AN: I'll be up front. This has a only few chapters worth of future, it is yet another plot bunny that refused to go away. More will come when inspiration hits. FYI this basically takes off in NM right after Bella Jumps. R and R

Summery: A flash of red hair. The current sucked me under. I was drowning, I was burning. I lay at the bottom of the ocean for three days. I emerged a vampire on Quileute land. Escorted to the frozen tundra by my best friend and natural enemy. Nearly a year later, I found them.

Diamond Ashes

Prologue: Fire and Water

It was exhilarating. The fall, the splash, the pain. But this wasn't jumping in a pool, I should have realized. There were rocks yes, I knew that. But the waves were harsh from the coming storm. The undercurrent was pulling me down. I tried fighting it. I really did. Swim parallel to the shore, I remembered that from some obsolete class in Phoenix. But I hadn't exactly been eating well or taking care of myself. Even if I had been I probably still wouldn't have been able to fight the current.

It pulled me under, I held my breath, my head hit something hard. A rock presumably. I was dunked several more times. Each time I fought. But then I realized, what's the point? I can't win against nature. There's no psychic to see me, no werewolf to save me. I gave up. And I heard him, more importantly, I saw him. His face was tortured. His expression grave, his words snarling.

Bella don't do this to me. You can make it. Please, Please try harder.

It was a dream come true as always, that he would actually care for my well being. I stared up at him, My subconscious's last ditch effort to persuade me to live. But there was no point anymore was there? I began to sink, my head almost all the way down. The waves crashing around me deafening my hearing. I closed my eye's let go my air and began to fall into the bliss that death was to be.

But my luck has never been that great. It figures life wouldn't give me the easy out, it never had, it never would.

I felt myself being pulled from the water. Even with the deafening roar of the waves crashing into the rock wall, I could still hear the water draining out of my cloths. I was being held up by the back of my shirt. I was coughing, regaining my breath. Then I felt a hard, very cold finger trace my jaw line. My eye's shot open, and the fear that enveloped me was indescribable. She could no doubt smell it… after all, what predator can't smell fear? She was smiling, it was strangely almost motherly, but then I looked into her red Irises. I could see the hate, the revenge. I was still going to die today, but not after a shit load of pain.

Her crimson hair blew in the wind as I dangled at her mercy. I could clearly hear Edward roar in rage as Victoria laughed without humor.

"A mate for a mate. Even if he valued your humanity more than you, when that little pixie sees you die… So will he."

"NO!" That was the last word I would speak as a human. Victoria dropped me into the water at the crest of a wave as it bashed my arm into the rock leaving it and probably a few ribs broken. I couldn't breath. I could hear Edward… he had no words for me, only my lullaby. I sunk into myself to listen to that as I let go the connection of mind to body as I refused to scream in agony. I would not make another sound.

She broke both my legs, my arms, my spine. All in multiple spots. It hurt so very much. But I just let my lullaby lull me to sleep as blood loss and pain took their toll on my body and my brain. Eventually during my torture, consciousness did leave me. But then I felt fire, I felt a burning fire on my neck. It was then that I screamed. It was then that Edwards lullaby held no escape. It could have been seconds, it could have been hours, but eventually I heard a growl, several actually. I may die, but hopefully I would be Victoria's last kill.

"You will live forever in agony. Changed in pain, forever in pain. I die, my Mate's revenge fulfilled." And then water consumed me. My entire body was on fire, my lungs were on fire. I gasped for breath but inhaled water instead. I coughed it out as my lungs begged for air as my body refused to cooperate and take me higher. I was sinking, sinking, swirling, falling, dying, changing, my lungs were on fire as they burned without oxygen. Water could not douse this flame.

I convulsed as I fell and my screams were lost to the world. Unconsciousness would not come even though Oxygen was unavailable in it's breathable form. Perhaps my lungs had already begun to change. Or perhaps this was just a really bad dream.

The water this far down had calmed somewhat, though I was fairly sure It was dark, but I wasn't sure if my eye's were open or not. At this point I didn't care. My mind along with the rest of my body was beginning to be enveloped in the pain of that lashing fire. And conscious thought eluded me for some time.

