Hello my fellow readers it's me, AnimeGirl back with my second story, yay! I would like to thank one of my close friends, Rainbow shipper for helping me come up with the name for this fic. I know that this storyline has sorta been used a lot, but I love all the angst and hurt/comfort that comes with it so here it is, my second story! Disclaimer: I AnimeGirl do not own Fruits Basket or any of it's characters.

CH.1

HARU'S POV

There is something wrong with him, with Yuki. He's being distant, more distant than usual and when I look into his purple eyes all I see is sadness. No one has noticed, not even Tohru, just me. Yuki was my first love, and still is; I'm in love with Yuki Sohma. I find his purple eyes hypnotizing, his pale skin beautiful, like that of what I'd imagine an angel to look like, his greyish hair hanging just right around his perfect face, and his fragile body almost impossible to resist. Maybe that's why it hurts me to see him in so much pain. I want nothing more than to wrap my arms around him and take away all his pain, all his fears, all his problems. Of course I would never say all that out loud.

Today I'm going over to Shigure's to see Yuki. Shigure is hiding from his editor in some unknown area, Tohru is going out with Hana and Uo, and Kyo…well he's never there anyways, so I plan on finding out what's wrong with Yuki.

I pull myself from my thoughts as best as I can and hop on my motorcycle, heading towards Shigure's. my mind still swirls with thoughts of what could be wrong with Yuki, no matter how hard I try not to think of it, as I speed down towards Shigure's. I hope this goes well.

YUKI'S POV

"No! Please, don't!" I whimper into the darkness at the monster of a person who seems to love hurting me. He smirks sadistically as he rams into me roughly. I would cry or scream but that just encourages him. I would try to wriggle free but he'll hit me if I try to run. He continues to hammer into me until I'm bleeding and even then he doesn't stop. He's still shoving into me as I lie there helpless, still whispering in my ear how worthless, how disgusting I am. I lose control and start to cry when he smacks me. He finishes and pulls away from me, leaving me to curl into a ball and cry. He stops in the doorway, still smirking maniacally, and says six words that crush my soul and tear to pieces my already shattered heart.

"No one will ever love you…"

I bolt upright from the couch, which I had fallen asleep on. For a minute my eyes flick around the room, making sure it was truly only a dream. More like a memory….Akito, he has always been a source of great pain for me. He beat me when I was younger and lately he's been calling for me more often and doing…..more than just beating me.

"No one will ever love you…" the words come back to me and I put my elbows on my knees and my face in my hands. He's right. No one will ever love something as disgusting and worthless as me. Why would anyone want me after what Akito has done to me? 'Haru' the name flashes through my mind. Haru is perfect. Sometimes I find myself getting lost in his grey eyes, find myself wanting to play with his two toned hair, and I find myself wanting to lean against his toned body and feel his strong arms wrapped around me. I love him but Haru, perfect Haru, would never love worthless, helpless me.

I sat there with a bittersweet smile gracing my face until the doorbell rung snapping me out of my self-pity. Sighing, I got up to answer it. Seeing who was at the door, I almost died of heartache.

"Hey." Haru said. I love Haru and I love spending time with him, but it hurts because I know he couldn't ever love me.

"Hey. Um what are you doing here? That stupid cat isn't here if you came to fight him." Haru just gave me a weird look and then stepped into the house.

"I came to see you." He stated as if I should have expected it. It surprised me beyond belief, my eyes widening and my mouth opening in a small 'O'.

"Why?" I asked, receiving a serious look from Haru.

"I'm worried about you." He said as if it were normal. Too surprised for words, I shut the door and sat back down on the couch, he did the same, sitting next to me.

"There's nothing wrong with me; there's nothing for you to be worried about." I lied through my teeth, not looking at him. He couldn't have actually noticed that I've been acting different lately, could he? I heard an aggravated sigh and looked over to him.

"Don't lie to me, Yuki. I can tell something is wrong, I can read you like the back of my hand." He growled angrily and I looked down in shame. 'It's not that I don't want to tell you, Haru. I just can't tell you…." That's what I wanted to say.

"Yuki, I just want to help you….." he said, his voice softer and less angry. I can't tell him, I can't tell him, I can't tell him! I was starting panic on the inside when suddenly the door opened and Shigure walked in.

"Welcome home Shigure." I smiled as I got off the couch, thankful for the interruption. At least I was thankful…..

"Thanks Yuki, oh and Akito wants to see you. He said he'd send a car." I stiffened and my eyes widened in fear, that, luckily, Haru couldn't see. Why?! I don't want to see Akito! I can't handle any more stress right now! I was unnerved and extremely anxious but I refused to let it show. Shigure gave me a sympathetic look because he knows what will happen once I get there. Shigure and Hatori are the only people who know about what Akito does to me, though they've never tried to stop him or even just comfort me afterwards. Not that they can anyways, Akito is the head of the family. To put it simply, if you cross him, you're in for a world of shit. I, however, am the only one unlucky enough to have to do deal with his mental and physical abuse on a regular basis. Plus I'm the only one he….. I can't even say it. I was about to start bawling right there but then I remembered Haru sitting on the couch behind me.

"Okay, did he say when?" I asked, trying to keep my voice from cracking. Shigure gave me another sympathetic look before answering.

"No, all he said was that he'd send a car." I nodded and turned back around, walking back over to Haru who had heard the entire conversation. Hopefully he didn't see me stiffen.

"I have to go see Akito, so you need to leave." Saying his name out loud made me sick. Haru studied me for a second before standing up.

"Okay." He walked closer until he was standing right beside me. "Tell me if you need anything okay?" he whispered and looked into my eyes to which I nodded, then he left.

