Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Inuyasha characters. This goes for the entire story, so i dont have to keep repeating it.
Deadliest Love
"Sango. Sango." I felt someone shaking me.
"What?" I shot up from the sleeping bag Kagome provided us with.
"Nothing. But everyone is finally asleep. Still up for that walk?" I looked up at Miroku confused. I shook my head smiling.
"Oh yeah. I forgot." He took my hand and helped me stand. We walked lightly to not wake the others. Not that I cared if they knew we wanted to be alone, its just that, well it would be rude. We walked through the forest hand in hand. A comfortable silence filled the air.
"Sango." Miroku said stopping our walk. "I love you." I smiled, it was nice that he could just tell me.
"Me too." I said moving closer to him. He pushed me lightly into his chest. We stayed like that for a while. His hand began to wonder down towards my backside, but I didn't say anything. He stopped waiting for his normal well deserved smack, but it never came. I leaned in closer to him and put my face in the crook of his neck. My hot breath tickled him, I could tell because he wriggled a little. His hand continued to caress me.
"Sango?" He questioned in a whisper as if normal tone would upset me.
"Hmm." I murmured.
"What's wrong with you?" He asked concerned.
"Nothing." I said smiling up at him.
"I love you so much." He said looking down and giving me a peck on the lips. It was my first kiss. I blushed and looked away. "Don't do that." He said turning my face back towards him. He kissed me again, harder this time. He licked my bottom lip and I parted my lips allowing him to slip his tongue into my mouth. He pushed me between a tree and himself. Kissing me harder he started to pull at my kimono.
"Wait Miroku. Stop. Stop." I said pulling away. He looked at me and smirked.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"I'm not ready for that. The kissing was fun, but it was all I could handle. I think its time to head back." I said trying to leave. He slammed me back to the tree and held me tight.
"It wasn't enough." He said an evil glint in his eyes.
"Miroku please, stop." I asked. He smirked and ripped off my kimono. He threw me down on the floor and then took off his clothing. I tried my best to push him off but the more I tried the stronger and angrier he became. He lifted his naked form over mine and lightly tapped my opened untouched sacred spot with his large erect member. "Don't. Please." I begged.
"Oh but I must, my dearest Sango." He said maliciously shoving his enlarged member into my small tight hole. I let out a slight yell and felt hot tears ran down my face. He thrusted into me, harder each time. His rapid and rough pumps finally stopped as he filled me with his seed and slipped out. I lied there embarrassed and ashamed. I put my clothes on with wobbly weak legs. He got dressed just as fast. "Get back quickly." He simply said and walked away.
I sat there upset and hurt. I cried my heart out and realized I couldn't deal with him anymore. He took things too far. With hurt legs I walked in the opposite direction. I couldn't travel with them anymore. I walked for hours it seemed and my legs finally gave out. I sat there on the floor helpless and alone.
"What are you doing out here?" A male voice said behind me. My head flipped around in fear. I came face to face with electric blue eyes. Tears rimmed my eyes and I ran, afraid of what he might do. Miroku claimed he loved me and if he would still do that to me, imagine what an enemy would do. I tripped and fell, I wanted to get up and run but I couldn't. I sat there in defeat waiting to see what he would do to me. He silently walked up to me, my eyes remained downcast.
"Hey what the hell happened to you?" He asked. I finally looked up. I guess he realized the despair I was feeling and looked away.
I looked away. The look in her eyes killed me. She looked broken and torn. I wanted to help her, but I should want to kill her. What's wrong with me?
After the prolonged silence I blurted out "He raped me."
"What?" He asked turning around to look at me.
"He...raped me." I choked out.
"Who?" He asked concerned. I looked down and let the tears fall from my eyes.
"I trusted him. I loved him and he...he...he raped me." I whispered the last part. "He took everything from me. Everything." I didn't look at him. I didn't even know if he was still there but I continued. "It was perfectly fine, but he had to go the extra mile, he always has to goes the extra mile." My face was wet from tears. "He stole my virginity. Not even nicely, but with such anger. He was malicious and forceful." I cried harder. "How could he do that to me." I wined, one of my shoulders lifted up to my face. I violently wiped the tears away even though they kept coming, and looked down. I felt him come sit by me.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know." He whispered as if talking too loud would shatter me into a million pieces. Wrapping an arm around my shoulder I quickly pulled away with fear in my eyes. "Look I'm not gonna hurt ya. Unlike your friend, I don't need to force myself on a girl, they come to me." He sounded cocky and truthful but I couldn't trust him, not yet, I wasn't letting my guard down. "I'm not gonna hurt you." He reassured. I moved back away from him and sat with my knees to my chest rocking my self back and forth. "Look I really won't hurt you but if you don't believe me I won't touch ya. I'll keep watch for the night cause I feel bad for leaving you out here in your state. What's your name anyways?" He said looking at me. I didn't say anything for a while.