Eventually I could hear small bottom feeders as they crawled on the bottom of the ocean floor. That's when I realized, I too was at the bottom of the ocean floor. I could hear the sonic waves given off by some of the fish as they tried to find their next meal. I was beginning to wonder how big of fish were down here. Oddly enough I noticed I was breathing in water, and breathing it out. It was honestly a little creepy not knowing what else was in the water.

Then the pain began to recede from my extremities. I could feel the murky sand beneath my finger tips Then the fire crawled leaving my arms, my legs, my head was fairly clear but the blazing inferno in my torso would not relent. Though in time I could feel the fire crawling back up my veins into my heart. I could hear my heart beating faster than should be human possible and still live. But then I realized… after this, I won't be alive.

Then it stopped. I stopped breathing, as I didn't need to breath at all, I tried to breath out all of the water in my lungs, but I'm sure there was left over's I would have to cough out. I opened my eye's and what I saw was beyond spectacular. It was day, I could see that. The surface of the water seemed so very far away and yet far too close. I could see an extra color humans could not and I could see every dust particle in the water. It was honestly amazing.

I couldn't come up yet though, not until the sun was gone. Pick today to be sunny. My luck. So I stayed still watching the life around me. I will admit, A very vague memory of going to a natural history museum reminded me of why a marine biologist was never on my list of possible careers. This stuff freaked me out. I was just hoping that if for some odd reason, Sharks hung out around here, I would win.

Then the thought of blood hit me. I noticed the scratching burn at the back of my throat, and groaned underwater, which I could surprisingly hear. But honestly, a cold blooded fish held NO interest for me. Even though I could smell it… the fish. If animals were tofu, Fish were probably the equivalent to a rotten egg in human terms. I would wait. And I would make sure that where ever I came out, people were NOT around.

When it seemed dark enough, I moved from my place and stayed underwater as I swam around the shores, looking for a human less spot that I could come out and hunt at. It was amazing how fast I could swim. If I could swim this fast, how fast could I run?

Eventually I realized I could probably just scale a rock wall. But there was still no guarantee that I would not run into a human. Once again I reminded myself to not breath. And my head popped out of the water. I sniffed briefly, experimentally, and the remaining water came up as I hacked it out of my useless lungs.

I scaled the wall rather easily despite my soaked clothing. Hardly weighed a thing. I didn't really know what to do at this point. I remembered Ed… I remembered him telling me that they gave into their senses. I sniffed again before I tried it. I smelt something edible, but nothing delectable. With that I gave in. I caught several dear. I had filled myself as best I could, it actually felt rather sloshy in my stomach.

I sat unnecessarily thinking about my options. Thinking about what had happened to Victoria. The wolves had gotten her, at least I hoped they had. But what about me? Was I on their land, was I breaking the treaty? Where was I any way? Had I been left for dead, searched for but not found?

As I thought, the wind changed direction and an atrocious smell assaulted my sense of smell. It honestly smelt like wet dog smells to humans. I could vaguely remember that. Vaguely.

I instantly searched my memories, I had too keep my memories of my mother, of Charlie, even Phil. But I had too keep my memories of the Cullen's. No matter how much thinking about them hurt, and it hurt a lot. Far more than the Burning did. Their absence hurt more than my transformation. There was still a gaping hole in my chest, and my brain was all the more apt to comprehend just how much pain I was in. It was no wonder I had been catatonic then zombie like. My human body couldn't handle this pain. But my vampire body could. I could still function, even with the pain. I sighed and breathed in again. I froze.

I stood quickly and turned around. My second family, the one that had taken me in during my pain. The pain caused by their natural enemy. I was now a part of that group. We were natural enemies. I was going to have to leave. Because they weren't all in Wolf form, I could only assume they weren't going to kill me. That kind of sucked. I fell to my knees as my I slowly let go of my Wolf family. The hole in my chest grew. I sobbed tearlessly. Venom coating my eye's but not falling. Then I felt a fire embrace me. I looked up…

"Jake… I can't stay, can I?" He didn't say anything. But he did start shaking. Whether he was silently sobbing or about ready to phase, I didn't know, nor did I care. I just embraced my Sun as I shook and sobbed. When both of us settled. Sam, also not in wolf form stepped forward. His face downcast. I knew his answer. He looked at me in the eye. The reflection I saw scared me, Crimson eye's, brown shiny hair… It hardly looked like me.

"I'm sorry Bella. Sorry we were too late to save you. To us… to everyone, you are dead, you're tombstone is laid over an empty filled in hole." I looked at him.