I walk upstairs to my room and grabbed my school uniform since Akito had been leaving me in that room until morning. Then I sat on my bed, my knees pulled against my chest and my face buried in my knees, and wept. Why do I have to be Akito's target? I sat in that position, crying until I heard Shigure call from downstairs

"Yuki! The car is here!" he shouted. Taking deep breaths, I walked downstairs. Shigure was standing by the doorway and when I got to the door he pulled me into a hug, which I took gratefully.

"I'm so sorry…." He whispered as he pulled away. I merely smiled desolately at him.

"It's not your fault." And then I left. I slipped into the car Akito sent for me, trying not to panic.

The car pulled to a stop in front of the Sohma estate. I stepped out and took a deep breath before walking into the building. As soon as I walked in I saw Akito waiting for me. Before I could stop myself, my eyes widened in fear. Akito smirked at this, loving how scared he made me, how much power he had over me. He walked up to me and put a hand on my cheek.

"Hello Yuki." He said, "You look frightened. Do I scare you Yuki? Are you afraid of me?" When I closed my eyes and gulped he laughed. He moved closer to me, is mouth right next to my ear.

"Good." He whispered and smacked me across the face with such force, it sent me to the floor, groaning in pain. Akito grabbed my hair and started pulling me towards 'my room'. We reached the room and he threw me down on the hard wood floor. I sat up just in time to see him coming at me with rope in his hands. He smiled that psychotic smile of his at me and bound my wrists behind my back, before pulling out a whip. I stared at him, my eyes wide in terror.

Akito said nothing, only reached forward and tore my shirt off. Then he pulled me to my feet, pulled my bound wrists above my head, and pushed me into the wall, my back facing him. He cracked the whip down across my back but only hard enough to make it red and definitely not enough to make me scream. The second whip however felt more like a knife to my back, and I could feel blood running down my skin as I screamed in pain.

"AHHHH!" I heard Akito chuckle behind me as I screamed. Why? Why does he enjoy hurting me?

"What's wrong Yuki? Does it hurt?" he taunted me. Crack! Another whip, another stream of blood, and another pained scream.

"It hurts doesn't it?" Crack, crack! Two more whips, two more streams of blood, and two more screams. I laid my forehead against the cold wall as I cried. The pain was too much this time, I couldn't stop myself from crying and screaming in agony. Akito came up behind me, and touched the four deep gashes in my back.

"Too bad no one cares enough to save you." Akito said in a monotone voice, his words cutting into me deeper than the whip did. He spun me around, slamming my back against the wall. I didn't even have enough time to grunt in pain, for in the next second his mouth was on mine, kissing me. Hard. So hard that he cut my bottom lip with his teeth. Shivers began to course through my body because I knew what was coming to me next. For the second time, Akito grabbed me by my, now disheveled, grey hair and slammed me to the ground.

He stripped me of my clothes, slipped out of his robe (A/N: I'm sorry I have no clue what they call it! Anyone know?) and climbed on top of me. All I could do was lie there, unable to push him away, sobbing.

"Please Akito! Please do-" my words were cut off by a punch to the face , busting my already cut lip wide open.

"Shut up!" He yelled angrily as he thrust into me, completely dry, without any preparation.

"AHHHHHHH!" I screamed in pain. His nails dug into my hips as he thrust into me mercilessly. I knew crying would only encourage him to hurt me even more but I couldn't help it, I was crying harder than I'd ever cried in my entire life.

"Pl-please s-stop! It h-hurts!" I begged. Akito only smirked and thrust harder, and faster. He moved his mouth to my ear as he continued thrusting.

"Poor defenseless Yuki, helpless Yuki." He hissed. "No one wi-"

"Someone will l-l-love and w-want me! Your wr-wrong! I'm not worthless or d-disgusting!" I yelled cutting him off. Angered, he dug his nails harder into my hips, drawing blood

"Do you really think anyone will want your scarred body after I've stolen your innocence? If they don't want you, how can they love you? If your life actually had meaning I wouldn't be doing this to you, Shigure and Hatori wouldn't let me do this to you. You've been violated, beat; how is that not disgusting?" Akito seethed and I cried harder. He was right, everything he said was absolutely, a hundred percent right. Akito thrust one last time before filling me with his seed. He pulled out, untied my wrists, and slipped his kimono back over his shoulders.

"No one will ever want you or love you. You repulsive, meaningless vermin." And then he left me to curl into a tight ball in the corner of the room and cry. This time he'd left me in an extremely poor condition. My lip was busted open, I had four deep gashes across my back, my wrists were rope burned, and it felt like someone took a knife to my insides.

The door opened causing me to quiver and press myself farther into the corner, thinking it was Akito back to hurt me even more.

"P-please don't h-hurt m-m-me..." I pleaded. A hand was placed gently on my shoulder, letting me know it obviously wasn't Akito. I looked up to see Hatori, his long bangs just barely covering up the guilty expression on his usually stoic face. Slowly he pulled me to his chest, one arm wrapped tenderly around my back, the other stroking my disheveled greyish hair as I sobbed into his chest. He took off his lab coat and put it around my shoulders before picking me up and bringing me to his office where he cleaned me up. Afterwards he laid me on the couch in his office, sitting on the edge himself.

"I'm so sorry Yuki." He whispered looking down. I was still too paralyzed with fear to answer so I stayed silent and after a minute I started to drift off to sleep.

"You're not worthless or repulsive. You're not vermin. Someone will love you Yuki, I promise." That was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep, engulfed by nightmares.

Just kill me now! I'm so sorry, people, for being such a terrible person and writing this T^T. Don't worry though, everything gets better…eventually….