The instant the bitter juice hits the back of my throat, I know there is something wrong.
And I'm too late to fix it.
I've always been a problem solver, working out solutions easily just by looking over the situation and knowing that I'm a survivor.
So what can I do now? Even in the Hunger Games, I've been a survivor. All my life, I've been a survivor.
I could spit it back out now, there might still be time. But I feel the berry juice trickling down my dry throat, and I know that I need to accept the thing that, until this moment, I have never had to.
I am not going to survive this.
I have always survived, even while I was watching my world fall down around me, while my friends and family were dropping dead every minute, and the remaining people, including me, were left with terrible conditions. While I had been surviving so long in the Hunger Games, I somehow convinced myself that I was going to be the one that lived through everything, that the deaths all around me were there to make an impact on me, for me to change who I was so that I could finish my story successful, having made some difference in the world.
I was too optimistic.
I swallow hard, pushing the berries down and erasing all doubt from my own mind that I will not be dead within the next minute.
The juice hits my stomach, and instantly clears my mind. And as I watch the fog close over my eyes, my hands falling limp by my sides as I leave this body behind, I know that now, in the last few seconds of my life, I am finally seeing the truth, and suddenly, everything is clear.
No, I didn't die successful.
But maybe I have a reason to be optimistic.
Out of everyone I have ever seen, known or heard of, maybe my story is the only one that ends happily.
