" Get you final bag packed yet?" My twin brother's voice comes from my now opened door as I slowly fold my clothes in neat piles on the bed. My eyes concentrated on the fabric in my hands, soothing down any wrinkles I saw before folding it another time, sometimes I even unfolded the article because it didn't look right the first time. I contained my tears as I placed yet another dress into my very last bag that I was to packing up for our big move across the world.
Only one thought swam around my head, nothing that had to do with fashion or if I would forget something that I just had to bring with me. SHE was the only thing that's been trapped in my mind for the past few months, it came to my mind at the time my parents said that it was once again time to move:
What if she came back and we weren't here?
Though I wasn't the only one who had the question embedded in my brain, Emmett was the one who voiced it before I could even process what my father had announced that day. He had kept it hidden from me and from Edward as well, after they found out our abilities, our parents as well as the Hale parents were quick to work on hiding and choosing their thoughts very carefully.
" No." I spoke softly as I picked up a shirt.. her shirt. I rub the fabric between my fingers, looking at the graphic on the front of it, remembering a memory of her wearing this shirt.
' I'm Batman ' I can hear her voice ring out in my thoughts as I grip the clothing in my hands, wishing to feel salty tracks slip down my face so it would get rid of this painful feeling behind my eyes but I had cried out all the tears I could in these last few years. The pain in my chest throbs with every thought of my soul mate.
Edward had his arms around me in no time as memories of Bella fell out of it's once locked tomb that I had been building for almost five years.
" I can't... Ed, what if she comes back for us? We won't be here and she won't know where to find us. I can't leave... not without her!" I sob, my brother hugs me tighter before kissing my head and rocking our bodies back and forth.
" She'll find us, or we'll find her. Don't give up so easily Ali." He pats my knee as he slows his swaying once I calm down. " I'll do everything I can to get her back to you, Alice. It's gonna be okay." with a final kiss to my cheek, Edward stands then walks to my opened doorway. He looks back at me then exits my room completely, shutting my door behind him.
Looking back at the shirt that had broken the dam, I think about throwing it in my 'give away' box or my suitcase. I let the fabric form over my fingers as I closed my eyes, Bella's face had remained burned into my mind and soul even after all of these years. Her smile... those eyes I longed to feel on me when she thought I wasn't paying attention. My mind was almost forbidding me to forget her... I didn't want to but the pain I felt when I longed for her and my memories of her made the pain in my chest flair.
How could I move away from the only thing that I had left of her?
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Rose wanted me to sleep, but how could I? How could I leave tomorrow, away from the only place that I knew where my little sister could find me? I'd already hurt her once, I can't do it again but here I am about to go onto a plane and leave the country for who knows how long and I couldn't change anyone's mind about it, how could I? They've been doing this for a hell of a lot longer than I have even been alive. Alice was the only one who agreed with me but it could risk the whole family if we stayed any longer and what the parents say, goes.
With a soft sigh I carefully get out of my bed so I don't wake my beautiful wife whose stayed by my side for all of this, these five long years that have made me tired, angry, lost, confused... scared. Where was Bella? Was she okay, is she in trouble?
…...
Is she alive?
I take a deep breath before letting it out as I sit in an office chair beside our bedroom window, my elbows on my knees and face in my hands. Pleading for my emotions to die down. Even after five years I didn't feel any better about my sister being alone God knows where; with strangers and no one around to tell her that she means something to them. That she's loved.
" No luck?" I look up to see Rosalie awake, sitting up on her elbows. I can faintly see her eyes on me as she waits for my reply. I shake my head no before looking out of the window wishing that Carlisle's old Mercedes would drive up the lot and Bella would just walk out of if and look up at me, smile her smile with her glasses covering half of her face, and just wave at me like the last five years had never happened...
" What if just stayed here for a little while longer?" I say with tear-filled eyes, my voice turned raspy as a lump formed in my throat. In no time, Rose wraps her arms around my neck from behind me then kisses the top of my head. My hands found hers quickly, trying to seek out whatever strength I could get from her.
" IF she really wants to find us, she'll track us down. We have no way of knowing where she is and we've tried, baby. It's up to her now." She turns me around from the window to look into my eyes before she continues." But we can't stay here any longer and I don't want to start another fight about it again. Your family needs you, we need to stay together. That means all of us getting on that plane and heading to England. I don't want to be away from you for any length of time and you can't leave Liv." Olivia was the newest member of the family and she did need me... she needed everyone in our group and I needed her. She also reminded me of Bella. I close my eyes making tears fall down my face before taking in another breath.
" You're right, I'm sorry... I just- I miss her Rose. Everyday without her is like having my childhood spring back into my mind and seeing her there but when I open my eyes... she's gone." My wife sits down in my lap, her arms still in their same position as she pulls herself closer to me, her lips touch mine softly then moves away to look me in the eyes.
" You'll see her again, sooner or later. I promise Emmett. And so will Alice, they will be together again."
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I'm still laying in my bed that I had yet to fall asleep on when my mom knocks on my door to make sure I'm getting ready for our big move. It doesn't take me long to get dressed, deciding on comfortable clothes instead of anything flashy. These days, I don't really try to look my best, why should I? The only person I want to impress has been gone for five years...
' Being away form your soul mate after the blood ceremony is done, is painful and lonely. I just want you to be prepared for what you'll be feeling until Bella comes back. It's going to feel like a heavy and painful hole in your chest, nothing will fill it until she returns...'
My dad wasn't lying when he told me that, the first few days weren't too bad but as they turned into weeks then months.. soon I wasn't doing much of anything, never leaving my room, not eating or sleeping. I wonder if it's the same for her?
It seemed like no time when we're all packing up our cars. I still lived with my parents, Edward had moved into an apartment with Jasper and Emmett decided to get a place after Charlie's funeral. The Swan house is still empty, it was already paid off so Emmett decided to shut off all of the utilities and hasn't touched it since.
I get into the back of the rented car my parents got for the trip to the airport, neither of them said a word to me, knowing that I really wasn't in the mood for chatting even though with this life, moving from place to place was always my favorite part of the whole thing. But today it just left me with a feeling of betrayal, like I was betraying Bella as the car moved further down the parking lot and onto the road; the farther it got, the more tears fell down my face until everything blurred together. I kept my crying silent with thoughts of my parents hating to see and hear me so upset since there was absolutely nothing they could do. This was something I would have to fight myself and make better. Which didn't seem to be happening anytime soon.
I finally got the tears to stop when we reached the airport, we met up with the others, looking over at Emmett, he almost looked as bad as I did. We got through all of the checkpoints and were soon placed on our flight. I sat alone, away from my family which brought back the feelings of my loneliness. I take a deep breath to send the tears away then decide to put my earbuds in and listen to some music as I shut my eyes and wait for this flight to end.
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Superman- Five for fighting
Chances- Five for fighting