Kaeru sat diligently over his laptop, typing words into his Evernote account. It had been a long time, but he felt obligated to write this. He'd changed the password, but he knew he'd upload this to eventually. How could he not? It was about her. His Grace. The one who'd first opened his eyes. Of course she'd left, but he needed this therapy. It felt like years since he'd actually written anything for the girl. He was afraid, too. If she saw it, what would she think? Would she hate him even more? Would she ignore it? Would she talk to him again? His heart still throbbed every time he thought of her, but he knew that for his own health he had to move on.

Yuki, his current girlfriend, leaned over his shoulder, looking at the words. There was an uneasy silence as Kaeru wondered what she thought of him writing about one of his exes. Finally, she spoke.

"She meant a lot, didn't she?" Yuki asked. All he could do was nod. She'd been the world to him. And only she'd know it was for her. His Grace. It had been so long since he'd called her that. "I want to hear it out loud." Kaeru nodded, and began reading.

"The black fox wrote silently in the night. This was the one chance he could write to Siri before she was gone for good. Christian Vulpine was unsure, though. She hated him. Last he saw of her, she wanted nothing to do with him. He felt bad. Their adventures were incomplete, and he knew this. He allowed time to pass before he decided to rekindle a small spark of friendship again. He'd grown into someone else. His eyes had been opened even more since they'd separated.

"His pen wrote furiously. It wasn't a love poem, but it spoke his mind clearly.

'Time

It has been a while, my friend

Though I suppose we're at an end

You opened my eyes, even slight

But with that, I made right

I don't suppose you'll forgive me now

Not until I have been proven

As a man of another vow

And changed how fate is woven

I work hard every day

But I'm not quite sure why

Well, that was once the case

I want to reach to the sky

You were once my love, it's true

I grew a bit accustomed

Something happened out of the blue

And began the spiral down, thus

I yearn to hear your voice

If only to say you hate me

I say all of this by choice

It's actually a dream

Your silence tears me worse

Than anything I'd ever felt

Something broken inside

Like the rhyme scheme of this stanza

I admit, I was harsh

It was passion that drove

Such emotion to probe

You had once been my globe

And now nothing I own

I must live all alone

Without a voice to comfort

My restless soul

This is the end

Of my writing this poem

And story, I say

I hope you see

That once was me

Is now in the past

I am something that lasts

On my own, all alone

With the pain on my back

Of all people I meet

I take it on me

I'll take it to death

I know who I am

Why I'm here

To serve

To love

But I can't make a start

No, not without you

So I beg of you, ask

With all I am, I plea

Please forgive me'"

With a heavy sigh, Kaeru sat in his chair. He looked at his work and he gave it a glare. He had nothing to lose, so what held him back? He was afraid, of course, of her brutal attack. His doubts would cloud his mind as he posted the words he had written. Time to wait and to watch. He again sighed. It was done.

I know this doesnt really count as a fanfiction, but I did my best. I'm really going through some emotional stress and I needed toput this where she could see it. I don't know if she will, but I really want her to. I won't name her, because I don't want her getting unwanted negative attention. What happened was my fault and this is my apology. Thanks for reading.