This is the first of four one-shots. Tell me what you think!
Ciao,
heartforthehopeless
You can't live without her. She's not made for you. You aren't safe. You shouldn't hold her, but you do. "Just one more time," you tell yourself. You hurt her when you try to save her. You look at her and she has tears in her eyes. You wish you could cry for her. There are so many things you wish you could do for her. It hurts that she cries because of you. You hope that she can forgive you. She's perfect. She should hate you but she loves you. She wants you. You want her. You know that it's not that easy. You are cold. She's warm. Your heart has been still for a century. Hers beats steadily. You belong in the deepest trenches of hell. She belongs in the purest part of heaven. You should leave but you stay. You're one of the living undead. She's very alive, no matter how hard it is to keep her that way. She thinks it doesn't matter. She wants to die. You want her to look you straight in the eye and tell you to leave her. You know it would be for the best. The greater half of you, though, wants her. Wants her badly in more than one way. Wants to make love to her for the rest of eternity. Want her to say that she'll be with you forever. She already says that. She doesn't know what forever is. No human does. For her to know the full awful meaning, well, then she'd have to be condemned. You would have to be the one to do it. You would have to kill her. Damn her. Lose her and gain her. The flaws that are just so perfect would disappear, but she would be with you forever. You say that you will but you could never do it. You search blindly for excuses but you know the truth. You are selfish. You want her. You want her bad.