"How's Charlie?"

"Billy and Jake have been keeping him company, he is grieving as any parent would. You can not see him, or anyone."

"I understand… What about Renee, do you know?"

"She and Phil have also been grieving. Seeing how adamant you were about staying in Forks, it was agreed that you're memorial would stay in Forks cemetery." I nodded my head

"Jake, Embry, and Quill will be escorting you to the Canadian wilderness." I nodded my head again.

"I'll miss you guys." The wolves could no longer stay in place. Jake retreated into the woods, I heard him take his cloths off and phase. The wolves were next to me. Everyone, including myself had their noses scrunched up. But we all ignored it. I patted each of their heads as they looked up at me with sorrow. I smiled sadly as Jake emerged.

"Hold your breath, and Run, not ahead, not behind, but with them." Once again I nodded, looking to the wolves around me. Then I looked at Sam.

"Thank you for taking me in, I will be forever grateful." he looked to say something else… I took a stab in the dark.

"I know, I can't come back." He nodded glad for my understanding. "Tell Emily I said thanks too." He smiled at that, nodding again. I turned around.

"Lets go guys."

The three guided me as I followed next to them, Jake in front, Embry and Quill at my sides. I could have gone faster. But I didn't know my way to Canada, and this was the last time I'd see them.

The wolves stopped. So did I. They all turned to me once again as I ruffled their fur lightly. I wasn't sure how strong I was.

"Can I breath?" Jake nodded his head. It wasn't the best idea as they did smell revolting… not as bad as the fish though. I lightly kissed each of their foreheads and said my last words to Jake.

"I hope you imprint on someone who deserves you. You deserve that." he whined and I chuckled lightly.

"Go home, be safe, and Thank you." They all did a small bow of sorts then turned off and Ran. I turned around. Canada… Nice. I looked at the frozen cloths I was wearing. Alice would screech… And there was the pain again. I don't know how long I was there wrapped up in a ball, I had no sense of time, no sense of anything really. I didn't bother to count the day's, I had no point, no purpose, no existence, no life… I just was.

I had come across no town, I just fed on animals, dear, elk, bear, a few others here and there. As the days passed, I noticed the snow began to melt, little by little. Summer was coming. I sighed as I finished up my latest hunt. My cloths still frozen, torn and bloody, but still functional. For one moment in time, I returned to my memories as a human. Edward… I fell to the ground clutching my un-beating heart. He had said he had thought about suicide at one point. Italy someplace. It was a thought to keep in mind. I would have to find some humans sometime in the next year or so and test out my ability to resist them.

Then I could go, I'd probably have to swim, I didn't exactly have any money on me. And had no reason to want to fly in an enclosed space with humans… that might be bad if I lost it. I'd end up swimming anyway. But that was still a year away. Until then I would have to just function, drink, and curl up into my favored position and pretend to sleep as I suffered the pain of the loss of not just my vampire family, but my wolf family, and my biological family as well. I was alone. Always alone. My luck.

I finished my latest bear. They were better than dear. But I didn't wrestle with them like Emmett did. I didn't want my cloths any more Screwed up than they already were.

Emmett… my mandatory spike of inhumane pain came and my I curled up in my patented fetal position laying on the snow next to my unburied bear. I was there for a long time, to the point that the bear froze. The snow fell and buried the bear naturally and me along with it. Things had grown cold and frozen again. The snow layered in ice. It was easy to burrow up through it though. I ran in one direction trying to keep my mind off of anything and everything. I ran in another direction, just focusing on the wind, and the snow, and never looking at myself in the sun. What I wouldn't do for a book, or even a journal. I sighed again… Then I stood stock still.

The vampire stood and growled protecting it's catch. A strawberry blond. I held my hands up telling her I meant no harm. The Denali clan… it must be.

"Are you of the Denali coven?" She nodded slowly as she worked herself out of hunting mode.

"Yes, I'm Tanya. Any you are?"

"Bella."

"Newborn?" I nodded my head. "And a vegetarian." My eye's must have at least started to change color then. I nodded. Her head cocked to the side ever so slightly. Then she turned around and finished her Elk and disposed of it. She had turned her back on a newborn… I found that rather odd.

"Follow me." And so I did.

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AN: Well what do ya think?