Hey. I have scheduled my time so now I have time to write, like hell. I don't do schedules at all, if I 'schedule' something it means I don't want to do it and will call up and cancel it asap. lol. Really I just now end up having more time to right. I hope you like this. Ideas are appreciated.

Disclaimer: No comment. (Which is short for, 'I don't own anything.')

Hey, not true! I own this idea! I thought it up while listening to music! So there!- Sage

Silent Is Always Better

= =Chapter 1= =

Kagome Higurashi stared up at her white ceiling, tears slightly blurring her vision. She knew she loved Inu Yasha. She knew Inu Yasha loved her. But she also knew that Inu Yasha felt that he had to repent for the death of Kikyou. And she couldn't stop him. 'It's just… It hurts so badly.' Kagome thought as she pulled one of her hands out from underneath her head and reaching over to her radio on the nightstand, flicking the on switch. A melody began to roll out of the radio, a little while later and words began to make its way into the song.

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I live it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind

"I hate dogs." She silently lied to herself. Who was she kidding? She loved dogs, always have, always will. She just needed someone to hate, someone to blame other than herself. To make someone else be the second best, the third wheel, the one who is 'dumped'. She found what she hated, that word, 'dumped'.

She felt slightly happy, he didn't use the word dumped. He used words such as, Sorry, I have to do this and, the most important one, love. ' "I love you and care for you, Kagome. But I can't loose this guilt. Not now, not ever. I'm sorry. Please don't cry." ' The words Inu Yasha had told her plagued her mind.

Like a headache you couldn't get rid of. Or if you did, it was only for a little while, for it would come straight back.

Inside of me
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

"Erase all the pain till it's gone, Erase all the pain till it's gone… How? There is no way you can do that." Kagome told her self. 'And besides, if you erase the pain then, you also erase the memory, the feelings, the lesson, the experience. You loose all those things. Things that can help you in the future. But why is th-' Kagome's thoughts were interrupted by a gentle knock on the door. One so gentle, it could only belong to her dear mother.

Kagome quickly turned off her radio and turned her body over in her bed, placing her feet firmly on the ground. Pushing her hands into the soft, pink material of her covers, pushing herself off her bed and walking to open the door.

Kagome tried her best to put on a smile, failed horribly. Her shinning, tear streaked cheeks and, glazed over eyes stood out upon her beautiful self. Her mom just gave her a pitied smile and motioned for her daughter to go back and sit on her bed. Kagome, not seeing any reason not to do what her mother order, was quick to comply and laid her body on the soft, pink cloud of which she called her bed.

Her mom looked Kagome straight in the eyes, a serious expression on her face, as if she where about to say something very important. Something about a family members health, or work, or some terrible accident had a occurred. "Boys…?" One word. One words and Kagome's legs began to shake slightly.

Kagome didn't want to tell her mother, for once, she didn't want to tell anyone what she was thinking. How she felt, her ideas and dreams.

'It is safer this way. I wouldn't be able to say something wrong. Making someone mad, sad or, cause something horrible to happen. And most of all, I can protect myself.' Kagome knew she was cowering. She knew that, she didn't care. She knew her mom would never hurt her.

She knew her mom loved her, same as her brother and grandpa. She could talk to them, just no one else. She could never truly trust anyone else with her feelings, her thoughts, her self. They could accidentally hurt her, or on purpose.

But, to get the message to her mom and the rest of the family. She would have to stop talking to everyone, them included. Then after a while, she will gain back her voice for them. She loves her family. Always will, always have.

She loves Inu Yasha, always will, always have.

Kagome just gave a nod to her mother. A true smile forming at her lips. Her mother just hugged her, rubbing circles upon her daughters back for comfort. Before standing up and announcing dinner was ready, and exiting the room. Not before turning back to tell her daughter that she loved her. "And if the boy doesn't want you, then they must be insane." Her mother joked as she closed the white door behind her. (a/n: Is Kagome's door white?)

A few seconds passed, Kagome's vision still stuck on the door. Quickly scooted to her left, falling upon a small glass bottle. In it held pieces of the most beautiful, and powerful, just of mankind.

Kagome lazily walked over and picked up the glass bottle, peering inside at the contents that it held. Three thin slivers of a jewel. Her ticket to her love, her ticket to her maker of pain. Either way, she had to go back someday. 'I did break the jewel. So I should put it back together. And besides, Inu Yasha would probably come up here and drag my butt back anyways.' She let a small chuckle escape her lips, placing the bottle in her desk door and locking it securely.

She had the lock installed ever since she caught Souta looking at her diary. She kept all her personal belongings in that drawer. And the Shikon No Tama, or at least pieces of it, where personal items. It did come out of her. I say that is personal enough.

'I will go back there and finish what I started. I just need some time to rest. Just some time is all.' Kagome mentally told herself. She would go back, of course. Though she wont utter a word about it, she can't. She can't say a word no more. Cause silent is always better.

= =End Of Chapter 1= =

A/N: How do you like? I would really like to know. It is ok to flame. Please Read and Review, r&r. I want to hear what you think. Here is a little poll for you, for the end of my story. I could end two ways.

1. Kagome and Inu Yasha as lovers and live happily ever after.

2. Kagome and Inu Yasha just close friends, and Kagome accepts how life is. (The Inu/Kik. thing)

3. Your Idea Inserted here.

Please vote! Reviews make me write faster! And more at that!