Hey, you! I thought it was time to write my own Everwood story… so here it is!

Since I'm a huge Ephrison fan this is what the story is all about

I know it's not the best story ever written but I just wanted to bring Ephram and Madison back into your mind.

Warning: Madison haters beware!

Rating: I think T will match this very well

Pairing: Ephram/Madison

Chapters: I'm not quite sure yet. At the moment I have eight chapters written.

Summary: Ephram realizes that a part of his heart will always be missing. It will for his entire life be with his son, the person he will never really have in his life but has to think about every minute…

I wrote the story after I saw episode 4x12 "You're are a good man, Andy Brown", where Ephram said that he will wait for his son's knock on the door his whole life

Disclaimer: Neither the pairing nor the actors belong to me (unfortunately)

They belong to the WB and Greg Berlanti. Only the idea of this story was created by my own. Oh and forgive me for my grammar mistakes, I'm a German girl and only learn English in school. Well, enough said … have fun with my story

Yours PattyPotter91

Chapter One: Something is always missing

Ephram Brown sat at his desk and searched for something in the internet when his father came into his room.

"Did you ever hear the word KNOCK before?! ", asked Ephram and looked at his dad angrily.

Andy didn't say a word; he just grabbed a chair and sat down beside his son. Then he watched him looking seriously.

"What? What's wrong, dad?"

"Well, this is the question I wanted to ask you!"

"I'm fine, dad.Thanks for your caring."

Andy shook his head quickly. "Obviously you are not fine. You have been sitting here since break fast, you don't talk a word to your sister and you've been quiet for the entire day. Also you did not practise the piano and you didn't eat at all…"

Ephram knew his father was right but he was too afraid to tell him the real reason for his behaviour.

"I got it! Okay? I will turn off that computer, eat something, talk to Delia and practise the piano. Are you happy now?"

Before his dad could say something he was out of the door and went downstairs to the kitchen.

Why does dad have to ask me this? Of course, I'm not fine! How should I ever be okay about this? But I can't change that also. Only when I …. NO, stop being this stupid, Ephram!

Behind the counter stood Delia and smiled at him.

"Hey, you want my company? I could make some lasagne."

"Yeah, okay… Wait who taught you how to cook?"

Delia grinned happily. When Ephram heard the word "Madison" escaping from his sister's mouth he suddenly panicked.

"What is wrong with you Ephram? You look as if you had seen a ghost." " Ahm it's nothing…just…I don't know…in some way Madison's name kind of freaked me out.."

Delia patted her brother's shoulder and looked him deeply in the eyes. "It's normal. I know you loved Madison. Hey we should visit her at her house. I really miss her." "Delia, listen… she isn't in town, she…she's in New York.." Delia Brown's eyes widened. "Why? Does she live there?"

Ephram's hands started to shiver when he thought back to the day in Manhattan,with Madison who told him finally the truth. Yes, that day changed his whole life.

"Wait. How do you know where Madison is? Did you meet her without telling me so that you could have fun alone with her?"

He couldn't help but sobbed deeply,it hurt so much even when it was 12 ½ months ago since he last met her.

"Ephram are you crying?"

"Delia I'm so sorry! Yeah I met her but it wasn't fun. Not even a bit. It was the saddest conversation I ever had not because of Madison but of someone else. Someone I don't even know. I swear, I didn't plan to meet her."

His sister looked worried and handed him a tissue.

"Here take it. So something happened between you guys, right?"

"Yeah. We had the worst fight ever." "What was it about?"

Ephram looked away and dried off his tears. "Ephram? Did you hear me?" He nodded slowly.

"We…we talked about my life and her life and then she spread some news about me I couldn't deal with." "What news?"

No, Ephram! You will not say a thing. She doesn't need to know about this. First try to cope with this yourself before talking to your little sis. But I promised to tell her one day. If I do it now she won't come in a few years asking me about my past/ my reason for escaping from home.

"The news that Madison was pregnant." Delia held her breath for a moment. "Well, that is really bad. Didn't she have a boyfriend who helped her?" Suddenly his tears returned but much stronger.

"Delia you do not understand, this baby was… was mine. MINE AND MADISON'S CHILD! I couldn't support her because …because I didn't know about the whole thing."

Delia's jaw dropped and she couldn't help but looked Ephram deeply into his eyes.

Oh god, my brother a dad? That means that he and Madison had….. Ewwwww…please let me not thing about this…Never again...

"You. You are a father? I mean the father of the baby of Madison?"

"Yes I am. Weird huh?" "Just a little bit. Why don't you support her now?" "Madison and I don't talk because I messed it up. I overreacted about the fact that she did not want the baby to have a terrible life so she put him up for adoption."

