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Senseless rambling.

I give up. If things don't start working out for me, then I may have to resort to something dramatic. I thought that once I found out what everyone was hiding from me, that everything would be easier. It is not easier. If anything everything seems to be much harder now. I know Hiei knows the answer to my questions, but if he will not admit to being my brother why should I tell him anything.
I think it is not fair. I have searched far too long and over vast amounts of land to find Hiei. If the secret everyone is hiding from me is that Hiei is my brother then I can just laugh at them. Nobody I have seen in a long time has eyes like mine. Personally I think the secret is that something is going on between Hiei and Kurama.
I wish that someone would just confess what the secret is. Maybe I should tell Hiei to stop looking for me as to the fact that I found him on my own. I hope that nothing will hurt him when I tell Hiei that I am going to marry Kazuma. Maybe that will get Hiei to confess. More than likely he will not. I can wait until Hiei is ready to tell me himself.
I wonder how everyone has been capable of keeping this secret. Someday I will ask them. Oh look I found the perfect present for Hiei. It is a card that says Happy Birthday, Dear Brother.
Gave the card to Hiei and he broke down and finally told me. He actually asked me if I was mad at him. I told him no and to go over to Kurama. Hiei went over to Kurama and they had a passionate kiss. I went over and told Kurama to take care of my brother for me.