a/n: I'm aliiiiiive. :)) This is a really short fanfic that I found lying on my hard drive. I have written this way back in high school, which is a couple of years ago. :))))

A lot happened between me and Zuko. I really didn't trust him the first time he offered himself in our group. What, with what happened in Basingse, I couldn't really bank on him. But then he showed that he has already seen the light.

I became friends with him the day he showed me to mom's killer. I found out it was only a waste of time. I couldn't kill him. Aang was so proud. But I was wrong. It wasn't a waste of time. It was the day I became friends with Zuko and that alone made it special in my book.

The love part came later. It was when he blocked Azula's lightning from hitting me. True, I would become extremely jealous whenever he would talk of Mei but I would never admit my feelings that time. When I saw him writhing in pain at my expense, I found out I can no longer hide from this. Rage fueled me. I used waterbending to trap Zuko's witch of a sister and I used it to partially heal Zuko's wounds.

I almost threw myself at him and tell him what I just realized but then, I thought, he might get hurt with my…intensity and now isn't the right time to profess love; it's time for war. Turns out that I should have done it. Turns out that it was the only chance I got. The only chance I will get.

I wanted to congratulate him that day on being the new Fire Lord. I also figured his wounds' dressings needed to be changed. Another reason is that I wanted to tell him that I love him. Looks like Mei beat me to the punch. They were kissing when I got there. I couldn't help the tears running from my eyes. I raced away from his chamber.

I was there when they married. The ever faithful friend. I watched Mei walk down the altar wishing it was me. I watched Mei kiss him wishing it was me in her place. I watched her swell with his child wishing I would be the one to carry the next generation of fire lords. I could never accept the way things have turned out. I would gladly be his mistress, I would sink as low to be the other woman just to have a taste of what would it be like to be loved by the only man I ever wanted. But I know it would never happen. He loved Mei too damn much.

And I was only his sister. I married Aang knowing fully well how unfair it would be for the both of us. I am using him as a poor substitute for my love. I am hopeless and I know it. Zuko was there when Aang and I married. He looked genuinely happy and that's what hurt me. I stopped myself from crying knowing that I would only look like a fool and it would hurt Aang to call off everything. He's my best friend.

I thought that someday maybe my feelings for Zuko would wane. Maybe I would fall for Aang instead. Who was I kidding? That day hasn't come. And I'm sure no matter how long I wait it wouldn't come.