research thought and health related topics. He looked at the clock, and smiled. It was time to go get dinner. He looked at the computer screen, then closed the files he'd been reading. It was clear that part of whatever had been causing his headaches, and the blackouts came because he hadn't known something vital to his well being. "Maybe Bruce was right about the meditation thing I just never thought about this before!" He went outside to get the mail, and found that she was there again. But he'd gotten used to seeing her it wasn't like she was a major threat to him.

Sharece had read the blogs that followed the one when he'd first recieved the DVD she'd sent him. He was beginningto ask questions and getting answers from others. Heunderstand what she was trying to tell him. He had thought about just going back up to the house but he walked over to her. Sharece smiled As he joined her. " Good Morning." She said as he found himself staring at her . "Who are you?" He asked her. "I'm Sharece AliciaGoliad." She told him. And I've been watching you for a long time Johnny Smith. He figured she'd know his name, and figured she was just another crazed fan. But now that they were talking, it was much different.

"What do you want from me?" He asked.she shook her head it was always the same people assumed she wanted something from them. "You are not ready, continue to ask questions it is good to question the world as it is that is the first step toward changing it.Try this first." She handed him a crystal he looked at it for a moment. But he listened to her oddly he found what she told him made sense. He went back to the house and Sharece walked away hewatched her as she left.He just stood there, his mind still not sure what this could mean. It was then that Bruce pulled up,he noticed Johnny looking at the crystal. "Ithink I need the instruction manual."the psychic said as he lookedit over. It was a clear striated piece of some kind of quartz. He found it puzzling He had seenquartz crystals before but none like this. It wasfascinating,