(AN) Ok, so I made a slight mishap on the first chapter while I was trying to fix some things, and that ended up with me deleting it all together. Fortunately, I remembered enough to try rewriting it. Unfortunately, I couldn't remember word for word. I hope this helps though. Sorry for anyone who was confused.

She forced her feet to move as fast as she could to her destination, and as she did a smile was painted across her face from ear to ear. All because of one person. She forced her five year old legs forward all to reach just one person.

The background around her was all nothing but blurs of color because nothing else mattered but the familiar back she saw. "Onii-chan!" She shrieked out with pure joy.

Her happiness only grew when the ten year old turned to look at her, and he gave her that familiar smile that never failed to make her heart leap. "Haruka." He said with a voice so gentle and kind.

With her face heating red, her smile growing wide, her purple eyes sparkling brightly, and her heart threatening to pound out of her chest, she happily jumped up into him. She knew he would catch her, and she knew his arms would feel warm. These arms of his were always her safe place. It was because he was her safe place.

He always felt warm and was always so gentle. She breathed in his scent of sunlight and mint, and she felt herself begin to calm. She felt his hair-that was always a little too long-tickle her face, and she could hear the steady rhythm of his own heart.

Everything about him made her feel like she was really home. When she was in his arms she felt the need to just stay in them forever. To just be with him forever. "I love you, Onii-chan!" She honestly cried with pure joy.

She felt absolutely happy to have this boy, the most wonderful person in the whole world, be her older brother.

Haruka snapped her eyes open from her dream, and she quickly tried to blink away the dizzy haze that always came from waking up. Light barely gleamed into the room, but it still felt so blinding.

She managed to pull herself up to sit up straight on her bed, and she tried to look around her room properly. It took a second or two, but memories of her dream began to flood back into her tired mind, and she felt her face immediately flush. Her brows furrowed as she stared down at her hands gripping tightly onto the sheets.

She hated dreams like those. Dreams plagued with childish memories that had yet to be tainted by what was reality. She hated reminiscing on her innocent years before she realized the truth of how disgusting her feelings were. '...I know why I had that dream.' She quietly thought in her head. 'It's because he's coming today…'

Frustration built up in her chest and she couldn't hold it all in. So, she quickly grabbed her pillow and chucked across the room to harshly hit the wall.

'Damn it!' She yelled in her head as she gave a look of pure frustration to were the pillow laid helplessly on the floor. 'Of course he'd finish getting his master's degree this early! Of course he had to be a fricken natural genius! Of course he'd decide to come spend time with his family before he tried for his doctoral! Of course he'd decide to come back!' She yelled in her head.

Eventually she found her knees drawn up to her face and her hands curled up into long black hair. She'd been trying for years to try keeping a wall between them. Once she found out how wrong her feelings were she tried to draw him away from her with rude and harsh behavior. When he moved for college she tried everything she could to keep herself from having to visit him, or to keep her out of the house when he came to visit. But now he was going to be living in the same house as her, and there was no way to hide from that.

Haruka just felt completely frustrated, angry, and helpless.

She was frustrated that all the work she went into trying to keep him out of her life was going all to nothing because he's just coming back into her life, bringing it back to square one. She was angry that he had to be a prodigy in almost everything he did, and that he managed to go beyond normal people and finishing school ridiculously early-at only 21. She was… helpless… because there was still a part of her that felt exponentially proud and happy… 'Even after everything… I'm still…'

For so long she has tried and tried and tried, but she still couldn't get rid of the fact that she was still-painfully-in love with him. And there's not a day that goes by where she doesn't hate herself for it.

. . . . . . . . . . . .

"Haru, you haven't finished eating?" Her mother said, worry in her tone, as she looked over at her only daughter.

Haruka was snapped out of her daydreaming and looked at her mother with a forced smile. "I'm just not really that hungry."

Her mother just sighed. "Both you and your brother I guess."

Haruka looked over at her fraternal twin and saw that he was half asleep as he absentmindedly stared down at his untouched breakfast. She knew he was tired because he was dragged into another gaming tournament by a certain blonde neighbor of theirs. He glanced up at the mention of him, but quickly just looked back down.

Haruka just looked back to her mother. "Oka-san, do we all really have to be there?" 'Can't I just barricade myself in my room?'

Her mother rolled her eyes at the question, but not in a rude way-her mother was never rude. "I know you're not on the best terms with your brother-for whatever reasons-but we all have to be there for him when he gets off that plane. That's what families for."

...Haruka loved her mother, and she knew she'd never mean to hurt her. However, words like 'brother' and 'family' just made the pain in her chest just grow.

Her mother didn't seemed to notice, and she left the room to go check on her husband.

Haruka just sighed as she leaned back onto her chair-tired from today already.

"Are you going to be ok, Haru?" Sasuke asked her.

She looked to him as he stared at her with questioning eyes. The only relief she could have was that she had someone who knew about her feelings, and still accepted her despite of it.

She forced on a tires smile as she gave a weak shrug. "We'll see."