I'd Give Anything
A/N: This song is from Goo Goo Doll's Iris. Hope you like it. This songfic is in the POV of Draco so you know. If you haven't heard this song I highly recommend that you go and listen to it.
There are so many things that I want to tell her, but so little time to say them. I send her letters every day along with roses even though she never replies. I wish that there were a way to tell her the truth, to finally tell her who I really am. But there's always someone else. Whether it's Harry or Ron, there's always someone else.
Dear my sweet,
You seem so happy with Harry and Ron. I doubt that I would ever be able to fill the gap that they leave. But that doesn't mean that I wouldn't give it a try. I wonder what it's like for you to not know who I am, to have to constantly look over your shoulder in hopes of seeing the real culprit. But every time you do look over that shoulder of yours, you only see me. You don't seem to be pleased with the results for you frown at me and quickly go back to your life that doesn't concern me. It never concerns me.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll
Ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
I wish I could see you face to face. Just to talk to you even without any regrets. You make it so hard for me to be able to speak the truth. I know you hate me for what I've done and what I will do. But you only know half of that story. Do you know that I hate how I am? Do you know that I hate my father more than anything else in this world? Must be hard for you to read this. I'm sure by now you have already figured out whom this is.
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
If not, then you will know when you reach the end of this letter. I hope you know that I tried my best to forget about you completely and go back to my old ways. You know those old ways, but the word mudblood just doesn't seem to fit anymore. I guess I could never really forget about you. I see you every day you know. I gaze at you during breakfast, lunch, and dinner but you never seem to notice. Do you ever really notice? I only wish for you to know who this is and only you.
And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd
Understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
But that really doesn't matter either. You could go and tell them if you like, but I don't think that they would care. Do you even really care either? I never really thought that my hate for you would turn into such passion that I feel now. You make me so frustrated. I have to live every day knowing that you would never feel the same for me. But you don't have to deal with that now do you?
And you can't fight the tears that ain't
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
Those blokes that I call my friends never understand. They only follow me around because of my father. Yes, the big bad Death Eater he thinks he is. Did you know that I'm destined to follow in his footsteps? I hate it so much. If anyone ever found out about my feelings toward you they would use it against me just to make me join them.
And I don't want the world to see me
'cause I don't think that they'd
Understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am (x3)
I just hope that you understand what I'm trying to tell you. This being the only time that I can tell you how I feel. Maybe things will be different now or maybe things will be the same. Whatever happens I only wish that you will speak to me. If only for a minute it will be the better part of my day.
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Yours Truly,
Draco Malfoy.