Disclaimer – I don't own these characters. And I certainly have NOT kidnapped them and chained them in my closet! *looks around nervously* They were created by Ron Cowen and Daniel Lipman from the British series by Russell T. Davies. No money is being made from this little form of entertainment and no infringement is intended. Oh, and I yoinked the lyrics from Darren Hayes' brilliant album "Spin". GO BUY IT RIGHT NOW!
Title – Paradise Lost: A Collection of Vignettes
Rating – R (language and slash)
Summary –After the events of 220, Brian reflects on the relationship he had with Justin.
Author's note – While the actual time frame of this story is set after the season two finale, the time ranges anywhere from the beginning of the series to the present within the vignettes themselves. Thank you and enjoy the show!
Do you love me?
Or am I just another trip in this strange relationship?
You push and pull me again
I'm about to loose my mind
Is this just a waste of time?
Keep actin' like you own me
I keep runnin' watch me walkin' out that door
I hear you behind me.
Gimme that strange relationship
Never felt pleasure and pain like this
Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong
I keep holding on
Gimme that strange relationship one of us has gotta let go of this
I keep pushing and you keep holding on
I'm already gone.
~Darren Hayes, "Strange Relationship"
Fuck. Why do I do these things? Why? Whenever it seems that things could be going well, that things might finally work out, I have to go and fuck it up. God, that look on his face. The hurt in his eyes when he saw me. Why the hell didn't I go after him? Tell him I was sorry? I let him go. Let him walk off with the fiddle player. I wanted him to. I pushed him off that fuckin' cliff along with Mikey. No one can get close to Brian Kinney. No fuckin' way. It's not as if he can't be replaced. Hell, I've already gone and done it. Took that trick home from the Rage party and fucked him in our . . . my bed. Kicked him out later that night. Nothing's changed. Things have become regulated again. One twink stayed longer than he should have. But that's over now. We're over.