Harry Potter's Deepest Fears.
By: Julie White
Disclaimer: These are not my characters or situations I am merely toying with them.
This chapter has been updated.
Harry Potter was at the top most tower at Hogwarts. His beloved school– his home was burning around him.. He couldn't remember how he had gotten here. Where was Ron, and Hermione? Where was Ginny!? He had to find them. He just hoped he wasn't to late. He ran down into the halls, the sight before him was horrific.
He was walking around a Hogwarts on fire. Pictures burned, Student ran by covered in ash and bleeding. Many had broken arms and legs. Many laid on the floor either unconscious or dead. Their friends were trying to wake them looking up at Harry and crying for help. Harry walked past them thinking only of the friends he could not find.
It was dark despite the flames. Harry could not even see right in front of himself. "Lumos!" Harry cried. I circle of light lit his feet but did nothing to help improve his vision. Harry ran a hand over his face pushing his hair away from his eyes. His glasses were cracked, Harry took them off and glanced at them.
"Occlus Repairo" Harry said thinking of Hermione.
She had taught him that one. She had taught him so much and now- NO harry thought she couldn't be. He would find them all of them alive and they would be fine he HAD to find them. They had be so brave. True Griffindors to the end. The last time he had seen them was down by the library.
Harry began to run that way. Other students jostled past him running the other direction. The Death Eaters were last seen by the libraries as well and people wanted as far from them as possible.
Harry hadn't seen any teachers for two floors now. He wondered if they were all dead. The sad hollow look in Professor McGonagall's eyes as she took her last breath was still fresh in his mind. Harry shook his head and tried to clear the vision from his mind. He had to think clearly. Keep his guard up.
Harry was alone now in the halls. They burned around him. The people in the portraits were crying out to him as they burned. Harry ran past them jumping over bits of stone that littered the floors.
Harry finally made it to the library, he stood out side for just a moment then quietly peered around and looked in. The book cases were turned over. Desks were up righted. There were no Death Eaters in sight.
Blood covered the books that lay streamed across the floor. Harry walked into the room. Roaming carefully around the mess.
"RON!" Harry shouted then quickly hid just in case. When he was sure there was no one around. Well no one unwelcome he emerged and shouted again. "RON! HERMIONE! GINNY!" his voice cracked on the last name.
Ginny poor, sweet, young, Ginny. It had taken Harry quite awhile but he finally realized how much he loved that girl. It would be cruel to take her away from him now. Right after he had finally gotten her. Harry walked deeper into the library. Searching, praying that he would find someone.
Harry would always remember when his deepest darkest fears came true. He turned a corner and there on the ground half under a book case and surrounded by the books she loved so much was Hermione.
"HERMIONE!" Harry cried running to her and falling down beside her. "Hold on Hermione. Hold on!"
Pulling out his wand Harry aimed it at the book case and lifted it off of her. She was covered in blood her once beautiful face was cut and bruised. He turned her over and pulled her to his lap.
"Hermione" Harry whispered his eyes filling with tears. "Please Hermione." Her beautiful eyes opened and she let out a wrangled breath.
"Har-rry." It was nothing more than a whisper. Tears ran down her face. "Harry."
Harry fought the tears, but lost. "Shhh– Hermione please you're goin be alrigh– pleases." he begged her to stay. She smiled at him and raised her hand to his face touching his lips and cheek softly.
"I–I love." but she never finished. The words died on her lips. Her eyes were soft and honest looking into Harry's soul. Harry pulled her closer kissing her forehead and rocking back and forth.
"NOOOOO!! HERMIONE. NO!!!." He screamed and cried many minutes. His voice was dying. He looked down at his best friend. She had so much to offer to the world. Ron was so lucky. Harry then remembered the others. He slid Hermione off him and brushed her hair away from her face. Closing her eyes and giving her one last kiss. This was his goodbye.
Some how he found his feet. He started to search again. Praying he would find them alive.
Harry walked into the restricted section and couldn't breath. The selves and books in here, even the air was tinted green. And laying in the middle of it all was Ron. Harry leaned to the door jam. No longer able to hold his own weight.
Ron had really developed into his own person the past year. Toned and defined muscles had been the result of many Quidditch games. He had finally stopped growing was now nice round 6 foot 4. Now the new man was laying on the ground his skin a pale greenish color. His eyes were not shock like most but of anger. Ron died fighting. He died brave.
Harry did not hold Ron he didn't shed a tear. He had to fight. He had to find Ginny and fight. HE had win. This would be his honor to Ron. This would be his way of showing how much he loved him. Then he would come back morn. Harry walked by the only man he ever loved more than Sirius. He walked by his best friend, his brother.
Up ahead in the back room of the library Harry heard a commotion. As he looked in he filled not only with anger and fear but with hope as well. There was Ginny, surrounded by Death Eaters. Her wand was drawn but she was losing. Yet she was alive.
Harry ran into the room shouting curses at as many as he could. The sound of his voice must have shocked Ginny because for a split second she let down her guard and looked right at Harry then she smiled one of those full smiles that really shows its love. Harry was filled with the warmth and the knowledge of that smile. It said they may have lost the ones they loved but they had lived and would make it out together.
Harry was so happy that he didn't think he could ever feel sad again. GINNY was alive. She had made it and her and Harry were going to live.
That's why neither of them heard the words of the killing curse. And that's why when they saw the green flash it was too late. It hit Ginny in the chest knocking her backward off the desk she was standing on. Harry broke into a full sprint. Catching her as she fell backward. She was a dead weight in his arms. Her face and eyes still showed the happiness they had shared.
Harry felt like dying. Wanted to die. He had no reason to live. No one left to live for. He held her slightly aware that the Death Eaters had left for some unknown reason. Harry didn't care why. He held the girl he loved and looked into the happiness. He kissed her gentle on the lips and cried on her chest holding her close to him. He cried to no one for a long time.
Then he picked her up and slowly carried her into the room with Ron. Harry laid Ginny down next to her brother. Then looking at Ron he grabbed his cold dead body and hugged him. Crying on the shoulder of his best friend. He set Ron back down. Harry knew what to do. He was already dead inside. He walk out of the library looking for a Death Eater or Voldemort. They seemed to have been waiting for him.
"How very sad Harry now I have killed all of your family. Now you have no one no reason to live" Voldemort was smirking at Harry snake like slits that were his eyes staring into Harry. Harry just looked at Voldemort walked right up to him and closed his eyes.
"Kill me, KILL ME!" he shouted. Harry had no reason to live. He wanted to die. To just forget everything.
"Harry– Harry– HARRY!" it was Ron's voice. How much Harry wanted to hear Ron to see him one last time to hug him and tell him how much he meant to him. But Harry did not dare open his eyes Ron was dead and hearing his voice was just wishful thinking. Ron was dead. Still Harry could not fight the temptation.
Has he opened his eyes bright morning sunlight shone onto his face. Ron was standing above him looking worried.
"You were screaming 'Kill me' I got worried mate!"
Harry looked around him he was at the borrow in Ron's room. Hermione and Ginny were sitting on Ron's bed looking worried and scared. Harry sat up slowly looking at them tears still in his eyes. Her stood up and threw his arms around Ron, Hermione, and Ginny hugging them all tightly and crying over and over. "I can't lose you! I can't lose you!" They hugged him back to scared and worried to ask.