A/N: Just a little something I started to make me feel better, then wow it actually turned out with potential. So I hope you like it!!! Read and review Please!!!! Oh and I want to change the title if you have ant suggestions let me
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Remembering You
Chapter 1: Breakup, Break down
I remember the first time I laid eyes on him; he was the cutest guy I had ever seen. My best friend, Anna, had set us up on a blind date, and while I was wary to go I did. That night was the most fun I had had in ages (since my last breakup months ago). He made me forget everything, but the here and now. Something I learned from him; live for the moment.
A week later, we hung out again in my friend's living room. I don't even know how it happened, but we just clicked. And somewhere between switching roles while playing Rock Band- we kissed, I never really knew who "started it" I think it was more mutual. And it was incredible. That night while Anna's mom drove us home we made out in the back of their car. He then asked me out.
He always kept me on my toes; and I trusted him with everything. All my secrets, my past, and my heart. He told me he would never break it and I believed him, how could I not? Those eyes they were the window to his soul and in them I saw a true sincere passion.
Almost a year later, it was a week before my 18th birthday, my friends had decided to throw me a little kid roller-skating party that he couldn't attend because he was going away with his family. He still wanted to celebrate so that Saturday he said it would be a just the two of us day. He bought me roses, and made me amazing meals – both lunch and dinner. Then we snuggled on the couch to watch home movies we had made over the last year. And that night… I gave him everything.
I had never felt more right in all my life it was the happiest day of my life.
But the next day he left for vacation, and I began to have my doubts without his reassuring words at my ear. I brushed it off as my "good girl" side making an attempt to bring me back, not gonna happen.
The week had passed and that night was my patry. My mind was in a haze as I got ready for it. And oddly enough I can not remember a thing from that nigh, except for one of the guys that was working that night, but even that memory was fuzzy. I remember what people told me, and the pictures they showed me but none of my own memories were there. This I had passed off on the bottle of Vodka that Anna had brought just for me; I mean that had to be it.
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The years passed and things stayed pretty normal for me, though our relationship lost some of its fire went we were accepted to different universities. Though, I remember every year on my birthday he would drive in from his college to visit me. It was tradition-, every year. We reenacted my first birthday with him. Never was it a disappointment.
Finals had just ended ,but because of the importance of them this year he couldn't come in for my birthday, so he promised that as soon as he got in we would celebrate. He apologized sincerely for it, and promised that he missed me so much and couldn't wait to say "I love you" in person again.
I knew he meant it by the rock he had out on my finger 3 months ago when he asked me to marry him. So I had no severe problem waiting; soon we would be together always. What was an extra week??
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"Boy was I an idiot." I scoffed to myself, and downed another shot.
He came home, but not with the surprise I had in mind…
"We Need to talk" he sighed
"Oh your funny, you know those words to anyone else would be like the kiss of death"I lauged, but still a chill ran down my spine.
"Riley my brother singed me on to be his business partner."
"Oh my god that's wonderful!" I gasped, and wrapped my arms around his neck kissing him happily.
"Ri, I'm leaving for California next week" He was tring to explain I just refused to let it sink in.
"Jeez you could have given me a little more warning…I need to pack and let everyone know, and…" but he cut me off
"You don't get it. I cant take you with me… I …I think its best if we move on with our lives… seperatly" he dropped that like a ton of bricks… he was breaking up with me…
"Wait… what … why??? I don't understand. What happened? Did I do something wrong?" I choked out, my voice cracking. I felt the tears bubbling up in my eyes.
"No, no its not you. Riley I don't want the life for you that im going to have. Ill never be home, the corporation will keep me so busy everyday of the week, that I'm not going to have time to be a good husband to you." He tried to explain
"We…We'll find someway to work this out. I know we can I have faith in us!" I screamed the tears running freely.
"No, I'm growing and what we had planned just isn't an option anymore. I'm so sorry." He apologized.
"There's no changing your mind is there?" I asked pitifully
"No I'm sorry, but no." He looked so defeated.
"So what were the last 5 years to you, nothing?" I asked getting angry "I gave you everything, trusted you fully and this is what I get in return"
"No I will cherish every memory of those years for the rest of my life. And back then things were different, I'm not the same man that I was, im growing; changing. I can see me being here any longer will only hurt you more so I'm going to leave now. But please be safe." He whispered, then kissed my hand and turned for the door.
"I hope you haven't grown so much that your fat ego-filled head will get stuck between the door molding." I spat back then plled his ring off my finger before handing it to him and walking out of the room not waiting for him to leave.
Instead I made my way down to the lower level to open the garage door. There sat my little car; little did it know what it was in for.
"Be safe" he had told me, and so I intended to do everything but that.
And that's where I found myself now. A 22 year-old, single for the first time in 5 years, depressed, and tipsy at the local bar down the road.
I swallowed down another shot and leaned against the bar. Everything was sinking in and I was starting to feel really sick. I'd been crying for what felt like days, it had really only been an hour, and the bar-tender had learned to just ignore me, and each time I left for the bathroom he'd refill my glass.
I knew I should probably quit drinking, I was goin to have a hrad enough time getting home as is was
'Haha like you actually plan on making it home anyway' I thought with a slight chuckle. Thinking about doing that was oddly comforting. I signaled for another glass, but as he handed it to me I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Please don't do this" a male voice begged
Quickly, I turned but wasn't prepared for the silver, and green eyes that stared back at me.
"I…I'm sorry… you must have mistaken me for someone else." I stuttered shocked.
"I don't think so Riley… don't do it" his voice echoed like silk, and suddenly my thoughts of ending it all vanished.