I would rather die
Than see you smile, and see you lie
To me, because it hurts
And you won't stop.
You tell me that you don't cheat
You said you went out for a bite to eat
Last night, but you didn't come back
Before the clock struck midnight.
Your goggles hung around your neck
Your hair a mess, and you pulled out a deck
Of cards and shuffled them. I heard you whisper,
"Do I tell him? Do I not?"
What are you hiding from me, Matt?
Oh, I know. Is it that
You're cheating on me with somebody else,
Because I'm not good enough anymore?
You're out all night, and in the day
You don't bother to stay
At home and instead go out.
So I never see you anymore.
I don't know what it is that you do
In the day, the night, and I guess that you
Found love somewhere else. And that's okay.
Just don't lie to me.
So I guess that's it; I guess it's true
This is me breaking up with you.
You lied to me, and I can't accept that.
Good-bye, Matt. Have a good life.
Two months later, Matt died of cancer. The late nights, the absences during the day, were Matt's treatments for cancer, his chemotherapy. Two days after he heard the news, Mello committed suicide by pumping his body full of lead.