"Sango." I said and looked away.
Morning came slowly and dreadfully. I could hardly keep my eyes opened as the sun rose above the horizon. My lids became heavier by the minute.
"Go to sleep." His harsh voice cut through the morning air.
"I can't." I said, my voice rough from the lack of liquid.
"Fine be that way but I'm taking a nap." He lied down on the cool grass putting his hands behind his head and closed his eyes. He reminded me of Inuyasha. I smiled. My friends were all a distant memory. "Why you smiling?" He asked snapping me from my train of thought.
"Just thinking." I said quietly.
"Bout?" He propped himself up on his elbows.
"My friends." I continued to stare out ahead of me.
"Was it one of them?" He asked. My mind took longer to process what he said, he meant to say -was it one of your friends that raped you-. My eyes snapped to him but I didn't answer. "I'll take that as a yes." He concluded. It went silent again, I didn't like it. I needed to hear his voice again, it kept me from my thoughts, at least I could share them with someone.
"It was...Miroku, the monk." I buried my face into my knees. A knot formed in my throat making me want to cry again.
"Oh." He said. Everything went silent again "But if he's a monk then..."
"I know." I finished. I felt like crying again. The memory of him on top of me still fresh in my mind. No more words were exchanged, I guess it was comfortable. At night I went to sleep on the floor not too far from Bankotsu, feeling unsafe if I slept alone.
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" The girl screamed at the top of her lungs waking me up from my peaceful slumber. I shot up and looked around frantically. She was sitting up her eyes closed. I walked over and shook her. She opened her eyes. Tears stained her face, she looked at me scared and confused.
"Hey its ok." I said. She cried harder than I ever knew someone could. She then jumped in my chest and I didn't know what to do except console her. I rubbed her hair and put my head on hers. She continued to cry, I wanted so badly to take the pain away from her.
"It just hurts you know." She said looking up at me with red eyes. "Trusting someone and then they turn on you." Her voice was low and tired from lack of sleep and crying.
"I'm sorry." I said letting her go but she held me tighter.
"Please...don't...go." She chocked out. "I don't want to be alone." She confessed. I pulled her into my lap and rocked her to sleep. "My thoughts...they're gonna kill me." Her low voice reached my ears.
"You can't let him win." I said looking at her. She looked defeated, she no longer had any fight in her. She didn't say anything for a while just looked at me with big brown eyes. She leaned up close to me and kissed me. She held me tight. "Hey." I said breaking the contact. She looked at me sad this time.
"I'm sorry." She looked away almost embarrassed.
"Its fine. Just go to sleep, your tired." I said looking away. She settled in my lap and feel asleep. Finally I lied her down on the ground and she clung to the front on my top. I smiled and lied down beside her. I held her close, it was the first time I had someone lay in my arms for the night. I held her tighter and fell asleep.
Someone's arm was constricting me. I stiffened and opened my eyes. Bankotsu's face was right there next to mine. I relaxed when I remembered what happened last night. I looked at his handsome face, and felt my cheeks heat up.
"What you lookin at?" His voice snapped me out of thought. I looked back at his smirking face and felt my self blush again.
"I'm sorry. I forget to thank you for last night." My voice was quiet and timid.
"Don't worry about it, I'm just glad your ok." He put a strand of hair behind my ear.
"Thank you." I closed my eyes.
"Don't get soft on me again." I opened my eyes to look at him, he actually looked concerned.
"I'll try not to." I smiled.
"Come on let's get some food, I know your hungry."
"Look you don't have to travel with me if you don't want to. I'll just go to a nearby village and-" he cut me off with his lips. He kissed me and I couldn't help but return it, I felt safe in his arms.
"I guess I want you to." He broke our contact. I smiled sadly and let myself out of his arms. "Is something wrong?"
"No its fine. I was just thinking of Miroku." Tears brimmed my eyes and I had to shut them to avoid from crying.
"Sango." He walked up to me and put a hand on my shoulder. I jumped. "Sorry." He moved his hand away. "Don't think about it. About him. We can have fun, get your mind off of him." I looked up at him. I was glad that I would be able to do something without Miroku on my mind. I gave him a smile and he returned one. This was going to get better, I could tell.