"Fuck, how did I end up like this" he said out loud. The human barman replied: "With two bottles of rum my turian friend".

Two bottles of rum! Not bad for a human drink, and unfortunately it does not give me the slow death I relish. She would have been so proud of me. About the drinking anyway, I very much doubt she would have approved of me drinking myself to death, with RUM! At least is not a Pina Colada. He sat back and remembered the last time he saw her. A crooked smile on her face, her hair bun coming undone, and her black luscious hair running down her back pass her buttocks. Oh how I miss that ass! She looked at me while she was trying to secure her hair "what are you looking at turian" she said. "Just admiring the view, love, that is all". That was the last think I ever said to her. I was so stupid. Is that all I could think to tell her? What was wrong with me? It's been a week since her death. Spirits, she is really dead, again but nobody will bring her back again. Even she couldn't outrun death twice.

"Bob another bottle of your finest rum, and grab a glass for yourself "The barman looked at him with the expression of pity and admiration.

"Garrus I will give you that bottle if you hand me that sniper rifle of yours, I will put it somewhere secure. Only because you scare the rest of the patrons" He waited with his arms outstretched.

"Fuck, you want to take my big turian cock as well"

Everyone in the bar stopped talking and stared at him. Shit I should just blow my brains right here. That will give them something to stare. I bet everybody is wondering how a dead turian looks like. He loaded the rifle and placed it under his chin.

"Pull that trigger and I will whip your ass pendejo" A human Alliance man with a N7 hooded jumper walked in the bar. Oh shit, how did he find me? I thought I covered my trucks. My skills are getting rusty. Of course my other half is gone somewhere where I can't follow, I am half a man and by turian standards I am no man, I am nothing.

"What do you want James? I told you to leave me in peace. To die alone like she did"

Look at him looking at me. Pity in his eyes, and something else, what is he not tell me. Ahhh who cares anyway, she is dead and that all that matters to him.

"You know that I begged her to take me with her on the final assault? And all she could say was -No love don't ask me that- and she took you and that Prothean, it should have been ME on her side, NOBODY else" Again that look in his eyes.

"We found her Garrus, and she is alive".

What the fuck is he talking about? Even James sense of humour is not this cruel. Close but not for something like this.

"You have two minutes to explain to me, what the fuck are you talking about or I swear, I will blow your brains first and then mine. TALK! NOW!"

James took the bottle of rum from the bar with another glass, walked up to the table, filled up the glasses and said:

"Put that gun away and sit that sorry turian ass of yours and listen".

This man, my friend is messing with my head, he is telling me that my love is alive and he wants me to sit? Spirits I will shoot him I swear on my mothers' spirit I will shoot him.

"We found her two days ago. The day YOU decided to do a disappearing act on me. I've been looking everywhere for you hombre! You are my friend don't do this to me".

"I am sorry; now please tell me she is ok"

"Well she is in a coma and her body is pretty messed up, Lo siento mi amico(I am sorry my friend), but the doctors are doing anything they can, you know those Salarians, they are pretty smart. They found her in the debris that was more like a life pod, covered with metal and bodies. My God I have seen some gruesome things in my life but what they did to those bastards, ahh it makes my blood boil".

My face is numb so this must be a dream. Damn if I am going to dream I don't want to see Vegas face I want to see her face. Those big golden eyes looking at me like I am the only one that matters to her. Cruel Spirits why are you doing this to me? I need a drink to think. Yap that bottle will do. Oh that felt good. What did she say her name meant in Arabic? The irony was she is doesn't have any Arabic blood in her. I really don't understand the human mentality sometimes. That's it! Hayat means life. "

Hahahahaha and you have plenty of that my love. Move it Vega, I have a sleeping beauty waiting for me to wake her up. Thanks Bob it was lovely meeting you but it looks like you are not cleaning any turian of the floor tonight".He got up and started walking, with James next to him.I need to be there when she wakes up and ... yah I need to have a shower, I stink like a vorcha. I need, I need... I need to get sober cause I think I will vomit.

"James did I ever tell you the story where Shepard actually passed out from drinking a krogan liquor called Ryncol? Thane and I had to carry her in the men's toilets to vomit. She was vomiting for two days straight. Ha ha good old days"

"Why the men toilets?"

"Imagine a turian and a drell walk into the women's toilets with a female human. Yeah try and explain that to Captain Bailey".

James laughed and shook his head, but immediately his face went serious again.

"Garrus amico don't keep your hopes up man, we don't even know what happen on the Citadel that night, we don't know IF she ever going to wake up and if she does... well, she will ever be the same"

He doesn't know what he is talking about, I know her and she will be just fine, and if she is not I will look after her until my last dying breath.

3 hours later:

"What do you mean we can't go yet? James I need to be there when she wakes up. I wasted enough time by making an ass of myself, I..."

"Garrus man, I wish we could but is not up to me, they will send a shuttle in forty- eight hours. While you were sitting on your sorry ass feeling sorry for yourself people out there are trying to rebuild. The turians NEED you. What the hell is wrong with you pendejo? Do you think the Commander would have wanted you to be such a selfish bastard? She went to sacrifice herself willingly and this is how you repay her. Now shape up soldier".

"Wow James! Do all N7 soldiers like to shout so much? You will need to practise though Shepard was way better than you. She even made the Quarian Admirals shit themselves in those suits of theirs. Ha good old days"

"Now you sound like the turian I met. Come on Scars you have work to do. The Primarch wants to have a chat with you"

They were sitting in the little apartment that the Alliance provided him on Earth. He walked up to the QEC and dialled the Primarch.

"Vakarian what happened to you? You are a member of the Turian people here on Earth and everyone relies on you, you can't just disappear every time you have the urge to drink yourself to death, your people need you".

"Well I don't want to be part of anything. I don't want anybody relying on me. Everyone that ever relied on me ends up dead, and if I want to drink I don't need you permission SIR".

"Vakarian what happen to you son? You were a proud soldier and a good one once. This is not the turian way".

"Fuck the turian way SIR!And I am not your son. You want to know what happen to me. She happened, and I will do everything I can to get to her. Is it anything else you need me for Sir?"

"Garrus... Do you believe that the Commander would have approved of this behaviour?"

"Well she shouldn't have sacrificed herself then and leave me here all by myself. But it doesn't matter she is alive and I am going to her."

"Let me make you a deal Vakarian. I will arrange a shuttle tonight, IF you agree to help your fellow turians. You can work from the hospital. Hopefully you have more luck waking up the Commander, taking in count your... relationship".

"As you wish sir. Oh and sir... I ...am sorry"

Spirits help me. I don't want to worry about turians. All I want to worry is about her. Fuck, how did I end up like this? But I will see her by tomorrow. Yes this is good. I will need to find my armor and fix it. I haven't touched it since the war ended.

He walked into the bathroom and started removing his clothes. He turned the water on as hot as possible and stepped under it. The water felt good. All the pain was washing over him. He started thinking about her and he found himself touching his erected penis. He smiled and she remembered her face when she first saw it. She had the look of amazement and a slight fear. I thought it was odd... for turian standards I was a reasonable size. Later on when I started watching more vids I understood the shock. Oh love it will be good to have you back he thought with a smile on his face watching the cum drip to the shower.