Ephram's sister couldn't speak for a while then she started shouting. "SHE GAVE YOUR CHILD AWAY WITHOUT TELLING YOU? IS SHE CRAZY? THE POOR LITTLE BABY! I THOUGHT SHE IS A GOOD PERSON AND HAS A HEART! BUT MOST OF ALL I THOUGHT SHE WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU! I SO HATE HER!"

"NO! Delia, you shouldn't hate her. I hated her for what she did to me but now I understand why she did it." Delia's eyes widened again. "Really? You don't sound so serious to me, Ephram! Was that the reason for escaping to Europe?" "I don't want to fight with you Delia. The fact is that Madison had no other choice!"

"That isn't true and YOU know it! She could have told you earlier or should at least have raised her child herself." Ephram looked at Delia with mixed feelings of hurt and anger.

"And how should she have done this? She was alone, nobody helped her, I didn't know about it… and dad…." Abruptly he stopped speaking because his sister was so close… so close to discover the whole Story he couldn't cope with quite yet.

"What about dad? Just finish the sentence." Ephram looked to the ground and spoke. "He knew." "About Madison's pregnancy?"

"Yeah.She went to dad when she found out. Dad tried to pay her off but it didn't work .So he asked her to leave town so I couldn't bump into her. And that's what she did. Run away." Delia couldn't believe it.

How could dad do anything like this? I thought he liked Madison.

"What? Dad made her leave town?!" Before Ephram could respond to that his father stormed into the kitchen. "Ephram and Delia what is that all about?" Ephram eyed his sister and came up with an excuse. "Well, we had an argument, that's it. Right, Dee?"

She shook her head then stared at her father.

"Bullshit! Dad why did she have to go away?" "Who? What do you mean, sweet...?" "I talk about Madison! You tried to pay her off!" Andy looked at Ephram in blank horror. "Ephram, what have you done?" "I …I just told her. I promised this to her."

"This is great. Now she hates me and probably Madison, too."

Delia watched her dad with disgust. "No, I just hate you right now!"

With these words she left the kitchen and ran away.

"Wonderful. Good job, Ephram."

Me? I am the one to blame? That's so typical for him! Why is it always my fault?

"You told me I should talk with my sister."

"But not about things she had nothing to do with!" Ephram looked at his dad sternly. "She had every right to know about it. She is a member of the Brown family." "Yes but…" "There is no but. And if you don't mind I go and practise the piano."

He was about to leave the kitchen but his father stopped him.

"Ephram, you know that you can tell me everything. So if there is something wrong talk about it." "Dad, could you stop it? There is nothing wrong. Really, I'm fine!" "I don't believe you. You act very strange since you talked about him, you know?!" Ephram let out a deep groan. Great!!! Now he knows it. How could I actually think I would be able to hide it from him?

"Is there anything wrong when I think of my child and worry about how he will make it through life?" "No, actually no. But why now?"

"I thought about him the last week, you know the thing with Kyle and his dad let me realize what I lost of my life by losing my own son, I thought about him the day after I met Madison, on the trip to Europe. I always think about him, dad! Every single minute."

Andy patted his son's shoulder but Ephram pulled away.

"I…I have to practise."

Andy nodded and searched for Delia.

"Delia are you in the house?" No answer. Dr Brown opened the front door and saw his daughter sitting on the porch swing.

"Delia can I talk to you?" "No! Go away, I hate you!"

Andy took a seat beside her. "Look, I know you must be really angry with me but I realized my mistake a long time ago and Ephram…he forgave me. He understands my intentions now."

"Dad you hurt Madison just so Ephram will be protected from being hurt. But it didn't work, right?" "Right." "In the end you hurt both, badly hurt them. Do you think Ephram will live a normal life again? When he knows that his son is somewhere? There will always be a part / something that is missing in his life. It's that baby from Madison." Andy looked at his daughter, shocked.

"Ephram's fine, Delia. He is just confused about Amy." Why do I say this? I know it is not the truth.

"No! There must be something else, dad. Don't you see that sad look on his face? Something is bothering him!" "Delia, of course, I see that but I can't do anything about it right now."

"Humph…because you do not want to. Would you like Ephram to leave us again?" "That was last time. It's different now!"

Andy's daughter shook her head and searched for her brother inside the house.

"Ephram? Where are you?" His voice sounded really tired as he answered her. "I'm in the living room, Delia."

She went to him and grabbed his hand. "Come on, I wanna talk to you." "My god, you can say what you wanna say right here."

"No I can't. I don't want dad to hear this."

Ephram looked up in excitement. "Oh ok. We can go to my room if you want to." "Yeah, that sounds great. Let's go."

Delia pushed her brother upstairs quickly. Then she looked his bed room door.

What do you guys think about my story? You liked it? Please review me

Oh and Madison will appear, I just eed some time

See you next time, yours PattyPotter91