I feel stupid doing this because I know you'll never read it and I know you're dead, but I need to tell you how I feel. Dean would call me a girl for this, but he's never going to know that I wrote this.
I just want to say thank you. Without you, we wouldn't have been in some... situations, but I wouldn't be the same person I am now. You helped me face fears and you helped me and Dean escape Lucifer. Again, without you we'd be dead right now and for that we owe you our lives. I suppose now is as good a time as any to tell you how I feel.
When I first met you, you were annoying and a pest and then you killed my brother, and then you turned me into a car; but in the times in between finding out who you really were and this hotel fiasco, I've had time to think.
Honestly, I wish we'd have had more time to get to know each other. I know it's not in your nature, but a man can dream.
I'm sorry Gabriel. I'm sorry that you had to die for me at the hands of your own brother. I'm sorry you had to go against him that way. I appreciate it, but I'd rather we met that way than not at all. Thank you for being amazing, just amazing you.
It feels silly even thinking it considering... but I miss you. You were a light in my dark and I'm sorry again for everything.
Well, I suppose it's time to tell you...
I love you
All my love
Sam.