Author's Note: My very first House fic, so all opinions will be appreciated. It's just a little one shot, from Thirteen's point of view. I think you can all figure out who she's talking about!

It is just a short one because I haven't written anything in a while, so I'm trying to get back in the swing of things [:

Oh, and my friend told me that the ending sucked. I kept it like that anyway, because I liked it. If you don't, then my friend will be very happy to know that he's right.

I know that it's completely inappropriate. If House were to find out, he'd think it was all down to self-destruction. Be convinced I'm going back to the old me, and slyly check my arms when he thought I wasn't looking.

Then again, I'd never tell House. I don't plan on telling anyone. That would be insane, because... well because it really is completely inappropriate.

I don't think this is self-destruction. It can't possibly be because I have no intention of acting on it. In order for it to be self-destructive, it would have to be something I'm in control of, and I'm not in control of who I'm attracted to. Am I?

No, no, don't be stupid Remy, of course you're not in control of who you're attracted to. You learnt that a long time ago. But there's being attracted to other women, and then there's being attracted to this particular woman.

But who isn't attracted to her? Seriously? There's just something about her that draws me in. I'd like to think I'm not shallow and it really is something more than those boobs. Although, she said herself that they're her best feature. Or one of... who the hell remembers? There's that smile too. That incredible, broad smile. I haven't seen it often, but I like it, I know that much. Not to forget the eyes, those piercing blue eyes. She really does have the death glare down to a tee.

Sure, she's smart, and I actually kind of like her. I admire her, that's for sure. But the initial attraction is always physical. And it doesn't go away easily.

Sometimes I just want to say it. Just want to ask Taub if he understands. I never could. If I say something to Taub, he says something to Foreman, or House. House finds out, he tells her. He tells her, it gets awkward. House makes smutty comments. I know that. Obviously, that's the path this would take.

I've wanted to tell her too. Like last week, it was nothing but it sparked something in me. I walked in to the building, we had the most simple conversation. Just a polite 'how are you?' kind of conversation. The kind that lasts a few minutes and ends in a strange way, where neither of you have anything left to say, and yet the conversation doesn't really end. There's a moment or two where you just look at each other. In that moment, I felt a little bit... I don't know, a little bit weird. Something happened to me. I'm convinced I giggled like a schoolgirl, and I'm paranoid that I actually blushed. Later that day I just wanted to walk into her office and tell her how I feel.

But what would I say? I don't know if I have actual feelings for her, or it's just a crush. Neither one sounds particularly cool.

Then there's the small factor of her being straight. Honestly, that's a pretty big glitch in my seduction plans. Although that's never stopped me before.

A/N: I'd very much appreciate reviews? Thank you in advance!