Chapter 1- heavens hell

EPOV

I had to see her, I had to make this right some how. How could I have been so stupid wasting so

much time that could have been with her? How many nights have spent dreaming of her? Hoping that god

(If there is one) would give me one chance with her, and when I finally got it I blew it. I mean she told me

she loved me and panicked (typical guy thing). But I wasn't a typical guy I did love her, I do love her. I can

just hope that it's not too late to say I'm sorry.

I walked up to the door and knocked "Bella…Bella I know your there please let me in".

Her truck was still here, but thankfully, her dad's was not. I could hear some movement in the house.

I sighed, "Bella, please I need to talk to you, just please" I could here her at the door know, I could here her

ragged breath, and feel the anger and hurt on her face. Normally my instincts would be to kill the son of a

bitch that did this to her, but as luck would have it I was the son of a bitch. Her voice floated through the

wood of the door and I could make out that she was or had been crying.

"What do want Edward?" she was sobbing now.

How could I do this to my angel? What possessed me to act that way? To cause her physical and emotional

pain. Just the thoughts made me want to die.

"I need to talk to you" was all I could get out I should just say it. End this suffering now but I couldn't.

"There's nothing to talk about Edward, please leave"

"No Bella I can't leave we need to talk, to talk about us"

"There is no us. You made that perfectly clear last night. Now please leave I don't feel well"

"Bella let me in please, either let me in, or ill get in on my own"

"Good luck with that I'm going back to bed, oh and if you do try to get in I will call for my dad and ask for

backup"

"Bella please" I needed to se her, No I needed her every fiber of my being ached for her. But I never got a

Response.

"Bella…Bella…BELLA" nothing. I went back to my car and drove off, only to park a few blocks down. I

walked back up to Bella's house from the back this time, I wanted to surprise her. When I got to the back

door I lifted up the welcome mat and got the spare key then snuck to the front door and slowly opened it.

The house was quit but I could hear water running upstairs. Bella. She must be in the shower. Great I'm in

but now what. I looked around this house had changed so much by Bella moving in with Charlie it looked

and felt like a home now. And then I saw it a purple lavender candle. Charlie had a boat load in the

basement from when Renée was here he would light one every so often. An just like that a plan formed in

my head because this was the day I would get Bella back and keep her forever mine.

BPOV

That inconsiderate jack ass, I loved him, still do but that's what he is a jackass.

The nerve to come here and try to talk to me that's it? After every thing, that's it. I was so mad I couldn't

think, see, or hear right. It felt like I was watching my body do the motions from somewhere above. Ha my

first out of body experience and it caused by that jackass. I went to the bathroom and started running the

water for a nice hot bath. Normally I would just take a shower but today was not normal so neighther would

my routine. I went back in my room and got the things I would need, when I got back to the bathroom the

water was done so I turned it off. I removed my clothes and got in the moment I sat in the water every thing

went blank.

"OUCH. SHIT. …NO FUCK. OH SHIT" I snapped up in the tub. What the hell was that? I

got out quietly, I was dripping so much water. I put my robe on and grabbed the toilet plunger as a weapon.

I opened the bathroom door slowly and peeked out. The hall was empty but it sounded like it came from my

room. I tiptoed over to my door, cracked it open, and looked in.

"OH MY GOD… EDWARD WHAT ARE YOU DOING" I ran to him, the jackass caught on fire from a

candle. I grabbed a shirt and covered the small flame and put it out. I looked up at Edward a saw fire in his

eyes I had never seen before.

"Are you ok?" I asked panting

"Yea…. Thank you"

"No prob" but there was a problem why was he here, what was he doing.

"Sorry about your shirt Bella" he said pointing to the shirt I had used.

"The shirts not important why and what are you doing here Edward" I had to know this couldn't keep going at

this pace. It did no good.

"I …I…I need to go" he said moving around me and heading to the door. But I moved faster and blocked

his path.

"NO DAMITT. EXPLAIN…why are you Edward?" his face looked tortured and when he looked up to see

my crying he sighed and but his hand on my cheek and wiped my tears with his thumb.

"Please don't cry Bella…I'm not worth your tears"

"Why are you doing this to me… why cant you except that your what I want" I said still crying.

He dint say any thing he just hung his head. As his breathing became more rigid.

"Edward…Edward look at me" when he finally looked up he looked like he was in physical pain.

"Edward I love and if you don't love me in return…at least know that I do love you" I was crying harder

now. Edward stared at me for a moment. In addition, the thought of rejecting me again made heart beat skip several

times. Finally, he moved towards me and brought his face closer to mine. My heart skipped again but for

much happier reasons. He finally put his lips on mine and kissed me with so much passion my insides were

burning. He held my face in his hands as he deepened the kiss more. After what felt like hours of tongues

battling he pulled away and looked in my eyes. Then he gave me a peck on the lips and said the words I had

been dreaming he would one day say since the day I first saw him. With passion, lust, confusion,

and…love (um is that what love looks like).

"Bella… I love you so much" and he kissed me again this time I jumped up and wrapped my legs around

his waist and he held me up by my waist. The words that came out of my mouth next and the response I got

was a dream come true.

"Edward "

"yes Bella…anything"

"make yours, today, now, forever"

That was all it took because he walked us over to my bed and laid me down. Our lips never broke contact

until I removed, his shirt and he quickly found my lips again. He was hovering above me both of us letting out

animalistic moans (and this was just 1st base. Then I heard the voice that would kill the mood if ever there were one.

"ISABELLA MARIE SWAN CLOATHES ON NOW" my dad ordered as he rushed into the room and dragged

Edward out.