A/N; Hi guys! My name is Cici, and it took me awhile to realize how much I adore the Elsanna ship. Inspired by many Elsanna fics, (rk9Elsa Is Suffering, Frozen Fractals, and many more!), I have decided to write my own multi-chapter story! I honestly hope you guys will enjoy the story that is going to be coming your way (: I am always open for constructive criticism, but please, don't hate! :c This is me writing to fulfil all of y(our) dirty little needs c; Looking at updating weekly/bi-weekly!
This story will contain violence, coarse language, and I am anticipating a couple adult themes(yes, lemons, trying to sound professional c;).
DISCLAIMER; The only thing that I own is this story & ideas.
Before, Anna dealt with her sister's neglect with hope and an unconditional love. She was patient and faithful to her sister, always waiting for her. When Elsa wasn't there for her, Anna always was. She thought things had changed after the incident with Hans, after she saved her sisters life. There was a short period of time there were things were ideal; their relationship flourished, and Elsa learned to open a little. She learned to love her sister like Anna had loved her, and they were best friends. They truly were-
But nothing really lasts, does it? Can it? Elsa isolated herself again. She grew away from her sister, detached herself, leaving her in the dark once more. It wasn't exactly the same; Anna had Kristoff now, and Olaf, and Svenn and so many more people. The gates opened and Anna was a social butterfly, making many friends.
It was different though when it came to Elsa. Anna had only just gotten her back. She had only just finally created a relationship with her, and she was shut out again. It hurt Anna. It hurt her a lot. And... She had already tried her shot at kindness. She tried to be understanding, she tried to love her so hard she would never abandon her again. But she did, and Anna was angry. She became bitter towards her sister, confused and mad. She didn't need her, she would tell herself.
You can only assume how wrong she was.
Elsa's room was covered in a thin layer of frost, the air thin and cold in her lungs. Her breath was slow, and shuddered when she let it out. Her mind had become this whirlwind of guilt, fear, and confusion. The last thing she ever wanted was to close the door again between her and Anna. She had loved her sister's constant company, a cure to the loneliness of her past.
Elsa let herself feel a little too much, she thought. There was no way what she was beginning to feel for her sister was normal, acceptable, and in any way could it be right. The sisterly affection took a dreaded turn, and Elsa's immediate reaction was isolation. She knew that friend well, was familiar with it. She was alone, yes. But no longer was she alone and free; she was alone and in pain. Some days, it seemed unbearable. Hearing her sister walk down the hallway on her light toes reminded her of her sin. Hearing her and Kristoff sniggering down the hall, that just reminded Elsa she could never be worthy of her sweet sister.
Her breath caught in a choke, remembering the night she knew it happened. The night she knew what was happening to her emotions was wrong.
/ Anna was skipping down the halls, the dim moonlight through the windows serving enough light to guide her steps. Her nightgown was calf length, and the straps were thin, revealing her freckled collar and chest, her slender neck. Her hair was loose, and it fell perfectly around her, cascades of an auburn color framing her face beautifully. She knocked on Elsa's door, balancing on her tiptoes and leaning forward. "Elsa!" She called, and heard Elsa allow her to enter. Her room was a little warmer than normal, but still had a cool chill. Anna pranced in, her energy unreasonably high for it to only be approaching 10 pm. Elsa turned to face her sister with her charming smile, and hid her gasp well when she saw Anna. She was small, frail. Her flushed cheeks from the cold in her room made her look beyond beautiful, with the perfect amount of adorableness.
Elsa saw Anna's eyes meet hers for a moment, look at her from her head to toes and back to her eyes again, and smile widely. Elsa hadn't yet taken off her dress from the day, and knew that was the cause, but couldn't help herself from being a little conscious of her sisters curious gaze. Her hair, though, was out of it's braid like it was most nights now after her meetings.
"How was your day?" Anna chirped, making her way over to Elsa's bed, plopping onto it, her small body bouncing twice before settling. Her legs hung off the end, bare now up to her thigh, and she leaned back on her elbows and yawned. Elsa rubbed the back of her neck with her hand, smiling crookedly.
"It was good, Anna. Long, but I found a new trade partner for Arendelle. We're in such good shape." Elsa sighed, making her way over to sit next to her sister, aware she was watching her.
"We're only in such good shape because the queen we have is phenomenal," Anna chuckled. Elsa blushed just a little, but Anna caught it and giggled more.
"Can I braid your hair, Elsa? I mean, not that it's beautiful now, you know but-" Elsa cut off her sister with a hand, and nodded.
"Of course you can." Elsa sat on the corner of her bed, criss-cross-apple-sauce style. Anna cooed her approval, and got on her knees behind Elsa and began to brush her tangles with her fingers, gently and lovingly. "Elsa, I know I say it a lot and I'm sorry it's probably annoying by now, but I am so glad things turned out how they did. I'm glad you came back to us, and I'm glad you're my best friend again. Those days you..." Anna stopped, beginning to start the initial braiding. "You know. They were the most painful of my life. I couldn't imagine that again, being alone. Being... Without you." Elsa sighed and shut her eyes, her brows furrowing. She hated remembering what she had done, and though it was all for Anna, she still felt guilty. She felt sorrow deeper then her veins.
"Anna, I'm so-" Elsa began, but stopped when Anna's arms wrapped around her neck from behind.
That sensation...
"Elsa, as long as you never leave me like that again, I promise, you'll never have to feel sorry. I love you," Anna whispered, her breath on Elsa's neck. Elsa shivered inwardly, closing her eyes, savouring the momen- wait, what?! No! This was sick! Anna was her sister, for christs' sake! She didn't mean it like that. This was just sisterly.
Anna let go, and went back to the braiding, humming a familiar song. Elsa smiled a little, but her internal conflictions were raging. "You look beautiful," Anna whispered, like Elsa had done months ago at her coronation. Elsa casted her glare down, biting her lip. Surely, these emotions weren't new to her, were they? She had always loved her sister, but lately the intimacy they shared was growing... Only Elsa felt it, though, and she knew that. However, when she felt Anna's fingers trace along the side of her neck, her fingertips cold slow. She traced small circles, before yawning loudly. That one touch, and Elsa knew. She knew what she felt was more than sisterly love, and it was not okay. Elsa was supposed to protect her, keep her safe. Not think of her in an intimate way. A really intimate way.
Anna sighed, and just like that her fingers were gone and all contact was lost as Anna spread her arms and plopped onto the bed. "Can I sleep here tonight?" Anna said between a yawn, her eyes closing without waiting for her sister's response.
Elsa only smiled, her face flooding with guilt, want, and confusion. /
Elsa put a hand over her mouth, remembering the last time her sister touched her. Spoke to her so sweetly. Her eyes closed tight as they became wet, the curve between her thumb and index finger catching her tears.
She didn't expect Anna to behave like she did now, with coldness. But Elsa deserved it. She shunned her sister again, and Elsa wasn't sure who it hurt more. She wanted her sister to be close to her again. She did. She wanted to feel her soft skin again, flaked with those hazel freckles. She wanted to see the love in her eyes she used to show. But Elsa knew better.
A/N; Wellp! There is the first installation of "Heart of Blue". Stick around to see how the sister interact now, and eventually see them come together again. Hope you guys like! Please review, so I can see how I'm doing; this is my first real fanfiction writter!