That is a oneshot that's been bugging me and so it had to be written. It gives a darker view on the relationship between Hinata and Naruto on his part, because as I see it, being deprived from love, he won't know what it truly feels like and how to act on it... Also i like darker Naruto, so this oneshot explores themes of obsession and possessiveness, so be warned. Depending on feedback I might actually turn it into a full story, albeit a dark one.
Oh.. I own nothing but the concept.
Why is it that every time you are desperate, sad and broken you go running back to her arms..? What is this quality of hers that makes your sun rising up whenever it goes down..?
What is it that she has that doesn't break you and instead, it seems to be pulling you back together..? Why is it only near her that burning ache in your chest subsides until it becomes nothing but a mere memory..?
Surely you do not love her.
You have asked and tested yourself over and over, hoping that this was the answer to these burning questions deep in your mind, yet your hearts stubbornly refuses her. It is not love, for you have felt that emotion, burning you and nearly damn destroying you and so you know that whatever the heck it is you feel for her is not a romantic love, for her mere face does not burn your body and makes your blood rage in your veins and your tongue doesn't caress each vowel of her name as if it was her body instead. Not that she is not beautiful, of course she is, half the male population of Konoha would be all too glad to confirm. It's just that you cannot bring yourself to think of her in such a beastly way because to you she is too pure and should not even be looked at in such a filthy way. You do not lust for her, no. Neither do you desire her. Yet you cannot stand even the thought of some other, unworthy male touching her.
But what's even worse, you cannot stand the thought of her forgetting about you. Of her giving her love to another, that love you and you alone bask in.
Perhaps that is why you are so possessive of her. She was after all the very first to openly declare her love you, her utter devotion and admiration. You alone are the center of her world, while she is just one more of your friends. But she was the very first to gaze upon you and only you and you don't think you are ready to give that up. So you have realized that you are selfish and that probably this selfishness of yours is breaking her apart, but you just can't bring yourself to care, because in a twisted way you are taking it out on her. You do not really believe you deserve it, or that what she offers is real, so you want to punish her, hurt her to see if she can stand it, if she is strong enough to accept it and willing enough to take it.
You enjoy pushing her buttons, giving her hopes that will never come true, because it was done to you and you want revenge and she is the only one who cares enough to let you have it. Everyone called you a monster and she called you a savior. Now you are everyone's savior and her very own monster.
There are however those rare moments when you can't stand the feeling of making her cry and you regret and you want to stop it. You remember the pain she has been through and you cry at nights because you just keep hurting her more and more. And then morning comes and you run into her arms wanting her to hold you close to her heart and sing to you and adore you, while you keep talking for another woman that has your heart and how wonderful that other woman is.
Maybe it's because you fear that she will leave you. After all everyone that you truly loved left you, with Sasuke being the very top of it. So maybe, unconsciously you don't love her because you know she'll leave and you want her all to yourself, all her love and care and adoration that the world denied you. In exchange you will keep giving her fake hopes and then crashing them more and more to make sure she'll stay, crippling her wings so she'll never fly away from you, because after all this is not love and she cannot make you happy and surely you do not wish to make her happy. And of course, if someone were to leave it would be you, since essentially you don't really need her, and once your true and one love comes to you as she must, the raven haired lady you posses will become dust in the back of your mind. But God help the one who tries to take what's yours. You have shared enough and perhaps you can share more, everything perhaps if needed, except from her. She will always belong to you. You'll make sure, destroying anyone who comes even near her. Only when you will be with your love you might let her go, but not before that, not even a moment before that and surely not to some other unworthy bastard. She deserves only you but she won't have you, although you can have her all you want to yourself.
And that's what you tell yourself each day, never being moved by anything that she does for you, or so you claim. But when she starts singing lullabies to Kiba and smiling softly to Shino, when the hug she now seeks is that of Ino's and the comfort your fake promises used to provide is now being offered by a dark haired man who used to be your best friend, you start to worry, because it seems that without you noticing she drifts away from you. Deep down, for all your thick headedness and self imprinted illusions you have forged, you start to realize.. She is not the needy one in this relationship. And then, slowly, it's coming to your understanding that you are so desperately depended on her that honestly... should she leave you first you just don't know what will happen. In the end no matter what you say, should she leave you you'll burn everything and everyone in your path to get her back. And once she becomes yours again you'll stop at nothing to make sure she'll stay and you'll even break her legs if you must. And that is what you experience under the grip of the absolute terror losing her evokes in you. And when you tremble at the notion that she'll soon forget you, you come to the conclusion that she's not yours but you are hers and should she ask something you'll move heaven and earth, still no matter what.. You'll never ever ever let her go. Not even if Sakura comes to you, or if Hinata loves another.
Hinata will never escape you.
At that you smile and you thoroughly...
Believe it.
Sooo... hate it..? Love it..?
Do tell.